Zhr Fikri ,
The first time I saw that name was in the year 2000. I was 9 and was sitting with my friends in our standard 3 class. 3 Bersih, I still remember. My girls and I were looking at a piece of paper. It was our class' name list. Somehow that name caught my eyes. Hence, made me eager to know who this Zahir Fikri is. So I asked my friend, who is this boy. My friend pointed her little finger to this one petite guy. He was very fair and, kind of, cute too. The conversation ended there and I never did mention his name again to my friends. I never thought of him much after that and I didnt make an attempt to talk to him. Soon, the year 2000 ended and I totally vanished that name in mind. I had new friends. The ones I've never thought I'd be friends with. 2years came by rapidly and next thing I knew, it was already 2003. I was in standard 6. That year, I was a senior. I was so proud of being the oldest among the students. Somehow, I managed to get my old friends back. Shera was my bestfriend back when we were 9 and we continued our friendship when we were 12. We were as close as ever. Nothing can seperate us at that time. What more when we were both prefects, so we went to recess together, everything together. We prefects switch posts every 2weeks or so and when I saw our head prefect put up a new paper on the board, I went eagerly to see, hoping that I would get a post near Shera so we can spend some more time together. When I saw that board, I was surprised ! My post was 6Bersih, Shera's class ! Even better, I said to myself. I instantly ran to Shera with a grin on my face to tell her the good news. Taking care of 6Bersih wasnt so hard with Shera there. I slowly became closer to the students in that class. Especially with Iskandar, Naim, Fadly and surprisingly, Zahir Fikri. Zhr wasnt that friendly back then. He was the shy kind of guy, I assumed. After awhile, I grew more and more fond of them and always go to their class. Until one day, I was standing in front of 6 Bersih, during recess. The boys came up to me and Naim actually said, Zhr suka kau. I was surprised, of course but didnt give it much thought because I knew he was playing around just to tease Zhr. But ofcourse, it'll be nice too if what he said was true. I smiled to myself all the way that day because I have to admit, I had a crush on him, kind of. I didnt manage to get my mind off him, so told Shera about it. She was so happy to hear that her bestfriend liked her classmate and promised me to help. I said it would be nice if she could help but warned her to NOT spill the fact that I liked him. I was so naive, I know. Haha. Weeks past and the whole school was talking about us. Zhr and I, that is. We were both together then, and even the teachers seemed to like us being together. I was so happy that I got him. I thought that it was impossible because he was the quiet type but, I successfully became his first girlfriend ! Haha. We were happy, going back together, walked together. Oh and Zhr didnt have a cellphone back then, so we had to contact through EMAIL ! How cool were we ? Old school okay ! Haha and he sometimes made an effort to call me using his house phone on Saturday morning(s), before his parents wake up. I remember how excited I get when I saw his name on my phone screen, I even jumped on my bed. I loved the sound of his husky voice, early in the morning, a sign that he just woke up. Every day after school, I would wait at the same spot where Zhr waited for his bus to come. And sometimes we would go to 7Eleven nearby. Though I knew mommy would be furious because she had warned me not to walk all the way to 7Eleven. But heck, I was so stuborn and went almost everyday. Just because Zhr always went too. One day, Shera asked me if I was interested to participate in choir. At first I refused but when Shera told me Zhr was in, I hesitantly agreed to join. I have to admit, I was mentally disturbed and was so obsessed with my own boyfriend. I even bought new stationaries just because Zhr had the same ones. I was the happiest girl ever when Mommy helped sending Zhr home when he missed his bus. After we finished our big exam end of the year, teachers organised a trip to Langkawi by train. Of course I wanted to go, what more when I found out Zhr was going too. Being a child and a complete naive in the whole love thing, I was so excited for the trip. I mentioned it every single day to Shera and planned what clothes should we bring and stuffs. Someting happened a few days before the trip. I fought with Shera and we drifted apart. I soon became closer to Azaelea and Rina. Shera was so furious that I ditched her and attempted suicide. I was shocked when I heard about it. But luckily her mom saw what she was doing and quickly get some help. Since that day, I became friends with her again but not as close. I kept a distance between us. The day before the trip, I forced Mommy to bring me out to shop for clothes for me to wear during the trip. I was so satisfied when Mommy brought me to Subang Parade and bought a few tops and jeans. When the day came, I was so excited and wore my brand new clothes. We were all supposed to meet with the teachers at the Subang KTM. I arrived at KTM and vigorously searched for Zhr. My eyes landed on him and saw his parents. That was the first time I saw his parents. Though they didnt know me, I felt content when they looked at me. I have no idea why. Haha. We spent almost a day in the train before we arrived in Langkawi. I was assigned to the same room as Shera, Rina, Wana and Ellis. Until this one night, all the teachers decided to go out at night for karaoke. The students were left in our apartments. All the girls in my apartment were asleep as it was midnight. Rina and I were wide awake, watching Lizzie McGuire on Disney when Is called Rina(they were a couple back then) and complaint that their apartment didnt have an astro. So Rina and I invited the boys to our apartment to watch tv. We were oblivious about how deep the trouble we could get in if the teachers find out. The boys came and my heart was pounding as fast as hell because Zhr was with the boys too. Rina and I then went into our room, leaving the boys in the living room watching tv. That was when our teacher, Cikgu Manja, called my phone. I was scared to pick up in case she knows about the boys. But after several rings, I had to pick up. Turned out, she didnt know. She called just to inform me that she was on her way back to our apartment. Rina and I quickly ran to tell the boys that the teachers were on their way back. So the boys went back. Rina and I both let out a huge sigh of relief when we thought we didnt get caught. It wasnt like we did anything with the boys but you know how kids get nervous over something ridiculous. Haha. Cikgu Manja knocked our secret knock on the door and I opened the door to an angry face. Right that moment, I knew she found out about what we did. And yes, she went ballistic. Rina and I cried and apologised. We promised we wont invite boys to our apartment again. The next day was like normal. Everyone was oblivious to what had happened the night before. The boys came to us and told us that the teachers found them running back to their apartment and asked where were they from. They had to tell the teachers the truth, saying they went to our apartment. But the boys werent as grumpy and sad as Rina and I were. After awhile, we decided to enjoy our last couple of days in Langkawi. The trip was a hell lot of fun. We returned to Subang with a big grin on our faces. Soon, the day that I was dreading came. Last day of primary school. I didnt want to leave school. 2003 was the best year I've ever experienced. Until now, I still want to go back to 2003. On the last day of school, I cried buckets. Knowing I would somehow lost contact with some of my close friends. When school ended that day, I waited at the waiting shed. I saw Zhr at the far end. I ignored him because at that time, we had some misunderstanding or something. When Syafiq, my good friend came to me, I purposely went to him and treated him extra than I should just to annoy Zhr. Syafiq had a crush on me, or so he said, so I knew if I treated him good, he would like it. And I was right. Syafiq got it wrong and thought I liked him when all I wanted to do was to see whether or not Zhr would get jealous. Zhr looked at me with so much hatred that I gave up. We didnt really break up but after that day, I didnt see him for so long as we both were in different high school. I got in Usj4 and Zhr was in Usj12. We lost contact and I just assumed that we were over. I hated him so much then, because well, he was my ex. I had this feeling that hating an ex is a must, How stupid was I ? Haha. I started dating other guys in high school and moved on. I havent heard from him for a while until he added me on Myspace. My body tingled a little when he commented me. I had no idea why I felt that way when really, I hated him. But I replied his comments and we became friends on Myspace. When I was 15, after my PMR examination, I was closed to Shera, once again. But that time, Fara and several others had joined the clan. Haha. Shera threw a birthday party and I came with my boyfriend at that time, Rahimi. Little did I know Zhr would be there too. When I saw him, I didnt smile or talk to him as I felt like he was a stranger.I wondered how could he possibly be there. He was sitting beside an Indian guy and now I know who that guy was. Vino ! Of course Vino was there. His ex girlfriend attended the party too. That explained so much why Zhr was there. I ignored him and us girls went dancing with each other. When 2006 ended, my parents warned me to stay away from Shera because of my bad PMR results. Us girls drifted apart when each one of us were seperated in different classes. But Fara and I remained friends though we were in different stream. We managed to find a tuition together just so we could spend time together as we didnt have time to hang out at school. Zhr and I continued being friends in Myspace and we got closer to each other day by day. We were on each others top. I was closed to Sha that time and that brought Zhr and I closer as he was dating Sha. Coincidentally, I had something with Zhr's friend, Dot. But Dot and I didnt officially date because I told him I wasnt ready. After a few months, I was with that stupid Amirul and stayed friends with Zhr. I was at Subang Parade with Amirul one day, when I saw Sha. I saw her with Ethan and they looked like a couple. I was confused so I asked Zhr whether he and Sha were still together. Zhr said yes, and asked me why. I had to tell him the truth, explaining how I saw Sha with Ethan earlier. I begged him to asked Sha for explaination before he did something stupid. But next thing I knew, they broke up. I felt guilty for telling him but was content that I helped him from getting cheated on. But there were times when she IM-ed me and said how she wished she could get Zhr back. I gave her advices, asking her to just explain the truth to Zhr and I did asked Zhr to give her another chance. Zhr refused and yes, they were officially over. Sha didnt know I was the one who told Zhr, of course. But I felt guilty. December of 2007 came and I got a job at Baskin Robbins in Taipan. I was still with Amirul but our relationship was on the rocks after he accused me of having an affair with my colleague. One day, Zhr came by Baskin Robbins with his bunch of friends and stopped in front of Baskin Robbins but didnt came in. He then text me saying sorry that he didnt came in. His reason ? He was shy. I replied saying he MUST come and buy ice cream from me before I quit the job end of December. He promised he would. He did come and bought a pint of ice cream. We talked for a little while and he went back. Fara came to my house one day and checked out my phone. She asked me whether something was going on between Zhr and me because she saw all those texts from him. Not that there was any flirty texts, but Fara was curious. I said no, nothing is between us and I was still with Amirul. After Raya, Wana invited me to her open house. I went and tried to have fun with my friends but couldnt as Amirul was being so annoying, calling and texting me a thousand times. I snapped and text him saying dont be too clingy, and I was trying to have some fun with my girlfriends. He was furious and called again. I ignored his calls and that was when Wana said Zhr was there too. My heart let out a thump but I had no idea why. Wana then came to me and said Zhr called me. I went outside, exactly where he was sitting and said what did he want. He asked me to accompany and sit with him since he was alone. I agreed and we got around to talk. We asked about each other's love lives. Amirul had to interupt our moment to catch up and that time I had enough. So I picked up the phone and he had asked me where was I. I told him I was at Wana's house in an angry voice and added, and Im hanging out with my ex boyfriend, referring to Zhr, of course just to make Amirul furious. He went ballistic and said why the hell would I want to hang out with my ex and stuffs. I couldnt care less of what he said and just hung up. My parents came to fetched me up and Zhr came up to the car and said hey to my family. Of course, they knew him because he was my boyfriend back then. After that incindent, Amirul and I broke up.It was end of February and I remember I just moved to my condo and daddy havent put up the internet. So I had to go down to the bistro to online. It was Friday and I just came back from my school, after winning 7th place on my school's road run. I came online and saw Zhr was online on my top. He commented me saying he hadnt seen me online for a while and I replied. After a couple of comments, I switched off the laptop as the internet was a sucker there. I went up to my house and received a text message. From Zhr. He asked why didnt I tell him I was off, he was waiting for me to reply his comment. Since I didnt have credit left in my phone, I borrowed mommy's phone and explained to Zhr how the internet was so slow. I said I'll text him when I have credit and we said goodbye. The next day, like usual, I had art class on Saturday mornings. After the class, I went to top up while waiting for my mom to fetch me. I decided to text Zhr. We called each other Dude back then, I dont know why. Haha. We continued texting. That night, he asked me something I've been waiting for him to ask. He asked whether I have a boyfriend. I said no I dont, and asked him the same. His answer ? You la girlfriend I. Dari sekolah rendah plak ;p I smiled all night long after reading that text. After awhile, we started calling each other girlfriend and boyfriend. And we met several times at Taipan. On March 16th 2008, he said he wanted to asked me to be his but he wanted to do it face to face. Not on the phone. He finally asked on March 18th. And at first I thought he was kidding but he said he was serious. I said yes and the rest is history.
Alot happened before and all those facts I just typed up there are the signs of how we're meant to be. I never thought you would be my destiny. But looking back, all those years, I am 100%, or maybe 150% sure that you're my soul mate. I have no doubt that we would be eternity. I've wasted all these years looking for a perfect guy when he was standing right in front of me all this while. I'll never take you for granted and I cherish all those moments all the way back when we were so little and naive to figure out what love is. I knew love from you, Zahir Fikri. I know how to love with all my heart and soul because of you. I realised forever really do exist because of you. I never thought I would be this blessed but here I am. Everything seems just so perfect with you around. So, thank you for your endless love, support and strength you've been giving me all this while. We're going different ways for our studies soon. But please, promise me we wont drift apart and we wont repeat the mistake we did breaking up like in 2003. I dont want anything to be in the way in our relationship. I know we can survive together no matter how far we are. I love you mucho grande, muffin.
♥ One year, two months and still going strong , baby ;]
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