Presentation

Do you like to present in front of people? I know I don't. Doesn't matter how small the audience is, I just don't like it. My level of confidence is average but when I go in front to present, my self esteem goes down as low as the ground. But what is weird is that it actually depends on my mood. I'm taking Presentation Skills this semester so of course, there are a lot of presentations I have to go through. A few weeks back, I had to present an introduction of any topic I chose. I was confident in front of the class that I shocked myself. I'm always nervous while presenting. So who was that standing in front of my class, presenting like she knows everything?

I'm now preparing for a presentation tomorrow. And only God knows how I hate preparing for a presentation. Let alone present in front of people. I know this is not good for my future as presentations are crucial. I guess this is why Presentation Skills is mandatory for Uni students. They want people like me to build up their confidences. But what if we can't and what if we don't want to build up our confidence? I always get so embarrass of my English. Being a Malaysian, running from speaking Manglish is quite impossible. I can't judge my own English but I'm scared I sound like a typical Malaysian English. I think that's one of the reason why I don't like presenting. Because people will know my English level. What if I pronounce a word wrong? How if I stumbled a wrong grammar? How??? That would be so embarrassing!

Despite the fact that I hate presenting and how I get so self conscious standing and talking in front of people, I wish I am good at this. I hope in the near future, I will be able to present spontaneously. I always respect people who can just go and present without preparing for it the night before. I always have to practise in front of the mirror with my flash cards in hand and I will time myself talking to the mirrored me. After practising a thousand times in front of the mirror, my hands still shake when I present the next day.

I always wonder, how do I get that confidence to be able to talk in front of people without stuttering and shaking? Any ideas?

We sure are cute for two ugly people

Finally bought new books! Note that I use plural there. Two books. Both are LC's books. Lover pinched in some money because I only had enough for one. Thank you so much babycakes :)

This morning, I slipped in my baju kurung in the morning and walked to Lecturer's Block to see Dr. Yong. The office said my results were mixed up with another group. But when I arrived there, I saw people swarming around there. After awhile sweating my clothes off, turned out that she moved to another room which was like, a thousand miles away from the old one. I was getting all cranky because I had to walk in the blazing sun. I don't actually mind the walking but the sun was the reason I felt like dying. Having no choice, I had to walk all the way there while the other have their cars. When I arrived, there was someone in her room so I had to wait. Luckily I can wait inside where the AC was on. Nothing felt better than that. After waiting for what felt like decades, turned out my results wasn't there either. God bless Dr.Yong because she actually made the effort to find it for me. She asked for my phone number and everything so she could help. I really appreciate it. So messed up system they have. Sigh

The Stress is Over!

Finally, my midterm exams are over! Okay, theres nothing to brag, but at least I can give my brain a rest for a week before I start to cramp back my precious brain. Despite the fact that midterm are over, finals are also just around the corner. I have like, another 2 and a half months till my finals. And I'll be done with my foundation. Everything just passes by ever so quickly these days. I've been a good girl, holding myself back from my white baby here. I havent even touch this laptop, what more press the on button. Its not like I have the time to anyway because I've been spending everyday with books till 4 or 5 in the morning despite that I had to wake up at 730. So yeah, in the past 4 days, I spent like only 8hours for sleep. I really hope I'll do good this semester. Hope all my effort will pay off on the day that results come out. Monday was Physics and Mathematics, the two subjects I always flunked. I spent most of my time the previous week to study these two, but I emphasize on Physics as the formulas and facts are just too much. But guess what? The paper turned out to contain all fact questions. No formulas were needed. But at least Im relieve that I had confidence doing it this time. But the result is a whole different story. Tuesday was Law and Management, the most important subjects this semester. Then it was time for English and Macroeconomics. The last day, which was yesterday, I was so happy that Accounts turned out to be easy and though there were uncertain answers I gave for Construction paper, at least I didnt stress out while doing it. And I thought I did well this time. I hope so :)

Mom and Dad fetched me up at last night. I fell asleep while waiting seeing I was lack of sleep. And continued sleeping in the car. And continued sleeping at home. Until this morning, I woke up with a headache. Thats what I get when I sleep too long. Going out with Zahir today. Not sure what time but he said it'll be late. I ate an apple for breakfast and now Im starving. But whatevs. I dont want to whine about my hunger because theres absolutely no point of complaining when I dont think I will eat later on.

Oh, on Wednesday, I almost collapse because all I ate the whole day was a piece of honey dew. Ika and Noor were so worried and started to lecture me while I was lying down to vanish the massive headache. Noor was so worried when she saw me walking so unstable and I had to hold on to the wall beside me to keep myself from falling down. My sight was so blur and everything was just spinning around me. I saw two Noor(s) when I looked at her. I felt like puking and it was so hard to breathe. I cant remember whether I passed out or I fell asleep, I just fell down on my bed and I cant remember anything after that. I woke up feeling better. Noor forced me to eat but I didnt want to. But just for the sake of Noor, I cooked instant noodle but didnt finish it. Atleast Noor stopped complaining how I didnt eat everyday. And yes, I felt so much better after eating. I have caring friends! Thanks you guys, for taking care of me while I was so sick to even breathe :)

A good bad day

I spent the whole day with Zahir today! Obviously, thats the good part of today. The bad part is.. sigh, i just hate myself too much to even let it out. Blergh!

Mommy bought me a little black dress for my college's dinner yesterday. We went to Taipan and roamed around the boutiques there. Zahir tailed us too. I wanted his opinion on any dress I was planning to try on. We tried all the boutiques and ended up in one that was full of pretty dresses. I tried on like, a gazillion dresses. In the end, I chose two of the best and asked Mom and Zahir to choose. They both ended up with the same dress. So I settled on the black frill dress Mom and Zahir said was pretty. I love it too! And its chiffon!

So today I started off my day with a knock on my bedroom door. It was so hard to open my eyes as I spent three sweet hours on the phone with Zahir the night before. I forced my eyes to open and dashed towards my door. I opened up the door to see Daddy in his white towel wrapped around his waist and water dripping from his curly black hair. A sign he just showered. He said, 'wakey wakey! You're going to Mom's school this morning.' When I remembered I did promised Mom that I would go to her school to help her with some art stuffs. So I had to dragged myself to the bathroom. I reluctantly showered with my eyes closed. I felt freshen up a little after the cold water hit my face. I had to stopped myself from shivering as it was 8 in the morning and the water was freaking cold. After showering, I blow dried my hair and slipped into my white oversized Forever21 and my black MNG skinny. I had breakfast of a bowl of cereals like usual. Daddy was already out the door by the time I finished washing my dishes. I quickly went to grab my grey studded bag and dashed out. We went to fetch Zahir up at his place and we went straight to Mom's school. Mom said we'll eat first but seeing how I just ate a bowl of cereals, I ordered iced tea while Mommy and lover ate fried kueyteow which looked so tempting. Har. After eating, Mommy went straight to her class to teach English while lover and I went to the library to start on our work Mommy asked to help. We managed to finished off in time. Went to Mydin food court for lunch. Had Yee Mee and I felt so fat. Ugh. Went back home and studied a little while lover fell asleep. I accidentally dozed off too after reading Law for a few minutes. Daddy arrived home and we all went out for dinner including lover at Shah Alam. I know right, food again? But this time I only had a few spoons of Tomyam because I think today had been so fattening. After dinner, we all went to send lover in his college in Bangi. We got around to explore his college too :]

I had so much fun spending time with lover, I kid you not. Its been a whole lot of fun. Its been awhile since we spend time like this. I was starting to miss it. Oh, I just love to stare when he's sleeping. I cant help it, he's so adorable! Especially when he's asleep. Oh oh and baby, you snore! Hihi. But who cares, I still love you so much :] And have I tell you how much I love when he holds my hand so tight that I felt so safe being with him? Yeah. I love the way he looks at me. I love the way he smiles at me. I love the way he tries to make me laugh. I love the way he put his hand around me. I love the way he talks/whispers to me. I love the way he plays around with my hair. I love his flying kisses the most! Ugh, Im starting to miss you already!

Okay, now. The bad part of the day. It all went well. Until my hands were itching to on my laptop. When I logged into my facebook, I saw all my college mates wrote about their MUET results on their walls. I was like, 'dont tell me the results are out. I cant bare with this now. No. Seriously dont.' But then my itchy hands had to go to Noor's page and saw this one link that will link me to the results' site. The thing with me was, I didnt even hesitate to click on that link. I HAD TO CLICK ON IT and there, you have it. The worst part of today.

BAND ACHIEVED: 4.

I was so shocked I did so bad :(

My heart will tumble

So classes today were kind of boring. Except for English and Accounts. I arrived in class today alone. And late. The front row was full, so I had to dragged myself to the back of the class and sat there. I saw Noor at the back row too, so I flashed a grin. I sat alone today. I didnt mind, because we were all busy jotting down notes anyway. So I dont see the point on being choosy with whom should I sit with. I sat blankly while my Physics lecturer blabbed something about optics. My mind flew all the way to Bangi. You know why. To all you dunderheads who dont know why Bangi, its where KLIUC, lover's college is located. When Probability came, my mind flew to everywhere else in the world except in class. I took down notes regardless. So, though my mind wasnt in class, later own the notes will be useful when exams are coming. After that was accounts. Now, this was the time I flew back in class. My mind was very focus on accounting. Perhaps because I already did accounts last year and I felt excited when I got the answers to the lecturer's questions. Haha. After class, Noor and I walked to Pekan Buku which is kind of far to walk. We had to because we had been delaying our trip there since the first week we were here for second semester. Our walk under the blazing sun wasnt worth it when all the books we were planning to buy were out of stock. Can you believe it? I cant. So just to make all the sweat worth and the strain on our legs heal, we bought pens and notepads. Just for the sake of the sweat that were running down our back, between our cleavages, on our foreheads. We walked back to college and it wasnt any better as the sun was starting to really climb up on top of our heads. By the time we reached college, our sweat was like waterfall running down our bodies. I swear to God, we were sweating as if we just showered with our own sweat. We chilled out in the room for awhile and had to get our asses to our next classes. The time passed by a blur. I told you so.

Moment of Truth

I was lazing around with Noor in my room at college when Ika called saying our results were out. I didnt want to go because I was too scared. I knew my result would be so bad that I would cry. So Noor and I slipped into our baju kurung(s) and headed to the old lecturers' building. When Dr. Zahara handed me my slip, I felt like my heart is about to burst out from my chest. I survived the almost heart attack and teared up the ends of my slip to open it. First thing I saw was of course, like I expected, I flunked both my math and physics+chemistry. But I did get an A- for my environmental studies which was a shocker as I didnt expect it due to my break down about my grandma on that particular day. However, I was shocked, so shocked that I even thought I might have been swallowed by the ground when I saw my Microeconomics is B+. I did so well that I expected an A- at least. Sigh. What more when I saw my CGPA which was awful. Despite that, I didnt cry. Because to be frank, I was half disappointed but a part of me was relieved as I did better than my midterm. But still. After taking our results, we returned to our room and wasted the remaining time in our room, lazing around. At 1500, we got ready as we had this talk I said earlier. It wasnt even that important, and it ended earlier that it supposed to be. Right after class, I asked Zahir to come and fetch me up. I went to Dewan Gemilang after that and met up with Isabella for the modern indian dance. Im joining and good news!Noor might too. Lets just hope she'll join :) Lover arrived later and Noor and I were rushing. Lover brought me to dinner at Dominos just now. I ate alot! And now Im happy. But dont remind me of that little slip of mine that I kept safely in my bag. Ugh

blotchy watery red eyes of mine

Found out I didnt get in the design group. Sigh Im so disappointed in myself :(

My brain has stop working

Help me anyone ! Travis, Im having problems with my work. See, Im having a little presentation for my English Muet's class on Monday. That only leaves me just one day to prepare. But the thing is, I cant. I feel like hitting my own head with a big fat hammer for not starting earlier. Now I have no idea and what more when I google-d about COMFORTABLE UNIFORMS, some crappy forums' url popped up. What can I do ? I thought of doing it myself, without searching information over the internet and just start my own essay. But my heart and brain just kept saying no. I wrote about two lines of introduction and was stuck until now. The two lines I came up with werent that good either. Whats happening to me ? Abang said to me earlier that if I dont have the mood to write and essay or do some presentation work, then I wont get any ideas till Im in the mood. The problem is, my presentation is on Monday and I'll be going back to UM tomorrow. Theres no time ! Come on Brain, dont disappoint me. Dont bail on me. You can do this. Help meeeee Mr. Brain.

On the bright side of the story, I went to the Vintage Bazaar at 3K today and Daddy bought me another pair of Crocs. Two pairs of Crocs in a week. Daddy gave me a pair of red checkered one for my birthday last week. And today he bought me another. And its leopard printed :D
I found so many vintage dresses and shoes but Daddy was meeting his friend, so we were kind of rushing. In the rush, I managed to meet my two high school friends, Neys and Dee. Its been awhile. We talked for so long that Daddy was waiting for me in the car out side. Haha. We had so much to talk about, to catch up. When we were talking, a photographer came up to us and asked us to pose and she interviewed Neys about her outfit. Went out and found my family waiting for me and went to see Daddy's acquaintance. Went to Shah Alam later on for Ramadhan Bazaar. It was hectic ! I had to pushed through the throng of people and my head was spinning. People were swarming all over the bazaar. Daddy said he cant stand the thousands of people around, so we ended up buying food at Victory in Taipan. Went back home and it was almost break fast time. Prepared the food on the dining table and before I knew, it was already Maghrib. First fasting day was not so bad (:

So now I have to get back to my work of two lines. I know right, Im so lame. Sigh. Pleasee ideas, come out from that brain up there !
Au Revoir ! Wish me luck, sweeties

Future freaks me out

Yes, the future is really freaking me out. I'm even more freak out when I only have a week left before going to Uni. I was having my breakfast on Saturday when the door bell rang. Ipan went to see who it was and said it was for me. I saw a guy with a paper and a pen in hand saying, Nur farahin ? I nodded and went to sign on that piece of paper he was holding. He then gave me this envelope with the Kementerian Pelajaran Malaysia logo on it. I went in with a confused face. Mommy was so anxious to see what was inside, so I opened the envelope with a little too much of enthusiasm. When I read the first line on that letter, a smile crossed my face. I received another offer ! And it was my first choice. Its a language course and Im taking French. Both my parents were so happy of course. I mean, I didnt know luck was REALLY on my side ! I was content but when I saw the interview date, my face fell. I have to go for an interview on th 26th of May. UM's registration date is on the 25th. If I choose to pursue French but fail the interview, then I'll waste that UM offer. Its UM, for Gods sake. Of course I want to go there, but my interest is more on the language side. So, after discussing everything with my parents and asking Zhr for his opinion, I decided to go for UM on the 25th. But my parents will fetch me on the 26th for the interview. Thank God the language campus is just next door to UM. So, if I nail the interview, I'll go for French but if I dont, I'll continue in UM. Alhamdulillah, I received two good offers :] But now Im working my arse off to learn French seeing as I only have a week to study. The interview will be in English and French. To top that off, I'll have to sit for two exams before the interview. 135 IQ questions in 30minutes and an English test in 20 minutes. Who knows its so hard to be a French lecturer ?

BTW ,

Happy 14th Anniversary !

I've experienced so much with you. We went through alot, no matter bad or good, we always manage to sort it out and still be together. Thank you for always sticking up for me, for always protecting me, for loving me that much. I can see right through your eyes that you really meant it when you say you'll love me forever. I know you'll keep our promise to not leave me. I know you wont have the hearts to just shove everything we've built together. After everything we've been through, I know we really are meant to be. Even the biggest problem cant separate us. I want it to stay this way, forever. No matter how far I am, and no matter how busy you'll get in the future, remember the promises we made. I will aways love you, Mohd Zahir Fikri ♥

Course Modules

These are my subjects in University of Malaya :

Basic Chemistry I
Basic Chemistry II
Basic Chemistry III
Basic Chemistry VI
Basic Physics I
Basic Physics II
Basic Physics III
Basic Physics VI
Algebra and Geometry
Algebra and Calculus
Statistics and Probability
Calculus
Preparatory English Course I
Preparatory English Course II
Character Building and Development
Information Skills

Will I manage to cope ? Ahhh

Reality overcomes me ,

So, wherever I go, doesnt matter work or anywhere with people I know, the first thing they will say is these several annoying words : How much did you get for your SPM ? Yes, every time people ask me this question, I'll hesitate, hoping they will forget about it miraculously or something. But hey, not everybody has short term memory lost. Lets start from the night before my results came out. I had full shift and was so nervous that I couldnt concentrate on anything. Magically, the night passed by like a flash, not realising it was already closing time. I was happy to go home but felt nauseous when I thought about the next day. Less than 24hours. Shockingly, I managed to get some beautiful sleep. But I woke up two hours earlier than my alarm clock. I wanted to go back to sleep but failed as I started to think about the results. I dragged myself to shower and forced my head to push out all the negative thoughts I had in my head about how if I fail miserably ? What about my future ? At around 9 am, I was ready and waited for Zhr to pick me up. Showing off to daddy that I wasnt feeling nervous, which I really was feeling, more than nervous even, I kissed him goodbye and Zhr drove me to Vino's to wait for the others to go for breakfast. After shivering for like 15minutes, Zhr drove me to Delima, met up with his friends, had breakfast which didn't make any difference really, because my stomach kept lurching before and even after I ate. I couldn't wait to get to school so I convinced Zhr to go to my school before we go to his . After hugging my girlfriends whom I've missed like a whole freaking lot, especially Syida, we sat at foyer and we were all singing and dancing like mad. As if the dancing and singing will wash off the nervous-ness on our bodies. Right. So when the teachers came with papers in hands, we were all screaming. Well, except for me. I was so nervous that I thought I've lost my voice for like 10 whole minutes. I was standing in front of my class teacher, waiting eagerly but didn't want to know my results at the same time. My heart was pounding like it might just fall any time. When my results was in my hands, I quickly checked how many A's were there and at first I found 4 but when I double checked, there were 5. At that particular moment, I just wished the ground will just swallow me whole because I expected 6As minimum. I escaped all the hectic around me and sat at one corner alone and called my parents to tell them the embarrassing news. They took it very well and even if they were disappointed, they didn't show it. I was disappointed in myself :(

My first year anniversary will be coming soon and I can barely wait ! Im going out with Zhr tomorrow but I'm not telling you where. Because its a suprise. Not for you, but for Zhr but I'm not telling it here because I know Zhr will read this and will know my plan when he does. So lets just keep it in the bottle for just a little while, shall we ? I just hope he likes my surprise :)

Future day

Went to Education Fair in PWTC today with Daddy and Nina while Mommy accompany Irfan at home. When we stepped inside, thousands and thousands of bodies passing by. It was as crowded as a concert. We pushed our way through the swarm of people and went to one booth to another. In the end, I find the most interesting college is Technology Park Malaysia College, my brother's college. I know, you guys will think, arent there any other colleges ? But after cramping my feet in my 4 inches wedges browsing, Im not really interested in any other colleges. I was thinking about doing American Degree, a twinning progamme in Bachelor of Science in Business Administration which I will spend 2years studying here in Malaysia and 2years in The States. Me likeyyy :D Im thinking about joining the January intake which is more reasonable for me. Furthermore, I want to finish my studies as soon as I can and they only ask for like, 5credits for my forecast including English, Math and I must pass my Bahasa Melayu. So Im qualified as I have 6As and none fail for my forecast. But anyhow, I have to ask for my parents opinion first. I already have the green light from mommy and half of the green light from daddy. Lol. Im scared but excited at the same time to be called a college student. I would have to stay in the college's hostel for my first semester, which I still cant do anything about. And the thought of college's life, new environment, new friends, new subjects. God ! Can I survive ?

Went for a swim with Nina this evening and the pool could'nt be any colder ! I was practically frozen in the pool. Oh and going to Pyramid with Zhr tomorrow before he goes to Indonesia next Tuesday. Going to watch Wildchild (:
Im tired of walking the whole day, so I guess Im going to get some rest now. Toodles ! (:

Goodbye highschool dramas, Hello Life

I'm through, through, through ! IM FINAAAAAAAALLLLLYYYYY DONEEE ! The last 15minutes of my Economics paper was seriously the longest 15minutes in my life ! Haha. Well, I was looking forward to meet Zhr later on. So yeah (:

Despite my Accounts paper last Monday, I went to watched Bolt with my family the day before. After watching Bolt, I have a new interest in cute dogs. Haha Bolt's soooooo cute, I couldnt resist ! :D I even turned my cat into Bolt with the lightning on his body and the collar on his neck. Sooooo cute !

Today, after finishing my last paper, I was so eager to go back to get ready. I planned to meet Zhr, Fara, Nana and Ijal at Midvalley today. So, as soon as I reached home, I quickly took a shower in mommy's bathroom since Nina's in the other bathroom. And if Nina's in, believe me, I'll have to wait another couple of hours to get myself clean. I took just about half an hour to get ready compared to my usual one hour. That's because I've chosen my outfit the night before. After getting ready, I called Zhr and he was already downstairs in the lobby at my house. So I went down, Mom and Dad sent us to Midvalley since taking the train will take such a long time to get to Midvalley. We met up with the others when we arrived. When I saw Fara, I hugged her and apologised about how I acted last night. We had a fight. I cried so hard because I felt like she was ditching me. Lucky Zhr's there for me last night. Thanks baby (: After meeting up with them, We split up and Zhr and I went to Sushi King to have our lunch. I was starvinggg ! After bloating up my stomach, we walked, up and down, round and round the mall. Haha then we decided to watch a movie. We watched Twilight. And I thought it was a scary movie. Turned out that its soooo not. Haha. But it was okay, kind of slow but interesting. Maybe because Zhr's beside me, thats what making it interesting ? Haha I meant, just the presence of him makes me happy :D After movie, around 6.40pm, we wandered around the mall again, hunting for a wallet and a shirt for Zhr. Unfortunately, nothing caught our eyes. When the clock hit 8, we went to the KTM station which we had trouble finding seeing how we both never went there with train. Actually, I have but I couldnt remember. But dont blame me, it was like, 2years ago, totally not my fault. Haha In the train, Zhr made jokes and mocked people around. I couldnt stop laughing ! Haha As we arrived in Subang Jaya, we went to Carrefour and I called mommy to fetch us and mommy said we're going straight to Ikea. We waited at Starbucks and ordered my favourite Choc Cream Chip. Yummmyy :) Mommy and Daddy arrived, we went to Ikea. My first time, Ikea with Mr Boyfieee :D Come to think of it, Midvalley was my first real date with Zhr ! :) Arrived at Ikea, Zhr and I went straight to check on the reastaurant in Ikea. But since it was 940, ofcourse its closed. We went down to where mommy and daddy were shopping for stuffs. Daddy suggested that we go to dinner later on. Went to William Restaurant, I dont know where, but the food were soooooooooooooo freakingly delicious ! I ate a plate of spaghetti cabonara, where the plate was bigger than my head :O So I shared with Zhr while Dad and Mom shared a plate of fried rice. We ate so much. I never eat as much as I did tonight for so long. All four of us mocked the people next to our table. Some uncle with really shiny bald head. Hahaha. At 11.40pm, we felt the tiny drops of rain so we got up and went back. Approximately at 12, we sent Zhr back home. I was sad to send him back, but hey, I spent the whole day with him today. And seeing as this is our first real date and it went oh soooo absolutely perfect, I've never been happier :D

Finally ,

Its been ages ! I was unable to blog since I can't online due to my big exam, SPM. I have another 2 and a half papers to go and I'll be free ! But despite the 2 and a half papers, I still have to wait 8 days to kiss my highschool books goodbye. Sighhh. Alot happened, of course. But not before SPM though because all I did was study my ass off for my History the first and second day. The first paper of my History was nothing like I imagined. It was tough. And so far I've had massive stress-ness over my Additional Mathematics paper only. Pheew, thank god huh ? I just hope all my hard work will pay off. I even managed to find a last minute private tutor for my Add Maths 3 days before the paper. English on the other hand, I enjoyed writing the essay as I'm really into writing. I wrote both my essays about my best friend, Fara :D She went all aww-you're-so-sweet on me when I told her about it. Haha.

Forget the exams. The reason I can blog now is that my daddy's not home. And that I have more than a week holidays till my second last paper. I can barely wait ! During my so-called holidays, I went to Ikea with Mom and like usual, as soon as I saw the restaurant in Ikea I forgot all my self promises the night before and started to stuff my face with foods. I cant help it if they serve nice and decent food there, right ? (: I ate a fish burger and fries, 'helped' Mom finish her mashed potato and veggies and for dessert, my favourite of all time, Daim cake. Yummmmmyy, I must say. After all, thats the only thing I MUST eat every time I go to Ikea. Even if I'm not hungry. yes :D After I finished off my last bit of oh so delicious cake, I continue stuffing the carrots on mommy's plate. Its a good think I turned pescetarian, you know. Because if I didnt, I will surely eat the chicken pie Mom was having too. Haha. I had to pack my cinnamon roll in a paper bag since my stomach was like ready to burst. When I was on the way back home, the whole Usj was flooded. Mom was so scared and started talking like we were going to drown right then and there. Haha. I tried to crack stupid jokes and Mom was like 'Im too scared to laugh right now' but she laughed anyway. Lol. We were relief when we arrived home safely.

Now back to studies, I've been lazing around on the couch every single day without studying for my remaining papers. Account and Economics are really important, I know. But everyday when I woke up I will promise myself that I will study but then I'll just watch tv and sleep the whole day. And now I'm starting to panic ! Ironically, Im panicking but I have no intention to study at all. Gahhh, somebody shoot me in the head, for gods sake.

Last night I was famishing for food. The whole family and I went to send daddy off to KLIA. And hearing Mom said 'no, we're going straight back home after sending your daddy' after my little brother, Irfan asked her 'are we going to eat out later ?' was the most disappointing moment in my life ! Okay maybe I'm exaggerating a little but like, I didn't eat since noon and it was midnight. How could I not be hungry ? But then Mom felt sorry for her children and took us to a 24hours mamak restaurant in usj17. I ate a little and started feeling sick. So I stopped eating. When I got home Mom invited Nina and I to sleep in her room since Dad's in Beijing. I woke up this morning with sore on my whole body. That is what I get from sleeping next to Nina. Haha.

I had a talk with Mom this evening about my future. I told her Im confuse and that I'm afraid that I will choose the wrong path when Im in college. Mom said not to worry and hearing her explanation about college life send a slight chill in my body. Mom also said that maybe this week we'll go register for my driving test. Finally. Oh well, I cant stop thinking about my life after SPM. Im thinking about getting a part time job anywhere. Yeah, anywhere BUT a restaurant or any stores that has anything to do food. I've had enough of sore body parts every night from my job at Baskin Robbins last year. So yeah, Im thinking more of a clothing store or maybe MPH or something. As long as the pay's good, then Im all for it :D

Wow, this is an awfully long post. Need to eat my dinner. Till then (: