Because we're together for eternity

Another week past without a single post. Oh great. I went to Singapore last weekend with my family. And came home almost empty handed with almost dislocated legs and numb feet. Singapore was really hectic last weekend because it was Christmas. People were swarming everywhere. Abang and I couldnt find any Topshop/Topman in sight. I dont know why. Managed to get a boxer shorts and a floral skirt. And thats it. Im serious. After all the walking, I actually didnt buy anything. I was so grumpy but then I came to my senses, and realised that it wasnt so bad after all. I didnt buy anything but atleast I spent the whole weekend with my family. Now thats priceless :) Though it was fun in Singapore, I did miss lover. And still missing him now. I havent seen him since Singapore and is so eager to see him today right after my Management class. Yeay!

I bought a floral jacket from Cotton On and I love it! Now how about a leather jacket? :) I dont know why Im so into jackets right now. I think jackets are so cool.

Three of my classes today were canceled. Which gave me time to blog. And now that I've blogged, Im going to take a nap since Im lack of sleep. Au revoir!

Lack of sleep and energy

Last night was hectic. With hundreds of people to entertain by the pool and everything. Im just glad lover was with me the whole time. Fara came too of course. She was being skinny as ever, not eating for days because of Ijal. Im seriously worried about her. I really need to feed her. I was smiling ear to ear to see Aizat Afiq came. I missed him! Its been ages, I tell you. Awish was being a total sweetheart too, like always. Everything went well except for the back aches and strains Im going through right now. Sadly Noor couldnt make it as she was in Penang.

Of goodbye(s) and hello(s)

Yesterday was our 21st anniversary! Its been a year and 9months and still counting :)

Lover fetched me up on Thursday at college and we stopped by McDonald's for late lunch as Mommy was down with a fever so couldnt cook for us. After fulling our stomachs with all the burgers, fries and ice cream, we went back to my place to spend some more time together. We managed to watched The Beatles' DVD live in Japan that I bought last week but never got around to watch it. That DVD was awesome, I kid you not. All the four of them were so adorable that I wish all of them are still alive. Especially Lovely Lennon. Its so sad how he died in front of the Dakota, out of nowhere, just like that. Anywho, they were all such charming young men, performing on the cheap looking stage as the set ups were all from 1964. Oh and the fact that I found out that George Harrison looked alot like Johan! Seriously, they look so much alike. After the 'oohh(s)' and 'aahhh(s)' from drooling over Lennon, I took out my Law and Probability books and started to write notes. I managed to get my head around a thing or two. Since lover didnt know what to do while I was studying, he lied down and started to look so bored. He said he was hungry and asked me to cook cabonara for him. I was so lazy at first but seeing how he was so starving, I got up and steamed the fetuccini. I cooked fetuccini cabonara with extra cheese. Thank God it turned out just fine. After eating, lover had to go home. He went back at around 2300. After lover went back, Daddy just got home from Sabah. He brought Hershey Kisses for us to munch. I passed on the chocolate as it was almost midnight and I was too lazy to brush my teeth again. But the day after, which was yesterday, I ate like its nobody's business. Johan, Hafezz, Hadi and Imran came to our place to hang. And they're still here today.

Tomorrow is Abang's pre-big day. The event for Abang's getaway is to be held tomorrow and I cant believe that he's leaving in a week. What more when he'll be in The States for three friggin' years! I cant imagine how my life will be without him around. I'll sure miss him. Dont go Abang, please :(

Half way through

Why oh why are you so beautiful?

I woke up today by the sound blasting through my ears. I flinched, and quickly grabbed my red cell. Thinking it was still early like 5 in the morning, I pressed the green button without checking the caller ID. Zahir called to wake me up as it was already 730. I didnt believe him at first, saying it was only 4 or 5 in the morning. But when I took a peek at my opened door balcony, sun was starting to rise. So I showered and got ready. Noor drove from home and brought me to class. Law was okay. IT on the other hand, was really boring as we learnt about how to use Microsoft Words. Okay, personally, I think even a 5 year old kid knows how to use it. So, I did my assignment for like 5minutes and I was done. I was on facebook the whole class. After class, I accompanied Noor to a petrol station nearby to fill air in her tires. Went back college and now here I am. Im feeling so sleepy right now. But I cant sleep as its already 1330 and my class is at 1400. Sigh, how terribly lazy I am right now. I wish I can just close my eyes and doze off. Management class is next and thank God, management isnt boring. If its Construction, Im sure I'll be sleeping throughout the whole class :p

Of strains and aches

Just finished dance practice. We spent like, an hour to wait for Hazim as he was in an accident. And I was feeling so freaking tired and exhausted throughout the whole dance. Hazim just thought us a new dance, My Love. I was pretty excited about it but I wasnt just now. I was too tired to even care if I did the steps right. But just to be nice to Hazim, as he had always been nice to all of us, I tried my best to keep a smile on my face. The dance practically continued until midnight. And boy, wasnt I knackered! I went up to the room alone as Ika was going somewhere with Betik after the dance and Noor, like usual. Back at home every chance she got. I showered alone, trying to be done as fast as I can.

Oh, seeing I was too tired to think or even focus on something, when I was dancing at Gazebo, I saw lover everywhere. Seriously, like everywhere. Guess I was very very tired or maybe I miss him too much. I dont know. After showering, I had to wait for lover as he was playing futsal with his group of friends. Though my body was so tempted to the bed and my eyes were about to give up, I forced myself to stay awake for lover. Because I dont want him to get mad when he knows I didnt wait for him or something. He called and all I hear was his friends' voices, screaming here and there. Gave me serious headache, I kid you not. Everything is getting on my last nerve when Im this tired. Sigh. I'll have to sleep it off, I guess. But wait, I'll have to wait for him, still. Okay, Im waiting now

My heart will tumble

So classes today were kind of boring. Except for English and Accounts. I arrived in class today alone. And late. The front row was full, so I had to dragged myself to the back of the class and sat there. I saw Noor at the back row too, so I flashed a grin. I sat alone today. I didnt mind, because we were all busy jotting down notes anyway. So I dont see the point on being choosy with whom should I sit with. I sat blankly while my Physics lecturer blabbed something about optics. My mind flew all the way to Bangi. You know why. To all you dunderheads who dont know why Bangi, its where KLIUC, lover's college is located. When Probability came, my mind flew to everywhere else in the world except in class. I took down notes regardless. So, though my mind wasnt in class, later own the notes will be useful when exams are coming. After that was accounts. Now, this was the time I flew back in class. My mind was very focus on accounting. Perhaps because I already did accounts last year and I felt excited when I got the answers to the lecturer's questions. Haha. After class, Noor and I walked to Pekan Buku which is kind of far to walk. We had to because we had been delaying our trip there since the first week we were here for second semester. Our walk under the blazing sun wasnt worth it when all the books we were planning to buy were out of stock. Can you believe it? I cant. So just to make all the sweat worth and the strain on our legs heal, we bought pens and notepads. Just for the sake of the sweat that were running down our back, between our cleavages, on our foreheads. We walked back to college and it wasnt any better as the sun was starting to really climb up on top of our heads. By the time we reached college, our sweat was like waterfall running down our bodies. I swear to God, we were sweating as if we just showered with our own sweat. We chilled out in the room for awhile and had to get our asses to our next classes. The time passed by a blur. I told you so.

Tomorrow

So, Im not going back to college tonight as Hazim cancelled our dance. So, I have to do my tutorial in rush tomorrow. Awish just went back. And Im missing him already. Talking about miss, I miss lover so bad. I havent really spend a day without him. I didnt get to see him today. Explains the withdrawals Im having. I need you, boyfriend. Sigh. I produced sweat today! Which is a total good news as I was eating like mad these past days. I learnt the steps I watched on Youtube. And boy, wasnt it hard! But it was all worth it when I finally got the steps. Not as sharp as the dancers but Im still trying. Still not in the mood to blog. That explains all the short posts I posted these past few days. Sorry! I'll post a long one when Im in the mood okay.

Moment of Truth

I was lazing around with Noor in my room at college when Ika called saying our results were out. I didnt want to go because I was too scared. I knew my result would be so bad that I would cry. So Noor and I slipped into our baju kurung(s) and headed to the old lecturers' building. When Dr. Zahara handed me my slip, I felt like my heart is about to burst out from my chest. I survived the almost heart attack and teared up the ends of my slip to open it. First thing I saw was of course, like I expected, I flunked both my math and physics+chemistry. But I did get an A- for my environmental studies which was a shocker as I didnt expect it due to my break down about my grandma on that particular day. However, I was shocked, so shocked that I even thought I might have been swallowed by the ground when I saw my Microeconomics is B+. I did so well that I expected an A- at least. Sigh. What more when I saw my CGPA which was awful. Despite that, I didnt cry. Because to be frank, I was half disappointed but a part of me was relieved as I did better than my midterm. But still. After taking our results, we returned to our room and wasted the remaining time in our room, lazing around. At 1500, we got ready as we had this talk I said earlier. It wasnt even that important, and it ended earlier that it supposed to be. Right after class, I asked Zahir to come and fetch me up. I went to Dewan Gemilang after that and met up with Isabella for the modern indian dance. Im joining and good news!Noor might too. Lets just hope she'll join :) Lover arrived later and Noor and I were rushing. Lover brought me to dinner at Dominos just now. I ate alot! And now Im happy. But dont remind me of that little slip of mine that I kept safely in my bag. Ugh

Running nose

To add a cherry to the cupcake, not just the fact that I didnt get into design group had making me grumpy since the last 24hours. This nose had been a pain in the ass too, I tell you. Feel like taking a knife and cut it off my face. Its so irritating. I cant even breathe while I sleep. Ugh. I went to sleep last night breathing through my mouth which is so not comfortable. I woke up today by the vibration of my red LG under my pillow. Thought it was lover, I quickly ran my hands under my pillow searching for the phone. It was actually mommy calling and asked me to cook Cabonara for breakfast. After hanging up, I straight away call lover to wake him up. After hanging up, I woke Nina up and asked hr whether she's still up for the McDonald's invite. You see, last night when I got home from college, Nina asked me to go to McDonald's for supper. But I wasnt in the mood to eat, so I said no.But today, I feel like eating. Im not really famish, but hungry, definitely. I didnt eat dinner last night. So, fillet o fish, here I come.

I received a text from one of the dancers in my college, but not in my group. Isabella asked me whether Im interested in a modern Indian dance to perform. I told her Im not sure, feeling guilty to let her down without thinking about it. So I think Im going to consider it. We practised our new dance last night and it was awe-freaking-some, I kid you not. Its one of the MJ song, and the dance moves are so fast that you can see how awesome it is when we all do it in synchronization. I cant wait for the performance, its going to be insane!

blotchy watery red eyes of mine

Found out I didnt get in the design group. Sigh Im so disappointed in myself :(

Six Hundred

Today marks the 600th days of lover and I together. I love you, Zahir!!

Oh and mommy bought me the bag I've wanted for soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo long. Im so happy. I love you mommy.

My brain has stop working

Help me anyone ! Travis, Im having problems with my work. See, Im having a little presentation for my English Muet's class on Monday. That only leaves me just one day to prepare. But the thing is, I cant. I feel like hitting my own head with a big fat hammer for not starting earlier. Now I have no idea and what more when I google-d about COMFORTABLE UNIFORMS, some crappy forums' url popped up. What can I do ? I thought of doing it myself, without searching information over the internet and just start my own essay. But my heart and brain just kept saying no. I wrote about two lines of introduction and was stuck until now. The two lines I came up with werent that good either. Whats happening to me ? Abang said to me earlier that if I dont have the mood to write and essay or do some presentation work, then I wont get any ideas till Im in the mood. The problem is, my presentation is on Monday and I'll be going back to UM tomorrow. Theres no time ! Come on Brain, dont disappoint me. Dont bail on me. You can do this. Help meeeee Mr. Brain.

On the bright side of the story, I went to the Vintage Bazaar at 3K today and Daddy bought me another pair of Crocs. Two pairs of Crocs in a week. Daddy gave me a pair of red checkered one for my birthday last week. And today he bought me another. And its leopard printed :D
I found so many vintage dresses and shoes but Daddy was meeting his friend, so we were kind of rushing. In the rush, I managed to meet my two high school friends, Neys and Dee. Its been awhile. We talked for so long that Daddy was waiting for me in the car out side. Haha. We had so much to talk about, to catch up. When we were talking, a photographer came up to us and asked us to pose and she interviewed Neys about her outfit. Went out and found my family waiting for me and went to see Daddy's acquaintance. Went to Shah Alam later on for Ramadhan Bazaar. It was hectic ! I had to pushed through the throng of people and my head was spinning. People were swarming all over the bazaar. Daddy said he cant stand the thousands of people around, so we ended up buying food at Victory in Taipan. Went back home and it was almost break fast time. Prepared the food on the dining table and before I knew, it was already Maghrib. First fasting day was not so bad (:

So now I have to get back to my work of two lines. I know right, Im so lame. Sigh. Pleasee ideas, come out from that brain up there !
Au Revoir ! Wish me luck, sweeties

Legally legal

Yes, yesterday was the day I turned legal !

On Friday, I went to Mock Trial and it was freaking great. Mock Trial is like a theatre that UM's law students act. They did a story about a model and it was so funny that I almost pee in my pants from laughing too hard. Most of their jokes are obscene but still, they got me laughing my ass off that night. The parents fetched me up after the Mock Trial and I arrived at home, making a pit stop at bistro as Abang was having a party with his friends down there. I joined and ended up sleeping at almost 7.

The next day was MTV World Stage and let me tell you, it was ridiculously awesome. I swear, I had sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much fun. Raygun was so awesome and, Mr. Ray was bloody hot that I cant take my eyes off him. God, when I saw him on stage, I was like, do people this hot really exist ? And he performed really well, I tell you ! All American Rejects was great too. With Hoobastank and Casabian. Boys like girls some more. They were all so awesome that I think I could die just by watching them on stage. Haha. I got myself Boy Like Girls' guitar pick that they threw. Though I was craving for their drumsticks, but its okay. We should be grateful, right? So yes, I am satisfied (: World Stage ended at 2345, and we hung around for a bit. Arrived home at 12 midnight. After I placed my sneakers, I entered my house, finding it was dark inside. Assuming my family have gone to bed, I went in and that was when I hear Nina playing her keyboard. Birthday song, with everyone singing Happy Birthday to me. And I mean, everyone. The guys.I was smiling ear to ear but when Nina's room door was opened, I saw Zhr holding a cake. I smiled even wider that moment. When I saw Fara, I screamed and ran to hug her. I missed her so much ! I blew the candles on Zhr's hands, and we all ate Dominos for dinner. I was seriously happy. So, thank you. Everybody. For all the presents, the surprise, for making me smile up to my ears, for making my birthday so awesome, for the fun at World Stage and thanks Mommy, for the flour you threw into my ear. Haha. A gazillion thanks to everyone who was there :) I love you guys ! Oh oh, loverboy got me the leopard printed DP purse I wanted for so long. Thanks bibi. I love you very much!

Spirit up your soul

Went to Rimbun Dahan in Kuang for Graphic Communication today. It was one hell of an experience. Rimbun Dahan is actually an architect, Hijjas Kasturi's house. I slept on the bus and when we arrived, my jaw was hanging open. The land was very big, I tell you ! They have a guest house, a classic garage, the main house, a pool, a dance studio, an underground art gallery, gardens and everything ! I sketched everything that caught my eyes. All and all, I enjoyed it. Very much. After Miss Anum gave us our assignment, we went back at around 4pm. Slept again in the bus. Arrived in UM, got ready and lover arrived to fetch me. Went to Ikea to fill my stomach with a plate poached salmon and daim cake. Went to Taipan later on to buy dinner for lover's family. And he got me a ventti of Choc Cream Chip which I've been craving for for almost a month! Im home for the weekend and good news ! Awish is coming tomorrow. I cant wait. Now Im sleepy and knackered. Okay bye.

Dancing in the moonlight,

Arrived in UM at around 1600 yesterday. After cleaning up the room while waiting for Ika to arrive, I managed to read the first question of my Microeconomics tutorial. Yes, you've guess it right, I didnt even do the first question. The second I finished reading the question, I heard sounds outside. Yes, Ika arrived and its so obvious that my works were left on my study table. Typical of me eh ? Haha. We lay down on our beds and talked. And talked. And talked. Until Ika fell asleep. I tried to sleep but couldnt so I got up and started doing my Orthographic work which turned out to be super awesome. Everything was nicely measured. I felt so satisfied of being able to do it without any difficulties like Ika had. When Ika woke up, she was starving like hell and we decided to call McDonald's for dinner. Unfortunately, Bangsar's McDonald's had something going on and couldnt make the delivery. We spent the next hours being stupid, thinking of what to eat since we were too lazy to go down to the cafe to eat. The reason I called ourselves stupid is because the whole time we were famishing for food, we didnt realise that there were alot of instant noodle sitting on our cupboards. Well, everything went well yesterday and I felt so happy, I have no idea why. Mommy called at almost noon today and asked me to get ready as she was coming to fetch me. So Im now in Subang again. There are still so much works to do. But Im sleepy. I think Im gonna take a nap for a little while..

Favourite,

Lets shake it

Ika came over on Sunday and she slept over my house for a couple of days and it was hella fun ! I did my hair on Sunday and we met up at the salon. And went to shop later on. I managed to get a low price Forever21 top and its so irresistible that Ika bought the same top too. We bought the same baju kurung for Uni too. After aching our legs, we went to Uncle John's for dinner and went straight home. Ika and I spent our night with laughter, pillow talk, dvds, supper until 6 in the morning and we decided that we were tired. We woke up at 1330 the next afternoon and got up to get ready for our next shopping spree. Nahh, it wasnt a shopping spree, but it was fun too. We went to Mydin to shop for groceries for Uni and managed to get alot of things for our room since we are room mates in Uni. Before the shopping began, we went to KFC to eat and hell, we ate like we havent eaten for a month ! After bloating our already bloated stomachs, we went in Mydin. We bought a red rug, a couple of red bed sheets, and everything for our room. We spent almost RM300 but we were satisfied and left with a big smile on our faces. We waited for Abang at Mydin's food court that night and went home. Ika was supposed to go home that night but her dad said she can stay another night. We didnt want to miss the chance, so she spent another night here. We slept earlier than the day before but that was because we have to tail mommy to her school the next morning.

We woke up on Tuesday morning at 6. With our eyes closed, we dragged ourselves to the toilet to shower. After putting on our sweatpants, we went to SKSS. We ate breakfast at the SKKS's canteen and went straight to the pre school building. The reason we went to the school is to train the little kids dance. A traditional dance to be specific. Ika and I had a lot of fun with the cute little kids, seriously. They were all so clever and know how to talk like an adult. At 12 in the afternoon, Ika and I went up to mommy's library to wait for mommy. Ika found a congkak and asked me to play with her. But I lost ! Haha. We then took the cushions on the sofa and lay them down and we slept. Mommy woke us at around 1430 and we went to Taipan for lunch. McDonald's was our choice. Arrived home, I rushed to the toilet and showered. And got ready to meet up with Zhr. Ika was left at home with Mommy and Ipan and they were watching a dvd together when I was on my way out. I kissed Ika, mommy and Ipan good bye and went down to see Zahir.

Funny thing,

Its been a really long time. I was really busy this past couple of weeks with those piling up assignments, tutorials and dance. So I had no time to even press the ON button on my laptop. So many things happened but of course, I wont be typing it all here because I doubt I can type THAT long. But anyway, funny thing just happened. Since its been a long time I didnt blog, I forgot my password and spent almost an hour to track my password back down which fortunately I remembered out of the sudden. Of course, my palm automatically moved to smack myself on the forehead. Oh well, today is Saturday and Im home for a week as my mid semester break is finally here ! Well, well, dont get too excited. Despite the one week holiday, I have to finish off my assignments and tutorials. And not to mention, I have alot of studying to do since my mid sem exams are running towards me with full speed. I'm scared, no doubt about that since I have zero knowledge in Trig and Chemistry. I have to find someone to help me, ASAP ! So, enough with the studies and assignments. Today, I went out with the parents and all I can say is, today is another productive day. Its been awhile I didnt feel so productive but after getting those dresses and shoes, I feel so.. satisfied. I havent been shopping for so long and I missed the smell of new clothes.

Last Sunday was my Uni's Senior Junior Interaction Week closing night and the seniors asked us to perform the exact same dance we did at Faculty the other night. So we did, and this time, it was even better as the lightings were awesome and the sound system can really make you stand on your feet and shake your bootaayy. But some people, just dont get it and have the nerve to talk trash about our dance being so sexy and seductive. You should know by now how their appearances are. But hey, who cares ? If they dont like it, then why did they continued watching us on stage ? Ironic, isnt it ? Well, the audience who like our dancing screamed even louder when we started to dance to MJ's Billy Jean. I was so happy that our dance went so well that I think I slept with my lips pulled up to my ears :)

I have no idea

I'm left behind so far in Chemistry. So, Uni has been so great lately. Though it took a lot of my time, but I still enjoy it. With classes to attend in the mornings, dance practises at nights, having splendid friends here. All seems so nice. Zahir is also changing back to his oldself, slowly. I think its safe for me to say that my life is now in a good state. Though of course, I havent seen my bestfriend for like so freaking long that Im starting to miss her to death and am about to face withdrawals. Ahh I miss you, Fara ! :(

So last week I had to go back home in Subang on Saturday instead of the usual Fridays. Its because I had class on Saturday. Graphic Communication is one of my favourite subject. Yes, I was grumpy at first when I knew I had to attend extra class on a Saturday morning. But of course, sketching and drawing and doodling are my sort of things. So I cheer up instantly. Haha. My girls and I have to walk all the way to Rimba Ilmu, a place that we were supposed to go. It was kind of like a forest, so we were taught about trees and flowers and animals and stuffs like that. I may had three or maybe more red spots on my arms and neck because of the mosquito-bites but I really enjoyed the class. After we were guided through the forest full of impressively massive trees and unique flowers, we were brought to a big room to sketch what we saw. I started right away and produce three pages of animals and plants sketching :] After the class, we were all sweating like big fat pigs, we waited for Ika's boyfriend, Hisyam to fetch us all up.

Bad luck it is

Came back last night all the way from UM just to go waste my time at Gombak. I should explain. Well, this morning I had to wake up early and go to Soka Driving Agency in ss19. Roger and Desmond brought me and the others to APMBE in Gombak. To cut things short, I passed my first round. Acing all three sections. But the bad news is that I failed on the road. I am completely devastated and refused to accept the fact that JPJ failed me on the spot because I was driving too slow. Come on man, Im just a beginner. So why the H do you want me to drive like a mad girl ? Please. Sigh

Arrived home feeling extra super exhausted. Talked with mommy for a bit and showered. Ate mommy's freakishly delicious fried rice. And ate durian. Sure, every taste of it was like heaven but when I've washed my hands for a million times but the smell is still there, I started to regret it. Ahhh durian is the best ever. Thats why they call them king of fruits, maybe ?

I want to type a longer post but sadly I have to go now because its almost 8pm, and I have to get ready to go back to college.

Oh, going for a movie with loverboy this Thursday. Transformers, okay. Be jealous ;]

I'll post about everything later if I have the time to online at college. Au revoir !

Everything is changing

Zahir had registered and is now in KLIUC. He came by my house yesterday before going, and brought me to Taipan to buy some stuffs. And well, I cried in the car seeing how he's going. I know it isn't that far but I know everything will change. I wont see him as frequent any more.

I just moved to another room. From C737 to the 8th floor. There are a million reasons why I should move to the new room. First, I will be sharing the new room with one of my close friend there, Ika. Second, my old room mate, Elin is always out. Sometimes, she stayed out the whole night. Third, the toilet on the 8th floor is WAYYYYYYYY cleaner that the one on 7th floor. And now, all the cubicles have locks on the doors, not like the ones on the 7th floor. There are alot more to list down but Im just too lazy to do so. The conclusion is, my new room is much much better than the one before. Oh and my new room has curtains and sort of like a small roof at the balcony. Both make my room more shady and not too hot.

Mommy and Daddy will be back tonight from London. I miss them truckloads !

Its been ages

Well, I've been so lazy to update a new post. No, I have not been busy with Uni or whatsoever. Its just the laziness took over me. So I went to University of Malaya on 25th of May to register. The first couple of days were terrible ! I couldn't adapt with the atmosphere. Not to mention, my room. I was assigned in a room on the 7th floor which coincidentally, is my favourite number. Haha. The first time I stepped in the room, my face straight away cringed. Not only it was stuffy and dusty, my first impression on room mate was that she's a weirdo. I forced/dragged myself in, settling my stuffs and making a friendly face to my new room mate. Sigh.

But then, on the third day, I started to make friends with a lot of people. And I found my circle of friends who I can totally blend in. So there are Noor, Ika and Deenda. They were the most normal girls there. Haha. Oh and my room mate turned out not that bad after all. So thats why they said dont judge a book by its cover. Elin, my room mate is normal actually. Not a weirdo at all. Thank God :] One week passed by so swiftly. I was so occupied the first week as it was Orientation Week. I was selected to perform on the Performance Night on Friday. I had to dance a traditional dance, Zapin. Alot happened actually but I dont really have the mood to jot down every single detail. Like how I was highly annoyed with this girl who was selected to dance with my group. Second week arrived and we received our schedule. Which turned out to be not pack at all. I thought we would be so busy when the classes start but I was wrong. And Im glad that I was wrong. We only have like, a few classes to attend. Despite the already few classes, the classes were always cancelled due to the lecturers' decision to not show up. So this week, all I did was having fun. Went back home after class on Monday. Went back to UM on Tuesday night. Went to 2hours class on Wednesday morning. My friends went out that afternoon with their boyfriends. So I called Zhr and asked him to come. Lucky me that I owned the nicest boyfriend on earth, he came later on. We went to Times Square, dont ask why. Watched Terminator for about half an hour and fell asleep in the cinema. It was so boring ! Zhr sent me back to UM at 2300. The next morning, Zhr came again. We went to KLCC and watched Hannah Montana. This time I was wide awake because I really enjoyed the movie. Though it was just another Disney's typical movie, but I loved it. Asked Zhr to drive me back home because I was missing Mommy so much. He being his good boyfriend self, drove me to my house and the whole house screamed when I stepped inside. They were surprised that I came back. Haha. Zhr sent me back to UM at around 2300. The next morning, which was today, Friday morning, we were supposed to have class at 9. So my friends and I walked to class together and the whole class waited for like, an hour or so. Finally we were informed that today's class was cancelled. So us girls walked back to the cafeteria and had breakfast. I called Mommy to informed her that the class was cancelled. So mommy asked me to get ready because she was coming to pick me up later. So thats about it I guess. Oh one more thing, my performance went well though we screwed up during the rehearsal. But hey, we did it that night and we all enjoyed all the late night practices till 2 in the morning at the Gazebo with the coolest coaches ever, Abang Udean and Abang Phat :) So thank you, guys :)

Push and push

The title has a lot to do with the movie I watched today. Abang invited me to go for a movie with him, Johan and Hafez. Went to Taipan to settle my bank stuffs with Mommy before heading to Summit. Had lunch of a set of fillet o fish while waiting for the boys to come. I managed to buy a red button down shirt from Reject Shop. But the brand is FCUK, so it didn't really matter where did I get it from. Haha. Bought myself a zebra printed blanket for Uni next Monday. Gasp, 4 days left. Sigh. Watched Push at 1700, sat between Abang and Johan, while enjoying the movie. I really like the movie. My favourite character in Push would be Dakota Fanning, for sure. She just looked like a bad ass 13 year old kid. Im really fond of her right now. I like her style, with her micro miniskirt, knee high combat boots, pink highlighted hair and a black bad ass jacket. She looked pretty :] After 2hours of the movie, we went to the carpark feeling content. All of us except one. Hafez said he didnt really enjoy the movie. Why, I have no idea. As for Johan, it was his second time watching it, so that explains how much he enjoyed the movie, ey ? Johan paid for my movie ticket, which was really sweet of him to do so. Thanks Johan ! :D We sent Hafez all the way in Bukit Jelutong and I was half asleep before we arrived at Johan's. Sent him off in Usj3, and headed home. Showered as soon as I was home. Had dinner of mee hailam that Mommy cooked. Spent the next hours until now, learning French, googling facts about the worlds news, general knowledges about the Cabinets in Malaysia and practising how to speak and introduce myself for the interview. As the result, Im having sore throat. SIGH.

Zhr's coming with me and Mommy to Shah Alam tomorrow. Im going for a medical checkup for my Uni. Daddy will be home tomorrow from Sabah. Planning to go out with Zhr this Saturday.

I want to redeem my RM50 voucher from Forever21 that Zhr gave me along with the Oxford. I want my sore throat to heal so I can talk and practise more. I cant wait to finish Eclipse. Im now broke. Im now panicking over the interview thing. Im annoyed by car and road lights at night. I want to watch Push again. Im now finding a place to go where I can wear my Oxford. Im now freaking out on how little time is left for me before going to Uni. I really hope I will get in the French program. I WANT MY LICENSE, DESMONT(!!!), I want an iPod, I want a pair of bradshaw, I trust my boyfriend so Im not worried about him going to KLIUC, I miss Wie, I want to see Mamat, I cant wait for Transformers2 and HP and the half blood prince to be in cinemas, I miss Futsal(SO MUCH), Im now waiting for my boyfriend to call, I am not going to fall for my dream last night and I AM MISSING MY BOYFRIEND SO MUCH THAT IT HURTS. Patience, I will see him tomorrow, wont I ? Yes, I will :)

Because everything seems so perfect ; Photos

Because everything seems so perfect

Fara, Ijal and Zhr arrived at almost 1500. When Zhr called saying they were already downstairs, Mommy quickly asked me to on the tv to see them on cctv downstairs. Obviously, I saw them and saw Zhr was holding a big box. I called him just to tease, saying I could see him and asked what was that he was holding. He simply answered, a cake. I was like, for what ? And he said, saje. So yeah, I waited for them to come up. When they arrived, Zhr handed me the box. It was red, with a gold ribbon tied around it. The box was a little too big and not to mention, a little too fancy for a cake, but I believed him nonetheless. He placed the box in front of me, Fara and Ijal were grinning. I was confused with their weird expressions, but couldnt care less. So I just looked at the box and planning to hand it to Mommy when Zhr asked me to open it up. I didnt want to because well, it was a cake. Why do I have to open it up like a birthday present ? Fara, Ijal and Zhr insisted me to open the box, so I teared off the beautiful gold ribbon, and opened the red big box. And SCREAMED. Or shrieked. Both, probably. I couldnt blink my eyes because that was most certainly the best surprise anyone had ever given me. SERIOUSLY. A pair of Forever21 Oxford in the box were waiting for me to hold them in hands. I jump on the couch and went mad. Haha, I looked at Zhr and smiled all the way up to my ears, thanking him. Mommy was so confused, hearing me scream so loud, I rushed over to her and hugged her. She was still confused but not for long. I pulled her hand to the couch and asked her to see what Zhr had bought me. Mommy was surprised to, of course. She knows how bad I wanted them babies ! I couldnt thank Zhr enough until now. Oh my gosh, the greatest gift ever ! I quickly tried them on and posed in front of them. Haha. We went up to the rooftop after, took photos. I wore my new babies of course. Was just too excited getting my dream shoes, what more when my own boyfriend bought it for me for our anniversary present. Getting them from him just makes it much better ;]

Went down to the pool later on and swam for about an hour or so. Took alot of photos which are all with Fara. Went up, showered and got ready. We all went to Kajang to send Ijal. We had so much fun in the car, talking and laughing. But Zhr had a headache all of the sudden, I dont know why. Maybe because he hadnt eat or maybe it was that Chocolate drink he bought earlier. You see, he accidentally drank a sip of an expired Chocolate drink. Eww, gross. I know. We arrived in Kajang about half an hour later, ate at Ayza. Fara had to say goodbye to Ijal at 1915 as it was getting late. Though I know how Fara didnt want to let go of Ijal at that time, but she had to. We were on our way back when Fara accidentally drove the wrong direction and we got lost. I didnt worry much, honestly, because we were not alone. Zhr was with us. But when we got on to this isolated road, so dark and quiet, Fara lost it. She was so panicked, that she started to mumble and her handbag fell on her feet. She was doing a u-turn, with one hand on the wheel, the other down, to pick up her bag. But thing got a little too mess up when her bag was stucked on the pedal down there. Of course, Fara was panicking even more that she made me scared. Haha. She continued driving and the second she saw the word Puchong on the board ahead of us, she screamed like she had won a million bucks. I was laughing at her, seeing how she was reacting. She was being so cute, with the worried face plastered. Haha ;p We arrived in Subang Jaya safely, thank you Fara. And made a pit stop at McDonald's in Taipan as I promised Ipan to bring back a McFlurry Oreo for him. Fara sent me home and while I was walking to my house, I smiled to my self. Im so content that my day went so well, with those crazy people I love so much. I dont know what I'd do without them. I love today. Despite the fact that I spent the whole day with my loved ones, I now also owned my dream Forever21 Oxford ! So, yeay me ! I would like to thank my lovely boyfriend for making my dream come true. I love you oh so much ! Happy Anniversary again ;]

Future freaks me out

Yes, the future is really freaking me out. I'm even more freak out when I only have a week left before going to Uni. I was having my breakfast on Saturday when the door bell rang. Ipan went to see who it was and said it was for me. I saw a guy with a paper and a pen in hand saying, Nur farahin ? I nodded and went to sign on that piece of paper he was holding. He then gave me this envelope with the Kementerian Pelajaran Malaysia logo on it. I went in with a confused face. Mommy was so anxious to see what was inside, so I opened the envelope with a little too much of enthusiasm. When I read the first line on that letter, a smile crossed my face. I received another offer ! And it was my first choice. Its a language course and Im taking French. Both my parents were so happy of course. I mean, I didnt know luck was REALLY on my side ! I was content but when I saw the interview date, my face fell. I have to go for an interview on th 26th of May. UM's registration date is on the 25th. If I choose to pursue French but fail the interview, then I'll waste that UM offer. Its UM, for Gods sake. Of course I want to go there, but my interest is more on the language side. So, after discussing everything with my parents and asking Zhr for his opinion, I decided to go for UM on the 25th. But my parents will fetch me on the 26th for the interview. Thank God the language campus is just next door to UM. So, if I nail the interview, I'll go for French but if I dont, I'll continue in UM. Alhamdulillah, I received two good offers :] But now Im working my arse off to learn French seeing as I only have a week to study. The interview will be in English and French. To top that off, I'll have to sit for two exams before the interview. 135 IQ questions in 30minutes and an English test in 20 minutes. Who knows its so hard to be a French lecturer ?

BTW ,

Happy 14th Anniversary !

I've experienced so much with you. We went through alot, no matter bad or good, we always manage to sort it out and still be together. Thank you for always sticking up for me, for always protecting me, for loving me that much. I can see right through your eyes that you really meant it when you say you'll love me forever. I know you'll keep our promise to not leave me. I know you wont have the hearts to just shove everything we've built together. After everything we've been through, I know we really are meant to be. Even the biggest problem cant separate us. I want it to stay this way, forever. No matter how far I am, and no matter how busy you'll get in the future, remember the promises we made. I will aways love you, Mohd Zahir Fikri ♥

Loved ones .

I've been staying in this cocoon for so long and yesterday I finally went out and had fun. My day started with all those butterflies in my stomach at 8 in the morning. I haven't been out with my boyfriend for quite awhile and yesterday my heart was racing like hell. I set my alarm at 10 but I woke up way earlier than that because my heart couldnt stop thumping and those butterflies didnt make the intention to leave my stomach alone. I decided to go back to sleep as it was still early. But I couldnt let my eyes shut. I forced myself to sleep and ended up staring at the ceiling for 2 hours. I dragged myself to the toilet at 10 and showered. Got ready at 1130 as Fara wanted to fetch me up at 12, or so she said. After struggling myself thinking what to wear, I settled in with an oversized striped button down shirt and my high waisted black skirt.

Zhr called when I was in the midst of applying my eyeliner and said he and Fara were already downstairs. I took my time, and continued getting ready. When I was already down, I couldnt see any black Viva parked around the compound. With the weather so hot, I was starting to be grumpy. I called Zhr and asked where he was. I had to walk to Petronas and was so mad that I had to sweat myself after 2hours of getting ready. I was being a total bitch to Zhr because I wasnt in the mood. I didnt really mind the walking, but I just hated the weather. Gosh I felt like I was in a stove, okay ! Kissed Fara hello and she drove us to KL Sentral. Arrived at KL Sentral, met up with Ijal and parked the car. We went straight to KLCC's foodcourt as soon as we stepped foot in KLCC. I ate fish and squid while Zhr ate toasts. What the H ? Haha We shared the fish actually. We then walked to Pavillion and bought movie tickets. Fara and Ijal watched Xmen. I decided to watch Coming Soon as I've watched Xmen with my family. We had plenty of time to waste before the movie so we wandered around Pavillion to searched for Mommy's present for Mother's Day. Zhr and I split with Fara and Ijal, and went to find the present at Forever21. Instead of mommy's present, I found a pair of REAAAAAAAAAAALLLLLLYYYY nice oxfords ! Ohmygosh, seriously the second I set my eyes on that pair of shoes, I knew that Im in love. I ran towards the Oxfords and held it in hands. Oh how nice if I still have extra money in my bank. I nearly cried when I had to walk out of the store without bringing back those shoes. I can almost hear that pretty size 6 shoes calling my name when I didnt bring them back with me. See, even the shoes felt the same way as me. It was like love at first sight, you know :'[ I promised myself to come back for them, when I have sufficient money to buy those pretty babies :] After blistering my foot in my pairs of white and black Vagabond, I finally came across this nice blouse for Mommy at Promod. Zhr paid half because I was complaining about how I didnt have enough money and stuffs. Sorry baby and thanks :D We went back to F0rever21 but I refused to walk in front of those Oxfords because I didnt want to disappoint them and I didnt want to burst into tears when I walk out without them, again. Haha, after paying for Nina's birthday present, we went to search for Zhr's mommy's present. Didnt find anything until 1650. Went up to the cinema, bought a box of popcorn and a drink. I'll skip the movie part as it was too scary. It was a good movie though. So after movie, met up with Fara and Ijal and we walked to the Mamak in BB because Zhr wanted to eat. When we arrived there, we decided not to eat there as there were alot of people. Ended up going back to KL Sentral without eating. We planned to eat at KL Sentral but when we arrived there, Ijal's mom called. So we had to cancel our plan and went back after Ijal went back by train. Fara was so excited and happy in the car. Talking non stop about Ijal. Awww ;] Fara sent me home and after kissing them goodbye, I went up. I was so tired but managed to force myself showered. I had to forced my eyes to stay awake as I hadnt make mommy's card. Spent about 40minutes to make the card and the card was surprisingly, cute. Not to brag or anything ;p Mommy loved the blouse so much that she kissed me so hard on the cheek. Haha. My day went so well yesterday and I hope I could turn back time to where I could spend my time with my loved ones. Both Fara and Zhr :)

So, there's this guy right. He kind of has my heart

Zhr Fikri ,

The first time I saw that name was in the year 2000. I was 9 and was sitting with my friends in our standard 3 class. 3 Bersih, I still remember. My girls and I were looking at a piece of paper. It was our class' name list. Somehow that name caught my eyes. Hence, made me eager to know who this Zahir Fikri is. So I asked my friend, who is this boy. My friend pointed her little finger to this one petite guy. He was very fair and, kind of, cute too. The conversation ended there and I never did mention his name again to my friends. I never thought of him much after that and I didnt make an attempt to talk to him. Soon, the year 2000 ended and I totally vanished that name in mind. I had new friends. The ones I've never thought I'd be friends with. 2years came by rapidly and next thing I knew, it was already 2003. I was in standard 6. That year, I was a senior. I was so proud of being the oldest among the students. Somehow, I managed to get my old friends back. Shera was my bestfriend back when we were 9 and we continued our friendship when we were 12. We were as close as ever. Nothing can seperate us at that time. What more when we were both prefects, so we went to recess together, everything together. We prefects switch posts every 2weeks or so and when I saw our head prefect put up a new paper on the board, I went eagerly to see, hoping that I would get a post near Shera so we can spend some more time together. When I saw that board, I was surprised ! My post was 6Bersih, Shera's class ! Even better, I said to myself. I instantly ran to Shera with a grin on my face to tell her the good news. Taking care of 6Bersih wasnt so hard with Shera there. I slowly became closer to the students in that class. Especially with Iskandar, Naim, Fadly and surprisingly, Zahir Fikri. Zhr wasnt that friendly back then. He was the shy kind of guy, I assumed. After awhile, I grew more and more fond of them and always go to their class. Until one day, I was standing in front of 6 Bersih, during recess. The boys came up to me and Naim actually said, Zhr suka kau. I was surprised, of course but didnt give it much thought because I knew he was playing around just to tease Zhr. But ofcourse, it'll be nice too if what he said was true. I smiled to myself all the way that day because I have to admit, I had a crush on him, kind of. I didnt manage to get my mind off him, so told Shera about it. She was so happy to hear that her bestfriend liked her classmate and promised me to help. I said it would be nice if she could help but warned her to NOT spill the fact that I liked him. I was so naive, I know. Haha. Weeks past and the whole school was talking about us. Zhr and I, that is. We were both together then, and even the teachers seemed to like us being together. I was so happy that I got him. I thought that it was impossible because he was the quiet type but, I successfully became his first girlfriend ! Haha. We were happy, going back together, walked together. Oh and Zhr didnt have a cellphone back then, so we had to contact through EMAIL ! How cool were we ? Old school okay ! Haha and he sometimes made an effort to call me using his house phone on Saturday morning(s), before his parents wake up. I remember how excited I get when I saw his name on my phone screen, I even jumped on my bed. I loved the sound of his husky voice, early in the morning, a sign that he just woke up. Every day after school, I would wait at the same spot where Zhr waited for his bus to come. And sometimes we would go to 7Eleven nearby. Though I knew mommy would be furious because she had warned me not to walk all the way to 7Eleven. But heck, I was so stuborn and went almost everyday. Just because Zhr always went too. One day, Shera asked me if I was interested to participate in choir. At first I refused but when Shera told me Zhr was in, I hesitantly agreed to join. I have to admit, I was mentally disturbed and was so obsessed with my own boyfriend. I even bought new stationaries just because Zhr had the same ones. I was the happiest girl ever when Mommy helped sending Zhr home when he missed his bus. After we finished our big exam end of the year, teachers organised a trip to Langkawi by train. Of course I wanted to go, what more when I found out Zhr was going too. Being a child and a complete naive in the whole love thing, I was so excited for the trip. I mentioned it every single day to Shera and planned what clothes should we bring and stuffs. Someting happened a few days before the trip. I fought with Shera and we drifted apart. I soon became closer to Azaelea and Rina. Shera was so furious that I ditched her and attempted suicide. I was shocked when I heard about it. But luckily her mom saw what she was doing and quickly get some help. Since that day, I became friends with her again but not as close. I kept a distance between us. The day before the trip, I forced Mommy to bring me out to shop for clothes for me to wear during the trip. I was so satisfied when Mommy brought me to Subang Parade and bought a few tops and jeans. When the day came, I was so excited and wore my brand new clothes. We were all supposed to meet with the teachers at the Subang KTM. I arrived at KTM and vigorously searched for Zhr. My eyes landed on him and saw his parents. That was the first time I saw his parents. Though they didnt know me, I felt content when they looked at me. I have no idea why. Haha. We spent almost a day in the train before we arrived in Langkawi. I was assigned to the same room as Shera, Rina, Wana and Ellis. Until this one night, all the teachers decided to go out at night for karaoke. The students were left in our apartments. All the girls in my apartment were asleep as it was midnight. Rina and I were wide awake, watching Lizzie McGuire on Disney when Is called Rina(they were a couple back then) and complaint that their apartment didnt have an astro. So Rina and I invited the boys to our apartment to watch tv. We were oblivious about how deep the trouble we could get in if the teachers find out. The boys came and my heart was pounding as fast as hell because Zhr was with the boys too. Rina and I then went into our room, leaving the boys in the living room watching tv. That was when our teacher, Cikgu Manja, called my phone. I was scared to pick up in case she knows about the boys. But after several rings, I had to pick up. Turned out, she didnt know. She called just to inform me that she was on her way back to our apartment. Rina and I quickly ran to tell the boys that the teachers were on their way back. So the boys went back. Rina and I both let out a huge sigh of relief when we thought we didnt get caught. It wasnt like we did anything with the boys but you know how kids get nervous over something ridiculous. Haha. Cikgu Manja knocked our secret knock on the door and I opened the door to an angry face. Right that moment, I knew she found out about what we did. And yes, she went ballistic. Rina and I cried and apologised. We promised we wont invite boys to our apartment again. The next day was like normal. Everyone was oblivious to what had happened the night before. The boys came to us and told us that the teachers found them running back to their apartment and asked where were they from. They had to tell the teachers the truth, saying they went to our apartment. But the boys werent as grumpy and sad as Rina and I were. After awhile, we decided to enjoy our last couple of days in Langkawi. The trip was a hell lot of fun. We returned to Subang with a big grin on our faces. Soon, the day that I was dreading came. Last day of primary school. I didnt want to leave school. 2003 was the best year I've ever experienced. Until now, I still want to go back to 2003. On the last day of school, I cried buckets. Knowing I would somehow lost contact with some of my close friends. When school ended that day, I waited at the waiting shed. I saw Zhr at the far end. I ignored him because at that time, we had some misunderstanding or something. When Syafiq, my good friend came to me, I purposely went to him and treated him extra than I should just to annoy Zhr. Syafiq had a crush on me, or so he said, so I knew if I treated him good, he would like it. And I was right. Syafiq got it wrong and thought I liked him when all I wanted to do was to see whether or not Zhr would get jealous. Zhr looked at me with so much hatred that I gave up. We didnt really break up but after that day, I didnt see him for so long as we both were in different high school. I got in Usj4 and Zhr was in Usj12. We lost contact and I just assumed that we were over. I hated him so much then, because well, he was my ex. I had this feeling that hating an ex is a must, How stupid was I ? Haha. I started dating other guys in high school and moved on. I havent heard from him for a while until he added me on Myspace. My body tingled a little when he commented me. I had no idea why I felt that way when really, I hated him. But I replied his comments and we became friends on Myspace. When I was 15, after my PMR examination, I was closed to Shera, once again. But that time, Fara and several others had joined the clan. Haha. Shera threw a birthday party and I came with my boyfriend at that time, Rahimi. Little did I know Zhr would be there too. When I saw him, I didnt smile or talk to him as I felt like he was a stranger.I wondered how could he possibly be there. He was sitting beside an Indian guy and now I know who that guy was. Vino ! Of course Vino was there. His ex girlfriend attended the party too. That explained so much why Zhr was there. I ignored him and us girls went dancing with each other. When 2006 ended, my parents warned me to stay away from Shera because of my bad PMR results. Us girls drifted apart when each one of us were seperated in different classes. But Fara and I remained friends though we were in different stream. We managed to find a tuition together just so we could spend time together as we didnt have time to hang out at school. Zhr and I continued being friends in Myspace and we got closer to each other day by day. We were on each others top. I was closed to Sha that time and that brought Zhr and I closer as he was dating Sha. Coincidentally, I had something with Zhr's friend, Dot. But Dot and I didnt officially date because I told him I wasnt ready. After a few months, I was with that stupid Amirul and stayed friends with Zhr. I was at Subang Parade with Amirul one day, when I saw Sha. I saw her with Ethan and they looked like a couple. I was confused so I asked Zhr whether he and Sha were still together. Zhr said yes, and asked me why. I had to tell him the truth, explaining how I saw Sha with Ethan earlier. I begged him to asked Sha for explaination before he did something stupid. But next thing I knew, they broke up. I felt guilty for telling him but was content that I helped him from getting cheated on. But there were times when she IM-ed me and said how she wished she could get Zhr back. I gave her advices, asking her to just explain the truth to Zhr and I did asked Zhr to give her another chance. Zhr refused and yes, they were officially over. Sha didnt know I was the one who told Zhr, of course. But I felt guilty. December of 2007 came and I got a job at Baskin Robbins in Taipan. I was still with Amirul but our relationship was on the rocks after he accused me of having an affair with my colleague. One day, Zhr came by Baskin Robbins with his bunch of friends and stopped in front of Baskin Robbins but didnt came in. He then text me saying sorry that he didnt came in. His reason ? He was shy. I replied saying he MUST come and buy ice cream from me before I quit the job end of December. He promised he would. He did come and bought a pint of ice cream. We talked for a little while and he went back. Fara came to my house one day and checked out my phone. She asked me whether something was going on between Zhr and me because she saw all those texts from him. Not that there was any flirty texts, but Fara was curious. I said no, nothing is between us and I was still with Amirul. After Raya, Wana invited me to her open house. I went and tried to have fun with my friends but couldnt as Amirul was being so annoying, calling and texting me a thousand times. I snapped and text him saying dont be too clingy, and I was trying to have some fun with my girlfriends. He was furious and called again. I ignored his calls and that was when Wana said Zhr was there too. My heart let out a thump but I had no idea why. Wana then came to me and said Zhr called me. I went outside, exactly where he was sitting and said what did he want. He asked me to accompany and sit with him since he was alone. I agreed and we got around to talk. We asked about each other's love lives. Amirul had to interupt our moment to catch up and that time I had enough. So I picked up the phone and he had asked me where was I. I told him I was at Wana's house in an angry voice and added, and Im hanging out with my ex boyfriend, referring to Zhr, of course just to make Amirul furious. He went ballistic and said why the hell would I want to hang out with my ex and stuffs. I couldnt care less of what he said and just hung up. My parents came to fetched me up and Zhr came up to the car and said hey to my family. Of course, they knew him because he was my boyfriend back then. After that incindent, Amirul and I broke up.It was end of February and I remember I just moved to my condo and daddy havent put up the internet. So I had to go down to the bistro to online. It was Friday and I just came back from my school, after winning 7th place on my school's road run. I came online and saw Zhr was online on my top. He commented me saying he hadnt seen me online for a while and I replied. After a couple of comments, I switched off the laptop as the internet was a sucker there. I went up to my house and received a text message. From Zhr. He asked why didnt I tell him I was off, he was waiting for me to reply his comment. Since I didnt have credit left in my phone, I borrowed mommy's phone and explained to Zhr how the internet was so slow. I said I'll text him when I have credit and we said goodbye. The next day, like usual, I had art class on Saturday mornings. After the class, I went to top up while waiting for my mom to fetch me. I decided to text Zhr. We called each other Dude back then, I dont know why. Haha. We continued texting. That night, he asked me something I've been waiting for him to ask. He asked whether I have a boyfriend. I said no I dont, and asked him the same. His answer ? You la girlfriend I. Dari sekolah rendah plak ;p I smiled all night long after reading that text. After awhile, we started calling each other girlfriend and boyfriend. And we met several times at Taipan. On March 16th 2008, he said he wanted to asked me to be his but he wanted to do it face to face. Not on the phone. He finally asked on March 18th. And at first I thought he was kidding but he said he was serious. I said yes and the rest is history.

Alot happened before and all those facts I just typed up there are the signs of how we're meant to be. I never thought you would be my destiny. But looking back, all those years, I am 100%, or maybe 150% sure that you're my soul mate. I have no doubt that we would be eternity. I've wasted all these years looking for a perfect guy when he was standing right in front of me all this while. I'll never take you for granted and I cherish all those moments all the way back when we were so little and naive to figure out what love is. I knew love from you, Zahir Fikri. I know how to love with all my heart and soul because of you. I realised forever really do exist because of you. I never thought I would be this blessed but here I am. Everything seems just so perfect with you around. So, thank you for your endless love, support and strength you've been giving me all this while. We're going different ways for our studies soon. But please, promise me we wont drift apart and we wont repeat the mistake we did breaking up like in 2003. I dont want anything to be in the way in our relationship. I know we can survive together no matter how far we are. I love you mucho grande, muffin.

♥ One year, two months and still going strong , baby ;]

A day with my bestfriend ,

Watched football this morning. I almost cry when Arsenal lose to the stupid Man United with the score 3-1. I have to say that the referees were definitely on Man United's side. Seriously, I was about to throw a mug on the tv screen when Park pulled someone's head and got a free kick for himself. Screw you, Park ! And what more when Ronaldo got a free kick because he PRETENDED to fall. Oh please, you're so ugly that I can puke right in your face, Ronaldo. You suck, enough said. I was so satisfied when one of Man United's player who I forgot the name, received a red freaking card from the referee for sliding Fabregas. Van Persie scored for the penalty kick. So, thank you !
Received a text from Amirul, a sarcastic one for the lose of Arsenal. I was so furious that I replied sarcastically too. I hate him as much as I hate Ferguson.

Woke up late today as I slept at 5 something. Fara called and asked if I could accompany her to see her boyfriend all the way in Kajang. After informing Mommy that Im going out with Fara and leaving the part that we're going to Kajang because I know Mommy wont let me go(I know, my bad!), I wore my Topshop top and my black skinny and waited for Fara to arrive. She came up to my house to use the toilet. After filling up the gas in her Viva, we made a pit stop at Mommy's school to take my ID from her as she asked for my ID earlier this morning to settle some stuffs for the U. We girls were on our way to Kajang and we had a lot of fun. We talked all the way and kudos to Fara for driving the right way. Though it was her first time, she did a really good job. We arrived around half an hour later, met up with Aniq, Ijal's cousin. Tailed Aniq's car to his house and waited for Ijal there. Ijal was at tuition and didnt know Fara was there to meet him. Aniq asked him to come to his house. After several attempts to keep the fact that Fara was there, Ijal refused to come to Aniq's house. Fara and Aniq had to tell him that she was there. As soon as Ijal heard Fara was there, he came with his blue scooter without hesitation. Awww, he really loves her :] We waited for Aniq to shower and all the four of us went to Ummi, a restaurant nearby with Fara's car. I can see Fara was really excited and happy to meet her boyfriend of almost 6 months. They both were being goofy and funny around each other and that is why they are so sweet together. At 1700, Fara and I excused ourselves because we didnt want to arrive in Subang late as both our parents didnt know exactly where we were. Sent Ijal back to Aniq's house and we went back. Fara couldnt stop talking about Ijal and thats the prove how passionate she feels about him. I love seeing my bestfriend happy. We let out a huge sigh of relief when we arrived in Subang. Went straight to Rahim as we were both starving. Ordered two iced tea and two plates of fried maggi. Zhr came by later on and hung out for a little while. Cam whored in the car after bloating our stomachs and Fara dropped me home before sending Zhr back. What a productive day, I must say ! Thanks to Fara :]
Arrived home seeing Abang praying and that was when I realised that it was already 1900 and I havent pray Asar. I quickly cleaned up and pray, just in time before Maghrib.

Bad News

Turned out my intake for Uni is on the 25th of May instead of early July. Which left me with 20 more days in Subang. Im excited to start studying but Im not ready at the same time. Its too early for me and I havent prepared myself. Im not ready to leave Subang, though UM is not that far, but I still have to stay in the hostel which is the most hated part so far. I went through the terms and conditions on the internet last night and the butterflies havent stop lurching in my stomach since then. I even dreamt about it last night and it wasnt good. I dont want to leave my boyfriend and Fara. I want to live here with my family. But I guess its time for me to change my way of life. I have to learn to survive alone somehow..

Course Modules

These are my subjects in University of Malaya :

Basic Chemistry I
Basic Chemistry II
Basic Chemistry III
Basic Chemistry VI
Basic Physics I
Basic Physics II
Basic Physics III
Basic Physics VI
Algebra and Geometry
Algebra and Calculus
Statistics and Probability
Calculus
Preparatory English Course I
Preparatory English Course II
Character Building and Development
Information Skills

Will I manage to cope ? Ahhh