Thump, goes my heart

As of today, January 1st 2009, the first day of the year 2009, obviously. As all my friends were out watching the fireworks with their friends and loved ones, I was stucked at home, with a headache, sore throat and a fever. I couldn't even bring myself on my feet. So, I was lying down on the couch as I didn't have any other option, I was alone in my house, Ipan and Nina had gone off to watch the fire works on the rooftop with their friends. Abang went to celebrate with his friends after work. And my parents went to the rooftop too. So i was lying down texting my boyfriend and feeling like, gosh, I have no life. But whatever. Zhr was out with his family and cousins. Fara was at The Curve with her boyfriend. Wow, Im such a loner. As the clock strikes 12am, I heard sounds, the fireworks and people screaming from god knows where. I cried for a bit realizing how 2008 has yet came to an end and as everyone was celebrating, Im all alone. Im sure gonna miss 2008 as that was the year I've had memories. Good ones and bad ones. 2008 was the year Zhr asked me to be his. 2008 was the year I was 17 and the last year I was in high school. 2008 was also the year I've earned bad grades in my studies. 2008 was also the year I've been backstabbed by my own bestfriends. 2008 was the year I was ditched by my bestfriend. And so, the list goes on. As the fireworks sounds became louder, I forced myself to look out the balcony next to the couch I was lying on. I could see fireworks everywhere. From Sunway, from Puchong, Bukit Jalil, KL, and everywhere ! I started thinking, not bad. Everyone saw fireworks at a place and I've got to see from several places. Yes, it was perfect, the fireworks and everything. Well, it was perfect minus my boyfriend. I wish he was there with me. As I was gazing into the sky with multi colour fireworks, a little bit of tears came out to the corner of my eyes. I don't know why but I thought it was kind of sad how a year, a complete 365 days passed ever so quickly. My birthday in 2008 was the best birthday in my entire life. I still remember how I was fooled by my boyfriend and friends. And the next thing I knew, they were all at my house with cupcakes in hands. I was surprised and I cried. Tears of joy (': I love them so much. But now, the year 2009, we are all in different directions. Except Zhr, that is. Fara is now always busy with her own life, leaving me clueless behind her. Lola is now in UK. Had some misunderstandings with Edora. Azri is busy with his job. Aizat Afiq is in Tuaran, Sabah due to his National Service he loathe so much. Look how much 2009 envy me. Everything is different. This is just a little. The next thing I know, I will be in college. Sigh, I dont want to grow up. Yes, sure it was nice to graduate from high school. But despite the fact that I dont have to open a History text book anymore, I miss my friends. My classmates, the most as they were the one who always make me laugh every single day. Why oh why, dear God do I have to be older a year every 365 days ? My life has its ups and downs, but the only one who is always there for me through thick and thin is my boyfriend. Yes, we may have argued or pulled a face to each other, but despite what I did to him, the hurtful words I've thrown, he's always there for me no matter what. I'm thankful that someone who is really great is mine. I am pretty much blessed on that. Life could never be perfect, I suppose. I will remember every bit and pieces of memories I've made in 2008. And to 2009, I'm begging you to slow down. Don't go too fast as I want to enjoy my time being 18 despite the fact that 18 is still an age that I call old. I cant change the fact that I'm 18, but I'm asking 2009 to slow its speed and don't go too fast like 2008 did, because I don't want to be older than I am now. Just one thing, when 2009 decides to go fast, I want everything I have in my life now to still be there with me in all the years yet to come. My family, Zahir Fikri, Fara Adibah. I want them all to be in my life every year. Though life can never be perfect, I'm convinced that with them, my life is perfect for me.

So, its 2009 and the future is coming to smack me right in the face. Result is coming out 3months from now and next ? College. Ahhh the word that Im afraid of since as long as I can remember.

Seeing how I could not even sit up straight on my butt without a headache yesterday, I had to lie down and nothing else. I wanted to just close my eyes and sleep but I couldnt either as my head is spinning like crazy and my body hurts. So, I took the time to read. And so my book I bought the other day, Top8, finished. That book is really interesting. Madison MacDonald, the girl in that book, is really obsessed with Friendverse. Friendverse is pretty similar to Myspace and Facebook. And she got hacked twice and the hacker decided to ruin Madison's life. She has 3 best friends but were very close to one of them, Ruth Miller as they were friends since elementary school. Everyone except her 3bestfriends hated her, she and her boyfriend broke up and he was dating someone else and everything sucked for her ever since her profile was hacked. But she met a guy, Nate. I saw his photo in the book and he is cuh-ute ! Lol. To make the long story short, she found out who the hacker was and I couldn't believe myself either. Turned out that her best friend, Ruth was the one who hacked her because Ruth was jealous of how perfect Madison's life was. Sick, I know. She ended up being best friends with just the remaining two girls. And ended up dating that Nate guy ! (: I am now reading the other book I bought, Huge. Im now on my third chapter. I'll tell you how the story is when I finish the book, alright (:

Im going to Parade and going to Bangi to visit mommy's friend who just gave birth. Wait, its Bangsar. Oh maybe Bangi. I dont know. Whichever, I want to get ready. Toodles !
Oh oh, and

Happy New Year !

:)

Surprise, Surprise

" Oh, life is a glorious cycle of song, a medley of extemporanea ; and love is a thing that can never go wrong ; and I am Marie of Romania "

- Dorothy Parker

So today woke up at half an hour pass ten, showered and fell back asleep seeing how I slept at 6am after I went to an exhausting trip to Genting. Now Im having sores all over my body. How nice -__-

At around 1pm, Syakir fetched me at my house by his Wira with Zhr, Muaz and Yam. Went to Muaz's somekind of a 'spare house', I'd call it, in Court10. Syakir and Yam went somewhere else after dropping Zhr, Muaz and I. So, we went in, I watched Muaz and Zhr played taiti while waiting the others to come. Ohh wait, I forgot to tell you what were we doing there. Mind my short term, man -__- We were throwing a suprise birthday party for Thariq. Yeah, thats why we were there, waiting for several other people to come. After awhile, Apple and the others came. With Pizza Hut and KFC(s) in hands, we gathered up the food they brought on the table and we started to arrange it and stuffs. Done with that and we waited for the party to start which felt like decades ! The party that were said to be starting at 1.30pm ended up at almost 6pm. We were waiting for Thariq to come. He had to go to Shah Alam to settle some stuffs about his passport. While we, at the house were being completely crazy. We were so bored that we did some crazy stuffs. Some were playing Taiti, some were in the room, listening to the incredibly LOUD stereo, while some of us were out in the living room talking. I was with Zhr at the living room with a few others. The guys famished for food so a few of them stole a chicken from the KFC box and shared among them. They took the chicken in a room hoping Apple wont find out. Finally Thariq arrived and he was shocked. I guess. Its hard to tell with his expression-less face. Lol but he was so cute. And seeing he blew the candles and cut the cake in Apple's hands. Aww they're so sweet (: I went back with Rafique, I think thats his name. Haha.

Because I want to ,

" Foul whisperings are abroad. "

-Shakespeare

So woke up today at almost 9am. Showered and after everyone were ready, we were on our way to Genting Highlands. We stopped for a little while to eat Baskin Robbins. I wanted my favourite, Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough but that Baskin Robbins is not really umm, in well-conditioned. They dont even have daddy's favourite, Jamoca Almond Fudge. I mean like, hello ? I thought every BR has Jamoca. Its the most like-able flavour. Oh well, I ended up eating Maui Brownie, my third choice as my second, Chocolate Mousse Royale wasnt available there either. So I read my new book the whole time I was in the car. Arrived up there around 12. Soon as I got out from the car, I was practically frozen ! I didnt expect it to be ice cold. I had my black shorts on and I felt like a total dunderhead wearing it. Thank God I wore two pieces on top and long sleeved. Im pretty sure I wont be able to move if I was wearing short sleeved top. So then, mommy and Abang went to buy the tickets for us. And got ourselves inside the theme park. It was drizzling and that most certainly made the weather twice as cold. Maybe even thrice. So we went straight to the Pirate Ship but it was closed due to the bad weather. So we decided to ride other rides but they were all closed. We decided to go indoor and find a place to eat. When we were in the midst of searching for food, my eyes caught something else. A store with 5 big letters on top. MANGO. Ohh la la. Haha it was an outlet, not the boutique. So i forced daddy to go, and as I stepped inside, the prices really impressed me. A pair of blue flats just for RM49 ? A tshirt for RM19 ? a purse for RM49 ? Pair of very stylish skinny pants for RM65 ? Oh my eyes were practically popping out. As I was snatching all things I found nice and worth buying, mommy then had to ruin my excited-ness and said we'll come back later after the theme park as its hard to ride anything if we have so many bags in our hands. So i had to put the stuffs I picked earlier with a heavy heart. Sighh. So we continue our search for food. After like 8 restaurants, we still couldnt find a descent place to eat. Ended up eating at Marrybrown. I knoww right, I thought Marrybrown were extinct. Anywhooo, I was starved and ordered fish n chips. It was unexpectedly delicious. After eating, we went to theme park again hoping the rides will be open. And yes, they were. So we were having so much fun on the first right on Pirate Ship. To the Tobbagon, then to the Mine train, Cyclone etc. I must say, I like Mine train and Pirate ship the most and therefore rode them twice. But I didnt have the nerve to ride Space Shot, Corkscrew and the new spiderman thingy. Im a chicken, I knoww. I really dont understand how people can ride the really scary ones. I would be in a comma if I ride one of those. Lol. I had to borrow Abang's sweater to keep me warm. But that sweater wasnt much a help either. So i just have to stand the expected to be 15Celsius temperature. After blistering my foot, cramping my whole body, blotch-ing my nose and numb-ing my fingers, I urged daddy to go back. I was so freezing cold. We left Genting feeling exhausted but happy (: We went to Shah Alam to eat near daddy's office. When we arrived, we saw daddy's office bright with lights. It was almost 12am, who could be there ? Turned out to be one of daddy's worker there, working ? Noo, he was not. Sleeping ? Nope, not that either. Guess what ? Watching porno. Yes, a 40 something years old man, watching that. Okayy, gross. So anyway, daddy told us that he had been watching those stuffs for quite a while now. Daddy had blocked the Internet access to any porn websites but then he brought cds to the office. Truckloads of them. Whats wrong with him ? Addicted, much ? Ewww !

Oh and you know, as I was riding the Tobbagon, that ride requires only one person, so I had to go alone. And as that thing was moving so freaking fast, my hair got stucked. I panicked and quickly pull my head and managed to get free. I was relieved -___- Oh and we end up going back at almost 10pm. Meaning, NO MNG ! Shoot, shoot, shoot ! Ahhhh I really want those flats, that skinny, that purse, that everything ! ): But anyway, I still had fun riding all those rides and I had fun with my family (:

Sooo, daddy said he doesnt want me to go out tomorrow. But I've promised Zhr and I want to meet him. Im looking forward to see him. Sighh, lets just hope daddy will change his mind tomorrow. Hope so. As for now, my thighs are screaming, my back aches, and everything on my body hurts. Might as well get some rest now. Cheers (:

You know I love you ,

One day, Saturday

I fell asleep while texting Zhr last night. Prove I was very tired. I woke up at 7am and received a really sweet text from Zhr. I managed to smile to myself before falling back asleep. Woke up half an hour to 11, and showered. Came online before breakfast but got fed up with the oh so stupid internet -__- After setting my laptop to standby mode, I dragged myself to the kitchen, took out the cereal box and ate a few pieces of honey stars straight from the box without fresh milk. Then, I didnt know what to do, so I went in mommy's room. As I entered the room, the first sentence that came out from daddy's mouth was 'you're getting fatter' Ahhh yes, the words I loathe so much coming out from anyone's mouth. I pretended I didnt hear him to ease myself. But ofcourse, daddy's in his funny mood and tried to annoy me by saying it again and again. Way to go, dad -__- I then shot him a look, and said, yeah I know. So ? Then he laughed at me ! Good God. Haha. Oh well, later I went back to my room, took my top off and stand in front of my bed room mirror for like an hour. I stand in every possible angles. Lol, could I be obsess ? Maybe, whatever. After hearing daddy's blissful words, I was determined to start dieting back. But then, mommy had to cook a very delicious looking meal, and I ate. Like usual, I regretted eating and drank a glass of lemonade without sugar hoping it will help me cleanse. And yes, it helps. Alot. Thankyou, lemonade ! Lol

Okayy, daddy just told me to get ready. Genting, here I come ! Okay I know its not Disneyland, but at least Im not bored at home, eat and sleep, hence increasing the size of my arse. Lol. Bye !

I befriended Chocolate

At 2 something pm, Nina, mommy and I arrived at Wangsa Maju. Met up with my aunt and went straight to the Spa. Euro Sense, the name. Once I stepped in the spa, I was like, omygoshh. I was pretty convinced I was in heaven for almost 4hours. Lol. After keeping our bags in the locker, Nina and I were escorted by two Chinese ladies upstairs. While mommy and my aunt were kept downstairs. The fourth floor was even better. With the decorations and stuffs. I feel so relaxed just by inhaling the smell of herbs and nature. Nina and I were asked to change into the towels on the beds. As soon as we changed, we lied down and the ladies started to put scrub product on our bodies. It smelled alot like chocolate and I felt like eating it. Goshh. So after scrubbing our bodies, it was time for the body wrap. We were poured in a tasty banana-smelled liquid and I felt my stomach screaming. I was suddenly starved as soon as I breathed in the banana smell. We were wrapped in some kind of a plastic and were heated. Sounds like we're ingredients to bake a banana cake. Lol. But yes, its true. They put a heater to heat our bodies under the beds we were lying on. It sure was hot. I was sweating for 15minutes and finally the ladies came back and asked us to go rinse ourselves. Then finally, manicure. The moment I've been waiting for ! Haha we went downstairs and were served chinese tea. I asked the lady to do a french manicure for me. The result ? Ohh la la ! Haha i love it :)

After spa, we went to Aeon mall, ate at a restaurant called Sakura something. I forgot -__- I had a plate of Bangkok fried rice which was okayy. Not the oh-so-delicious-my-saliva-is-running-down-my-mouth kind of delicious. Just okay. And I ordered Chocolate ice blended which was soooo yummy but I regret having it because it was so creamy and fattening. But I finished it all anyway. Despite the guilty feeling I was having for consuming too much of fats, guess what ? Dessert ! Ahhhh, the famous delicious but so fattening dessert, ICE CREAM ! Yes. I ate bread pudding ice cream. It was YUMMMMMMMYYYYYYYY but as soon as I ate the last piece of the pudding, ice cream and whipped cream on top, I felt like killing myself. Seriously, why do I have to ruin my diet ? Shoot me in the head, somebody. Better yet, shoot me in the throat so that way maybe I could throw up all the things I've ate earlier ? Yeahh right, Ayeen. Not funny -__- So anyways, we were walking and met this celebrity. Nubhan from Akademi Fantasia ? Okayy you guys are probably thinking, what the hell ? I knowwwwwww, right. I didnt know him but seeing him made me want to know him. Haha get what I mean ? Okay for all you slow people, I think he's hot. He's skinny and tall. And that hair ! but he was smoking with hs friends. What a turn off, I know. Im not the one who's into him though. Yeah, I think he has the looks but nahh. Zahir is always the greatest. Aww, Im so sweet, arent I ? Haha. Anyways, Nina was the one who swooned. She was like, awww look at him, he's so hot he's so hot he's so hot ! Hahaha typical Nina. We then walked in the mall and my aunt said she wanted to buy the nail buffer at a Korean shop called Tsuya Tsuya. We went there and the two promoters are soooo adorable. A couple of so talkative chinese girls. So cute. Abang just sat there and smiled, then he whispered, they're so cute. Lol. Turned out that we bought several other manicure stuffs instead of just the buffer. And of course I was the one who persuaded daddy to buy all those stuffs for me. I managed to get a nail file, two bottles of cuticles relaxer, nail buffer and a nail pusher. Haha poor daddy :) Mommy then decided to get a manicure too. So we waited for couple of hours there. After that, I went to a Hotlink store nearby to topup. I asked for a Rm10. I punched in my number and guess what ? I didnt even get the 10dollar credit. A bunch of shitheads decided to cheat me. Ugh. Now Im running out od credit to text Zhr. I hate you, liar. Sighh. Went to Awish's place. I was really scared to see the houses that were 'eaten' by the landslide. Goshh it was really scary. I kept quiet the whole journey. When the clock hits 10pm, we went back without Ipan. He's sleeping over there. After several minutes in the car, my aunt called. At first I thought I've forgotten to take my things at her place but then Awish's voice was calling me at the end of the other phone. He asked me to sleepover at his house. Aww so cute ! But I cant, I didnt bring my toiletries and lingerie. So I had to refused :( I got home and was too lazy to shower. So I washed up and changed into my pj's. Ohh what a day huh :)

Im exhausted and very sleepy. So goodnight sweeties :)

Our Deepest Darkest Secret ,

So, yesterday daddy decided to take us all out. We went to our usual mamak restaurant to eat. Then we didnt know where to go. So daddy just drove us to god knows where. In the end, we ended up at bb. Nina insisted daddy to go Sg. Wang which I dont understand. I mean, man, I hate that place. I hate bb to for that matter. Its jam packed with people. And yesterday wasnt any different. We were stuck in front of Times Square for like, what ? An hour or so ? Ugh. So we just walked there. I know, wasting time eh ? Haha so Abang called me later on asking where were we and are we coming to Pyramid. We promised to meet him up at Pyramid where he works. And I told him we're on our way. Yeah right. Haha. I urged daddy to leave KL, pronto.

Daddy wanted to buy something for his Macbook at Machines in Sunway. So we left Dad there and Mom asked me to accompany her to go to the cinema to buy tickets for Yes Man. AGAIN ! Haha. Unfortunately, the show started at 920pm and it was 945pm by the time I got there with Mom. Abang wanted to watch with us so we have to watch after 10, after he finish his work. Daddy said we should go to Summit to see if the tickets for the 1040pm show were still available. So we rushed to Summit but couldnt really get there earlier because of the traffic. It was 10 and obviously, everyone decided to go back home the same time we did when we were rushing -__- Arrived at 1025pm, bought the tickets and waited for Abang to arrive. My third time watching Yes Man. Lol. I love Jim Carrey. And Zooey too. I keep thinking why is she so pretty with that hairstyle but I was completely the opposite with the same hairstyle ? Lol. Whatever. So, movie ended at around 1230am. Got back and texted Zhr. He called at 3something in the morning and we just talked an laughed alot. I just love how he calls me in the middle of the night. You know, I think thats really cute and sweet :) And when we were both out of words to say, he'll say those words that will put a smile on my face throughout our conversation. So after we hung up, I slept straight away. It was almost 5am and I was tired.

Woke up today by the sound of my cellphone. Text message. Ohh, stupid maxis decided to interrupt my beauty sleep at 9 in the morning. Nicee. I deleted the unnecessary text from Maxis and went to back to sleep. As I was about to close my eyes, text message again. I decided to just let it be because that will probably be Maxis again. I received another 7texts and the sound just cant make me sleep. So I decided to delete all the texts from, YES, MAXIS -__- with my eyes closed. Lol. Then I fell back asleep. About half an hour later, mommy came and knocked on my door asking me to get up and get ready. We're going to Wangsa Maju today to the Spa with my aunt that I've been excited for since before SPM started ? Haha. I got up, showered and blow dried my hair. Oh how nice, bad hair day today. Sigh. Im now still in my robe. Have. To. Get. Ready. Now. Or mommy will go ballistic. Oh, I sounded a little English there, no ? Haha

Toodles !

Hohoho ,

Merry Christmas !

Have fun to all who celebrate Christmas ! :)

I love you, Mohd Zahir Fikri B Mohd Azmi

♥

It went well ,

If you already knew, my boyfriend of 9months never invited me anywhere with his friends. Last night was the first. Barbeque night ! I was excited, shocked and kind of nervous. First time spending time with his bunch of friends. I prayed Vino will be there so I wouldnt be so isolated and awkward there since Vino was the only one Im close to.

Almost 9pm, Zhr and I arrived at the Usj11's park. The first person I saw was Sya. I was relieved to see Sya and Uswah there. I have friends ! Yeay ! Oh after hugging the girls to say hello, I followed Zhr to his friends and I managed to spot Vino by the barbeque thingy. He said hey. I started to feel that its not that bad. Uswah, Sya, Vino ? I totally can blend it. Yeah, so I sat on a bench with Zhr. And just talked. Turned out that its not really that bad. I mean, Zhr's friends weren't that bad at all, they were friendly and talked to me. Took photos and all. It was fun, really. Zhr was being so sweet though his friends were just a few feet away from us. So yeah, I had fun :) Mommy called then, and asked if I could get myself a ride home because she was too lazy to fetch me. Zhr managed to get me one, with his friend, Alief. I arrived home at 12am.

Thank you babycakes, for the magical night. I had fun with you and your friends who cracked me up the whole night. And thank you for inviting me. Its nice to know you're not embarrass of me in front of your friends. I love you with all my heart (:

My legs are screaming. Well, sort of

So, I woke up today. Showered and found nothing on the kitchen counter for breakfast. Milk had run out so I cant have cereal either. Mommy was in her room with her college friend who was sleeping over since Daddy's not home. Had brunch at Parade. Uncle Lim's. I ate mushroom mee. Not really nice but the whole meal toast was like ohmygoshh, delicioussss ! Window shopped later on. Met Nayim at Parkson. I didnt know he works there. He said hey. Went to Toys R Us to buy Christmas presents for my neighbour's Christmas party tomorrow night. I planned to wear the santa hat I have to the party. But then Zahir invited me to his friends' barbeque tomorrow night. Of course I'll go with him to the barbeque instead of the Christmas party. Duhhh ! Haha. Oh, after I asked mommy and she said I could go to the barbeque, I told Zhr I cant go. Just to see his reaction, lol. Then, he called mommy to convince mommy for me. Hahaha mommy laughed at him. Sorry bb ;p So at around 7pm, we went back and my feet hurt like sooo much.

You know, I really am happy that Zahir invited me to the barbeque. He never invited me to any of his friends' party or anything with his friends. I felt like as if he's embarass of me in front of his circle of friends. I dont know if he is, but he said he's not. After waiting for so long, to see if he would EVER going to invite me to any occasion with his friends or like, go out with his friends. And now he's inviting me to this barbeque, I was shocked, yes. And really happy to know that he's not embarass of me. Yeahh, I sound so insecure, I know. Haha Oh well, thats me I guess.

Im like reallyyy tired so I guess, I'll get some sleep now. Toodles

Not the right time ,

Its been what ? 4 days since my last post ? Yeah. Been busy. Seeing how my lovely boyfriend is back from his holiday, I've been out alot. On the 20th, Zhr, Fara, Vino and me went to Bandar Kinrara to take our Undang test. We arrived at 11am and waited for million hours ! We did our computerized test at 6pm. I had a fight with Zahir there. We didnt talk the whole time. When it was my turn to go in the examination room, I was so nervous that I shivered. My hands started to sweat. With the my situation with Zahir, I was scared that I will completely black out while doing the test. We have to nail 42 and above over 50 question within an hour. That means we cant have more than 8 wrongs. Ohmygod, that sounds really hard. I passed the test, luckily. I nailed 47 questions which was pretty shocking. I mean, yes I did studied alot for the past couple of days but I was so scared ! I thought I totally blew it. Ohmyy, I thanked God as soon as I received my result slip. All of us passed except for Vino. Fara and Zahir both got 42 and 43 :) But Vino got 39, which kind of up setting seeing how he now has to repeat the test this Wednesday alone. Oh well, good luck buddy :)

The next day, we met at Pyramid and watched Yes Man, HILARIOUS ! Jim Carrey is the best ! Haha. Managed to buy the gladiator I dreamt of for such a long time. I saw Fara wearing it the day before and decided to buy it on Sunday with Zahir. When we stepped into Vincci, two gladiators caught my eyes. One was red and the other was blue and black. I tried on both of them for like, million times, and after asking Zhr which one looks better on me for the 6988365 million times, I decide to buy the blue and black because that was the one I was craving for from the first I laid eyes on it. So yeah. Called daddy to pick us up at around 6something pm, since mommy's not here. She went to Melaka for her college reunion.


I'm so tired tat I cant think of anything else to say. So I might as well go get some rest. Goodnight guys

Because you know it ,

I didn't update anything yesterday because everything was pretty much the same like usual. Today is the day I've been waiting. Its 18th. My 9th anniversary, OUR 9th anniversary. Yeah, though Zhr's not here with me, I'm happy. Not my usual-anniv-happy, but slightly. Its my first time celebrating it alone, I felt so alone, but hey, tomorrow he's coming back. I'll see him really sooooooooooon :D At 12am, I texted him, wishing happy anniv and yadda yadda yadda. He replied. Oh and I received up to 2000 same texts from him. Seriously, two friggin' thousand ! :O Oh well, my credit ran out, AGAIN -__- Slept late just because I was playing Harvest Moon. Haha.



Woke up today at 9am, showered, ate a bowl of cereal and couple of tuna sandwiches for breakfast. I finally got around to open the first page of my driving book. FINALLY did a few hundreds question. I really am getting nervous about the test this Saturday. Omg ! Went through the cupcake recipe book mommy bought decades ago but never gave it a use. Lol. Planning to bake some cupcakes but seeing how lazy I'm becoming day by day, I wouldnt bet on it. Played Harvest moon again until mommy asked me to accompany her to go to the bank. Changed into my sweatpants and sweater, I dashed out the door. Went to SS19 then to Alam Megah (the most hated place ever -___-) and went to Mydin to buy some groceries. Arrived home at 7pm. Changed my mind, decided to work out by dancing instead of the treadmill at the gym. I miss dancing, really :) While I was dancing, I threw up for the second time in my life. Out went my lunch of couple of toasts. Disgusting but it felt good to be able to get rid of the food I've consumed earlier. Mommy was like, 'what did you do ? Shove a toothbrush down your throat ? ' She thought I was bulimic. Yeahh right. If I have bulimia, I would have Kate Moss's skeleton body. Haha. Oh well, after I threw up, I felt good though my face was as red as a tomato and I was out of breath. Went down for a swim at 8pm and went up around 9pm.

Happy 9th Anniversary, babycakes !

HugsandKisses ;

Iloveyou, Zahir Fikri

I love you, Family

Watched Material Girls today. Watching Hilary Duff makes me eager to be skinnier. She was fat and now look at her. So friggin' hot ! I think Hilary Duff is the prettiest :) Spent pretty much the whole day playing Harvest Moon on Playstation2. Abang's not coming home tonight till Thursday, like usual. I browse the internet for Hilary Duff's diet secrets and she said she does pilates and does cardio at the gym every week. She jogs on the treadmill. She eats well and I am now following her diet. So, I went to the gym and jog for half an hour and went swimming for another half an hour. I really hope I could keep up with her diet and be satisfied with my body for once.

I am feeling SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO lonely compared to before. My bestfriend and all my schoolmates are now dancing the night away on the hard wood floor in the Victorian Ballroom without me and my own boyfriend is so far away. On top of that, my credit had run out days before. That means, no texting Mr Boyfriend. I'm stuck at home alone with only my tv, a totally lame playstation and a laptop. I have no freaking life. I'm starting to think that I'm soo lame right now. My life is dull, no friends, no boyfriend. Dvds at home every single day. Oh good lord, please give me some fun. I dont just want fun right now, I NEED FUN. All I do on daily basis ;

• Breakfast
• online
• play playstation
• watch dvd
• late lunch
• read dictionary
• play some more of playstation
• online AGAIN
• Swimming and gym
• dinner
• online some more and more and more
• watch a freaking dvd AGAIN and AGAIN -____-

See how pathetic I've become since my boyfriend's not here and my best friend is not keeping in touch with me ? Haha well, despite the loneliness, I think a part of me likes to spend everyday alone and with my family, watching movies, read and just sit and talk :) After all, every time I screw up, my family is the one I can count on. I'm really close with Mom but now I think we're getting closer. She asked how Zahir's doing there in Jakarta everyday. Its nice to know she is concerned about him. She said she doesnt worry much with Zhr being my boyfriend because she had known him for a long time. Awww :) I love you Mom! Okay, my life might seem really dull right now but I have the greatest people in my life. A lovely family, sweetest boyfriend and a best friend. I could never ask for more :)

Oh they're watching Resident Evil on Dvd right now. I might as well join them. Till then, Night lovelies :)

Loneliness overcomes me ,

I miss them ! Both of them are not anywhere near me and I miss them heaps ! Darwish always make me laugh and swoon. Zahir on the other hand, always make me happy and smile all the time. They're my source of happiness. I MISS YOU GUYS SO MUCH !

Stay with me forever ,

Zahir Fikri,

you're so far away from me now. These past few days without you made me realise how dysfunctional I am without your presence. Its so obvious that I need you. You're always there for me and you never fail to cheer me up. You're always on my side no matter how many people are against me. You make me smile even though I'm in a bad mood. When I cry, you always do the sweetest thing that put a smile back on my face. When we argue, you always apologise without hesitation even though its my fault. You never give up with my whinings and attitude. When my best friend is ditching me, you stand right by me for support. Now, after almost a year with you, every time I'm about to fall into pieces, I always see you every time I turn. You're always there to catch me when I fall. I am now facing a lot in life but you're nowhere to be seen. I'm fragile without you, baby. Now I know how life would be without you. I'll be miserable. Life would not be something I would be excited for. Days will pass dully. You have always been a support to me. You have given me strength day by day. I can't function properly these few days while you're away. I really cant face life alone. No one is as great as you, as sweet as you, as caring as you, as loving as you, as nice as you. I can't even describe how lucky I am to have you. You light up my life every single day. Your smile, your laugh, your embrace, your words are my most favourite thing on earth. I don't want you to go away. So please, stay. Stay right by me forever. I want you permanently in my life as long as I can breath. The days I spent with you are the most wonderful days in my life. 5months when were 12, 9months now and still going strong. I would never wish for another guy to experienced all these with me. When you came in my life, you taught me a lot. I started to see the world in different ways. I finally believe that true love and soul mates really do exist in this cruel world. I used to think there is no perfect guy in this world. But as days passed, I came to realise that there is. You, Zahir Fikri is in fact, so perfect for me. You suit me very well. You understand me very well. You know me very well. Every time you say 'I love you', I'm on top of the world. Every time you treat me well,I feel like there's a shiny tiara on my head as you treat me like a princess. You don't care how much I eat, how clumsy I am, how loud my laugh is, how silly I get, you just keep on loving me like there's no other girl in this world. You make me feel like I'm the luckiest chick ever lived. I am highly proud of my boyfriend as you are the best a girl could ever ask for. I would never let anyone or anything stay in the way of our relationship. I will try my hardest to keep us going forever. I will never trade you with money or even clothes that I love so much. In fact, I would never trade you with anything. Because nothing can beat you. Any other guy would look like a total naive compared to you. You have the looks as much as you have the sweetness in you. You complete me, babycakes. Now here I am, sitting alone in front of my laptop in the middle of the night, expressing my feelings about you to my blog. I really need you here right now, baby. I am sick of waiting and I would do anything to get you back here with me. Usually I love the holidays but this year, I'm hating it as it is the main reason you're a thousand miles away from me. 10days might sound like a short period, but when it comes to you being away from me, it feels like decades ! You're my everything, Zhr Fikri :)

Dunderhead. Who ?

So, ended up watching Wild Child, AGAIN. For the third time within two weeks. I wanted to watched Material Girls but Abang's home, finally. And he wanted to watch Wild Child. Abang is now okay. Kind of. He's slowly turning back into his old self. Thank God :) I miss him ! After watching, I went straight into my room at around 2am. When I was about to close my eyes, my whole family came in my room and talked. We chatted till everyone was sleepy.

Woke up at 10am this morning, took my shower in my parents' bathroom because my toilet's pipe is broken, and had breakfast of my opah's cucur. The bestttt :D After eating, thought about blogging but daddy was using my laptop since I left it on the dining table last night. Mommy said she's going KL with daddy and my brother. I asked can I go too ? And get ready. I changed 3 times as I was not satisfied with what I was wearing. Though we're just going to settle up my brother's MARA's thingy in KL. I decided to wear my new dress that my aunt bought for me. Arrived at the MARA building, while mommy and daddy were settling some stuffs, the siblings and I went searching for drinks. Found the most descent shop there, which was not really clean, bought drinks and couple of snacks. Searched for any stairs so we could sit and eat. After awhile, daddy called Abang's phone to meet up at the same place we split up earlier. Daddy drove us to a restaurant in Kelana Jaya that we always go. I ordered Yong Tau Foo, and ate some of Abang's fried Kuey teow. I stopped eating when I felt like my stomach was bloated. Oh wow, so much for keeping in shape huh ? -___- Dropped by Summit to fulfill Irfan's dream. He smiled all the way when he got himself a Playstation 3. I asked him for his old Playstation2 so I can put in my room. He said yes. Cool ! :) Arrived home around 7pm and took a shower. Pretty boring day, huh ? I think so too..

Whatever it is ,

Look at Hilary Duff, she is so pretty. And that killer body ! Ahh why do Hollywood stars always have such nice bodies ?

Watched Shaolin Soccer for the 568423 thousand times with the kids last night. Had to sleep alone at the living room again. When all the lights were off and everyone was in their room, I started to cry over Zhr's texts and photos. Ohmy, after four days of bottling up my tears, I couldnt held it in anymore. So, I cried myself to sleep. Set my alarm at 7am to go swimming with Nina but turned out waking up at 10am instead. So much for exercising in the morning -___- Woke up today feeling a little bit in the blues, but better than last night. Checked my phone, hoping for a morning wish from Zahir. But nadaa. Its okayy, I comfort myself saying he'll text me later. Took my shower and looked for breakfast on the kitchen counter. Found nothing but nasi lemak. Spent several minutes to think whether I should eat that fattening nasi lemak seeing how I ate TOO much yesterday. Decided not to increase the fats I've probably stuffed in me yesterday, I treat myself with French Toast with peanut butter just like the one I ate the other day at Uncle John's Kopitiam. I cooked two pieces of French Toast for myself and ate with pancake syrup. Received a text from Zhr. Oh wait, not just one, but two texts ! :D

Zombies are coming to town ,

Didnt go to Ikea like mommy said we would. Went to the Bistro downstairs for lunch and they dont have foods. Can you belive it ? A cafe with no food ? Wow, thats a first. The reason why is that the cook wasnt here. And we asked, why ? Where did the cook go ? The waiter's answer ? 'Dia segan nak masak' with a thick Nepal accent. Segan ? Say whaaa ? -____- So we ended up eating cupcakes and chocolate cake with drinks. I ordered honew dew with milk which was pretty good. 3 slices of chocolate cakes and 3cupcakes to share among nine people. The cake slices were the smallest I've ever seen and the cupcakes taste like plastic. Eww. Okay, I admit I ate chocolate cake which I've promised earlier will avoid. But I ate not because I was sad or stress out. I ate because everyone else was eating. Haha but hey, just half of a cupcake and a quarter of the already small cake. Not that much, I just wanted to know what is taste like. And I regret because they taste alot like cheap flour. After eating, went up and had some mac and cheese mommy made for breakfast this morning. Lied down beside Awish who was sleeping in front of Aishwarya Rai on tv. Felt asleep at 4pm and woken up by Daddy at 6 something. Got up and guess what ? Ate some more. Dinner was served. Seafood fried rice mommy cooked when I was sleeping. I ate in a plate so small that my aunt said 'why so small ?' I said if I eat in a big plate, I will definitely pour awhole lot of rice. So yeah, just to control the quantity. The fried rice was awesome. So deli-freaking-licious ! With crabs, prawns and my favourite squids. Yummyyyy :) Nina ate 4plates ! :O After eating mommy made Ice blended Mocha for me which was sooo tastaayy ! With chocolate powder and chocolate chips on top. I didnt want the chocolate stuffs on top as you know how I broke the promise at lunch today, but it was too late. Mommy had put it on the table for me complete with the chocs. Nevermindd, just a tiny portion wouldnt hurt anyone, right ? After eating our dinner, we all, including my aunt's family went down to the theatre room in the lobby to watch the new dvd we bought the other day. A zombie movie. 28days later, the title. It was kind of similar to I am Legend, but its British and the zombies move so fast. I mean, arent zombies supposed to be very slow ? Okaayy, moving on. There was this part, where the so-called hero in that movie who also played the bad guy in Red Eye, poked the eyes of a guy. Like really deep and that guy was sreaming and blood was coming out everywhere. Ewww I felt like my eyes were about to pop out. There was also this black woman, that looked alot like Rihanna in her video, Disturbia. Lol. Over all, the movie pretty much sucked but the British accent ? Nice :)

Take It Easy ,

I ate biscuits with tea for breakfast. Had nothing else to do and felt like blogging. So here I am in front of my laptop. I feel a wee bit dizzy. I don't know its because of my illness or because of what happened. Either way, I hate having a headache. It drives me crazy, everytime ! Oh, as I was transferring photos from my phone to my laptop, I received a text. I checked and my heart beats faster when I saw Zhr's number. He wished me good morning :) 6 more days, babyy ! I can barely wait ! :D

Last night I was so down that I didnt have the mood to blog about anything else. So Im sure all of you know that the whole family and I, including my aunt and cousins, watched Wild Child last night on Dvd. It was my second time as my first was with Zhr at the cinema. I've always been fond of Emma Roberts since her early days in Unfaboulous. And now, I just like her more when I watched her in Wild Child. She is so pretty ! Though I dont think she makes a good rich brat. She doesnt have the rich-heiress-doll-face like Paris Hilton does but an innocent one instead. And seeing how nice she is in Unfaboulous and Nancy Drew, I think the innocent image works a whole lot better on her. But who's complaining ? I mean, its nice to see an innocent actress tries to be a rebel. Its like seeing Lizzie McMcGuire and the 21 year old Hilary Duff at the same time. Anyow, I still think Emma Robert is gorgeous as I think Hilary Duff is.

Awish was crying because his PSP's battery had gone off. Haha now he is lying down on the couch with his mom. I slept with him last night and when I woke up, he said "Tido dengan kakyeen best!" I swooned right there and then. Coming out from the almost three year old cute little kid, I just couldnt help myself :) When Zhr went to Bandung, I didnt think I could even put a fake smile of my face for ten whole days. But now that Awish is here, I smile every single day :) But I still hope the days would go by faster.

Mommy said we're going to Ikea later on after Nina's piano class. But Im not sure if we will really go. I hope so ! :)

Till then, Cheers !

Thousand Miles Away ,

I didn't have the energy to update a post last night because I was sick. A fever, flu, cough, body sores and sore throat. I don't even have the energy to get up from the couch yesterday. So I pretty much just lie down on the couch. Didn't even have the appetite to eat anything.

Woke up around 9.30am today feeling a lot better than yesterday. Zahir bought an Indonesia's simcard and his number is like so long. 12numbers ! :O He told me that Indonesians say 'pulsa' instead of credit. How cute is that ? :) Been texting Zhr which costing me 20cent per text compared to the usual 1cent per text. But anyway, who's complaining ? I don't mind as long as I know what he's doing and how is he doing there. So yeah, been texting him these past couple of days which I have to topup like two times a day. And now I'm broke, so all I could do is wait for 7days. Sigh. Went to Summit to eat Sushi King today. Oh and I planned to watch a movie at Pyramid with my cousin, Mamat. But I had to dissapoint him by cancelling at the very last minute because I was ill. And still am. I hope I'll be okay soon. Last night daddy was like, 'you're sick because Zahir's so far away, obviously.' Lol. Daddy knows me too well, I suppose :)

PS; Im counting the days till our next anniv on 18th, ALONE :( and the 19th, the day you'll be back. I cant wait for both :)

8 more miserable days !

Because the time envy us,

Zhr called before he boarded the plane at 2.45pm. There was a slight drop of tears in the corner of my eyes. But I promised I wont be so down about him going. Went swimming with the little kids again at 9pm. But I spent the whole time swimming alone though. I stayed at the exact same spot where Zhr and I swam the other day. Not even a day and I'm already missing him like so much ! Sighh. Oh, and Zhr just called ! Ohmygoshhh :D I was soooo excited when I heard his voice. After we both hang up, I quickly jumped off my bed and ran towards Mom and I was like 'mom ! Zhr just called ! ' And she was like, 'oh okaayy' :D

Forget me not

Today just passed by a blur. Didn't do much other than eat and sleep. Woke up at 9 like usual, got up from my parents' bed since my aunt and uncle slept in my room last night. Took a shower and ate breakfast. Lazed around at the living room with Awish and my other cousins. Fell asleep at noon. Went swimming pretty late. Brought Awish, Ika and the boys to the pool. I had to take care of Awish at the baby's pool. The water doesnt even come up to my knees -___- Went up at around 7, met an Indonesian guy, Airasia's steward or pilot, I'm not sure. But he's very fair. He stays on the 15th floor and we got around to talk. He talked first, asking are all the kids my siblings ? And I was like, no they're my cousins and he asked whether I'm still in school and bla bla bla. Let me tell you, his accent ! Me likey, its cute (: Oh and talking to him made me realise how Zhr's going to Indonesia tomorrow ! Sigghhh !

Spent pretty much the whole day babysitting Darwisy. Changing his diapers, making his milk, showering him, made him sleep, entertaining him, run here and there to keep him safe. I feel like a mom now. Lol. Its a good thing he's adorable, you know :)


Oh well, gotta jet. Cheers ! :)

A Wild Child, I am ?

I woke up at around 9 or so, showered and ate two wheat biscuits to keep me going until 12. Mom and Dad went out to fetch Opah up at Taman Melawati. And came back to fetch me and Zhr up. Sent us to Pyramid. As soon as Zhr and I arrived in Pyramid, we went straight to the cinemas to take our movie tickets that Zhr booked yesterday. When it was 1.10pm, we went in the cinema. And to people who haven't watch Wild Child, you really should watch. Emma Roberts is awesome in that movie. She doesnt look like the innocent-13-year-old-girl she used to be in Unfabulous. She looks more mature and very pretty too. I envy her nice skinny long legs, man. Like gosh really !

After movie, we went to eat and wandered around Pyramid. Ate ice cream at Baskin Robbins. Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough, ummm my favourite ! :) Then called Mom at around 540 to pick us up. After waiting for not more than an hour but felt like 3hours, we went to Sri Petaling to fetch Abang there since his car is somehow messed up.

So, Mom said she wants me to start college in January. You know, despite the nervous-ness Im feeling about college life, I've been giving much thoughts about how Zhr and I are going to survive. Our relationship. I hope we're going to work it out somehow even if we're in different colleges (:

Night, lovelies

Landslide

Whats all these landslide stories I hear ? Newspapers, news on tv. All I hear is landslide here, landslide there. I didnt give it any thought as I dont really care about it. Little did I know that Bukit Antarabangsa is also the prey to the monsterous landslide. Mommy woke me up with a vey worrying news that Awish couldnt make it to our house today because he and his family were stuck up there in their house. And they still are. Stuck with no water and electricity. They couldnt get out. I freaked out by the thought of a little baby like Awish is stuck up there :S I want my Awish here now ! Please please please god, I want Awish in good health and condition. His family too, pleasee. Lets pray for the 5000 people stuck up in their home at Bukit Antarabangsa and for those who died because of the disaster

Future day

Went to Education Fair in PWTC today with Daddy and Nina while Mommy accompany Irfan at home. When we stepped inside, thousands and thousands of bodies passing by. It was as crowded as a concert. We pushed our way through the swarm of people and went to one booth to another. In the end, I find the most interesting college is Technology Park Malaysia College, my brother's college. I know, you guys will think, arent there any other colleges ? But after cramping my feet in my 4 inches wedges browsing, Im not really interested in any other colleges. I was thinking about doing American Degree, a twinning progamme in Bachelor of Science in Business Administration which I will spend 2years studying here in Malaysia and 2years in The States. Me likeyyy :D Im thinking about joining the January intake which is more reasonable for me. Furthermore, I want to finish my studies as soon as I can and they only ask for like, 5credits for my forecast including English, Math and I must pass my Bahasa Melayu. So Im qualified as I have 6As and none fail for my forecast. But anyhow, I have to ask for my parents opinion first. I already have the green light from mommy and half of the green light from daddy. Lol. Im scared but excited at the same time to be called a college student. I would have to stay in the college's hostel for my first semester, which I still cant do anything about. And the thought of college's life, new environment, new friends, new subjects. God ! Can I survive ?

Went for a swim with Nina this evening and the pool could'nt be any colder ! I was practically frozen in the pool. Oh and going to Pyramid with Zhr tomorrow before he goes to Indonesia next Tuesday. Going to watch Wildchild (:
Im tired of walking the whole day, so I guess Im going to get some rest now. Toodles ! (:

Hello Hello ,

Been spending every possible second with Mr Boyfriend these past few days after SPM. On Wednesday morning, met up with Zhr, Fara and Vino to register for our driving lessons. Went to Parade for brunch. We waited for ages and Zhr finally hailed a cab. Arrived in Parade but didnt know where to eat. Vino ate McDonalds' McShaker fries. After Vino went to KTM, Zhr, Fara and I went to Uncle Lim's and shared a nasi lemak. Went to MPH with Zhr while Fara went to browse for shoes. After a couple hours, we hailed another cab and went to Mydin where Fara's mom was waiting for her. I waited for Mom to call with Fara and Zhr at Mydin. Mommy finally called and asked Zhr and me to go to Giant. We helped mommy grocery shopping :) Then after that Zhr followed us home. I fell asleep for a little while as I was still tired from the night before. Then when the clock hits 540, Zhr, Nina and I went down for a swim. Zhr refused at first. But after persuading and convincing him, he finally changed into the shorts I gave him. We went down and took gazzilion photos together, Nina as the photographer :) We swam in the practically frozen pool till 7pm. Zhr was shivering like mad ! Haha. Went up and took a shower, ate the fried maggi mommy cooked. At around 8, mommy sent Zhr back home. What a day ! :D

Mommy said Awisy is coming tomorrow. Joy, joy, joy ! :D I miss him so much ! And planning to meet up with Zhr again before he leaves for Jakarta next Tuesday :) 10 days without him ? Oh wow, thats tough..

Goodbye highschool dramas, Hello Life

I'm through, through, through ! IM FINAAAAAAAALLLLLYYYYY DONEEE ! The last 15minutes of my Economics paper was seriously the longest 15minutes in my life ! Haha. Well, I was looking forward to meet Zhr later on. So yeah (:

Despite my Accounts paper last Monday, I went to watched Bolt with my family the day before. After watching Bolt, I have a new interest in cute dogs. Haha Bolt's soooooo cute, I couldnt resist ! :D I even turned my cat into Bolt with the lightning on his body and the collar on his neck. Sooooo cute !

Today, after finishing my last paper, I was so eager to go back to get ready. I planned to meet Zhr, Fara, Nana and Ijal at Midvalley today. So, as soon as I reached home, I quickly took a shower in mommy's bathroom since Nina's in the other bathroom. And if Nina's in, believe me, I'll have to wait another couple of hours to get myself clean. I took just about half an hour to get ready compared to my usual one hour. That's because I've chosen my outfit the night before. After getting ready, I called Zhr and he was already downstairs in the lobby at my house. So I went down, Mom and Dad sent us to Midvalley since taking the train will take such a long time to get to Midvalley. We met up with the others when we arrived. When I saw Fara, I hugged her and apologised about how I acted last night. We had a fight. I cried so hard because I felt like she was ditching me. Lucky Zhr's there for me last night. Thanks baby (: After meeting up with them, We split up and Zhr and I went to Sushi King to have our lunch. I was starvinggg ! After bloating up my stomach, we walked, up and down, round and round the mall. Haha then we decided to watch a movie. We watched Twilight. And I thought it was a scary movie. Turned out that its soooo not. Haha. But it was okay, kind of slow but interesting. Maybe because Zhr's beside me, thats what making it interesting ? Haha I meant, just the presence of him makes me happy :D After movie, around 6.40pm, we wandered around the mall again, hunting for a wallet and a shirt for Zhr. Unfortunately, nothing caught our eyes. When the clock hit 8, we went to the KTM station which we had trouble finding seeing how we both never went there with train. Actually, I have but I couldnt remember. But dont blame me, it was like, 2years ago, totally not my fault. Haha In the train, Zhr made jokes and mocked people around. I couldnt stop laughing ! Haha As we arrived in Subang Jaya, we went to Carrefour and I called mommy to fetch us and mommy said we're going straight to Ikea. We waited at Starbucks and ordered my favourite Choc Cream Chip. Yummmyy :) Mommy and Daddy arrived, we went to Ikea. My first time, Ikea with Mr Boyfieee :D Come to think of it, Midvalley was my first real date with Zhr ! :) Arrived at Ikea, Zhr and I went straight to check on the reastaurant in Ikea. But since it was 940, ofcourse its closed. We went down to where mommy and daddy were shopping for stuffs. Daddy suggested that we go to dinner later on. Went to William Restaurant, I dont know where, but the food were soooooooooooooo freakingly delicious ! I ate a plate of spaghetti cabonara, where the plate was bigger than my head :O So I shared with Zhr while Dad and Mom shared a plate of fried rice. We ate so much. I never eat as much as I did tonight for so long. All four of us mocked the people next to our table. Some uncle with really shiny bald head. Hahaha. At 11.40pm, we felt the tiny drops of rain so we got up and went back. Approximately at 12, we sent Zhr back home. I was sad to send him back, but hey, I spent the whole day with him today. And seeing as this is our first real date and it went oh soooo absolutely perfect, I've never been happier :D

Five days to go

Arts today was okay. I finished an hour early. From school, Mom said we're going to register for my driving school. Ate a bar of Snickers for lunch today. Oh, I am highly annoyed that Fara and Zhr are now done with SPM. Sighh its not fair. So anyway, Mom wanted to get her facial products at Body Shop so we went to Sunway Pyramid. Bought a birthday present for Aunty Sha. Ate Wendy's and when we were walking we bummed into Fara's dad. So we talked for quite awhile but Fara was not there. She was in Taipan. While talking with her dad, Zhr texted and said he's on the way to Pyramid. I was psyched ! When I saw Vino, I knew Zahir's with him. And let me tell you, I was so happy that I almost tripped on my wedges. Haha. Its been a month, of course I was excited. I missed him so much (: Mommy asked Zhr to take driving lessons with me too. I hope his daddy will agree :) While talking to Zhr and Vino, I saw Fara. And guess what, I shrieked like the mall was mine. Haha. Not that I havent seen Fara for ages. In fact, I just saw her that morning at school, so why was I being so excited ? I dont know. Haha. The fact that Zhr's there and Fara too. I was just happy to see both of my favourite ones. Seeing Zhr after a month sent a slight chill in my body. I couldn't stop smiling (: We talked about prom and Mom suggested we go search for dresses in a store nearby. Unfortunately, the store was horrible. Not a single decent nice dress to wear for prom. They were all with frills and like, flowers here and there. Fara had to get back, so Mom said we better head home too because it was already 7. After saying goodbye to Zhr and Fara, we went back. On the way back, in the car, Fara texted and asked where did I buy my blue tote. Because she wanted to buy a bag for her date tomorrow with Ijal. Awww :) Its her first time meeting him and I sure hope everything goes well. So I offered to lend her the bag and we made plans. She agreed to come by my house with her Mom to take the bag. She arrived around 8. And as usual we talked , talked and talked some more. Its nice to talk to her. Our moms were also busy talking-nonstop. Just like us. Thats what females do, I suppose. Lol. And now its 11, Fara just went back. I hope she'll have a good time with her Mr. So-Called Boyfriend tomorrow. Oh and Fara will be joining me for the driving school too. How great. We made plans for us after I finished my exams next week. And just thinking about it made me excited and eager.

I have Accounts tuition tomorrow morning at 830. I'm so lazy but thinking about how this would be my last tuition I have to attend in my life, I convinced myself to just go and study my ass off. Just for the sake of these last few days, right ? Five more days, five more days, five more days and I'M FINALLYYYY DONE WITH HIGH SCHOOL !

PS ; Pray for me for the last two papers, will you ? Thankyouverymuch

Busy day

I went out to buy baking stuffs with Mom after Aunty Sha fetched my brother and sister. I helped Mom baked chocolate moist cake. And let me tell you, its yumm-mayy ! :D I went swimming with the kids at 6pm. Its been a long time since the last I went swimming. It was relaxing. I hurt my wrist for playing volleyball in the pool. But it was fun. The kids cracked cute jokes especially Aiman (: As we went up, everyone was arguing about who gets the toilet first. And being a very nice sister, I ended up showering the last when the clock hits 8.30pm. I ate the char kuey teow Mom cooked and had my oh so yummy chocolate moist cake for dessert. Uhh, I have to stop eating like seriously. After I finished showering, Amirul arrived and I went into my room with Nina and Amirul's sister, Angah. We spent the whole time talking about our lives. It was great to have someone who can listen. I never heard from Fara for a long time. I miss her and I want to tell her everything. She's the only one that will understand but its nice to let it out to someone like Angah and Nina. They're such good listeners. Thank you, sweeties (: I cant wait to talk to Fara. I need her, pronto !

Amirul's brothers, Im and Aiman are sleeping over tonight. I tried to persuade Aunty Sha to let Angah sleepover too but she flatted out no. But she promised to bring Angah again tomorrow. Yeay ! :) Its just that its been a long time since all these things are bottled up inside me and I need someone who understands. So its nice to have her and Nina. Though of course I didn't spill EVERYTHING. I mean, there's only one person I can spill everything too and that's Fara. So I'll just have to wait for a few more days till I'm free and I will definitely tell her everything.

If all you peeps wouldn't have guessed, I didn't get my hand on any accounts or economics books today. Its Tuesday and I'm definitely not ready. Please please please, I need the mood to start study, now. Or I'll absolutely regret it when I get the result slip. So somebody, shove me a motivation and spirit to study because I'm really in need of those right now.

I'm a little tired, so I guess this is it. Good night

Rise and Shine ,

Morning all you peeps (: I just got back from Petronas near my house with Mom. Bought nasi lemak for breakfast today. And now waiting for Nina to finish showering so we all could eat breakfast together. Aunty Sha and her kids are coming later on to fetch Nina and Irfan. And they're all going to watch Madagascar. As for me, I volunteered to accompany Mom at home since Dad's not here(actually I didn't want to tag along because it'll be super awkward to go out with my ex-boyfriend's Mom, don't you think?). Zahir's now doing his second paper on Physics. I know he can do it (:

My elder brother is always out nowadays. He's not really close to us any more. And all his new friends? We don't even know them. If you ask me, I'd rather be friends with his former friends. They're a lot nicer. Oh well, its his life though. He comes back home like once a week now. And when he's home, I just don't feel like talking to him. I don't know why. He's like a whole different person. I hope we'll be okay like we used to be soon. Someday.

When Abang came back home the other day to kiss Dad goodbye for Beijing, he told me some Independent Film Director wants me to be in her show. She saw my photo in Abang's phone and asked if Im interested. The thing is, I don't think I can. They'll start shooting before my SPM ends. So I might just say goodbye to whatever dreams I'm having. And anyway, I don't want to be busy after my SPM. I want to spend my time with my boyfriend and friends :D

Mommy's calling for breakfast. Gotta jet ! Toodles

Finally ,

Its been ages ! I was unable to blog since I can't online due to my big exam, SPM. I have another 2 and a half papers to go and I'll be free ! But despite the 2 and a half papers, I still have to wait 8 days to kiss my highschool books goodbye. Sighhh. Alot happened, of course. But not before SPM though because all I did was study my ass off for my History the first and second day. The first paper of my History was nothing like I imagined. It was tough. And so far I've had massive stress-ness over my Additional Mathematics paper only. Pheew, thank god huh ? I just hope all my hard work will pay off. I even managed to find a last minute private tutor for my Add Maths 3 days before the paper. English on the other hand, I enjoyed writing the essay as I'm really into writing. I wrote both my essays about my best friend, Fara :D She went all aww-you're-so-sweet on me when I told her about it. Haha.

Forget the exams. The reason I can blog now is that my daddy's not home. And that I have more than a week holidays till my second last paper. I can barely wait ! During my so-called holidays, I went to Ikea with Mom and like usual, as soon as I saw the restaurant in Ikea I forgot all my self promises the night before and started to stuff my face with foods. I cant help it if they serve nice and decent food there, right ? (: I ate a fish burger and fries, 'helped' Mom finish her mashed potato and veggies and for dessert, my favourite of all time, Daim cake. Yummmmmyy, I must say. After all, thats the only thing I MUST eat every time I go to Ikea. Even if I'm not hungry. yes :D After I finished off my last bit of oh so delicious cake, I continue stuffing the carrots on mommy's plate. Its a good think I turned pescetarian, you know. Because if I didnt, I will surely eat the chicken pie Mom was having too. Haha. I had to pack my cinnamon roll in a paper bag since my stomach was like ready to burst. When I was on the way back home, the whole Usj was flooded. Mom was so scared and started talking like we were going to drown right then and there. Haha. I tried to crack stupid jokes and Mom was like 'Im too scared to laugh right now' but she laughed anyway. Lol. We were relief when we arrived home safely.

Now back to studies, I've been lazing around on the couch every single day without studying for my remaining papers. Account and Economics are really important, I know. But everyday when I woke up I will promise myself that I will study but then I'll just watch tv and sleep the whole day. And now I'm starting to panic ! Ironically, Im panicking but I have no intention to study at all. Gahhh, somebody shoot me in the head, for gods sake.

Last night I was famishing for food. The whole family and I went to send daddy off to KLIA. And hearing Mom said 'no, we're going straight back home after sending your daddy' after my little brother, Irfan asked her 'are we going to eat out later ?' was the most disappointing moment in my life ! Okay maybe I'm exaggerating a little but like, I didn't eat since noon and it was midnight. How could I not be hungry ? But then Mom felt sorry for her children and took us to a 24hours mamak restaurant in usj17. I ate a little and started feeling sick. So I stopped eating. When I got home Mom invited Nina and I to sleep in her room since Dad's in Beijing. I woke up this morning with sore on my whole body. That is what I get from sleeping next to Nina. Haha.

I had a talk with Mom this evening about my future. I told her Im confuse and that I'm afraid that I will choose the wrong path when Im in college. Mom said not to worry and hearing her explanation about college life send a slight chill in my body. Mom also said that maybe this week we'll go register for my driving test. Finally. Oh well, I cant stop thinking about my life after SPM. Im thinking about getting a part time job anywhere. Yeah, anywhere BUT a restaurant or any stores that has anything to do food. I've had enough of sore body parts every night from my job at Baskin Robbins last year. So yeah, Im thinking more of a clothing store or maybe MPH or something. As long as the pay's good, then Im all for it :D

Wow, this is an awfully long post. Need to eat my dinner. Till then (: