Reality overcomes me ,

So, wherever I go, doesnt matter work or anywhere with people I know, the first thing they will say is these several annoying words : How much did you get for your SPM ? Yes, every time people ask me this question, I'll hesitate, hoping they will forget about it miraculously or something. But hey, not everybody has short term memory lost. Lets start from the night before my results came out. I had full shift and was so nervous that I couldnt concentrate on anything. Magically, the night passed by like a flash, not realising it was already closing time. I was happy to go home but felt nauseous when I thought about the next day. Less than 24hours. Shockingly, I managed to get some beautiful sleep. But I woke up two hours earlier than my alarm clock. I wanted to go back to sleep but failed as I started to think about the results. I dragged myself to shower and forced my head to push out all the negative thoughts I had in my head about how if I fail miserably ? What about my future ? At around 9 am, I was ready and waited for Zhr to pick me up. Showing off to daddy that I wasnt feeling nervous, which I really was feeling, more than nervous even, I kissed him goodbye and Zhr drove me to Vino's to wait for the others to go for breakfast. After shivering for like 15minutes, Zhr drove me to Delima, met up with his friends, had breakfast which didn't make any difference really, because my stomach kept lurching before and even after I ate. I couldn't wait to get to school so I convinced Zhr to go to my school before we go to his . After hugging my girlfriends whom I've missed like a whole freaking lot, especially Syida, we sat at foyer and we were all singing and dancing like mad. As if the dancing and singing will wash off the nervous-ness on our bodies. Right. So when the teachers came with papers in hands, we were all screaming. Well, except for me. I was so nervous that I thought I've lost my voice for like 10 whole minutes. I was standing in front of my class teacher, waiting eagerly but didn't want to know my results at the same time. My heart was pounding like it might just fall any time. When my results was in my hands, I quickly checked how many A's were there and at first I found 4 but when I double checked, there were 5. At that particular moment, I just wished the ground will just swallow me whole because I expected 6As minimum. I escaped all the hectic around me and sat at one corner alone and called my parents to tell them the embarrassing news. They took it very well and even if they were disappointed, they didn't show it. I was disappointed in myself :(

My first year anniversary will be coming soon and I can barely wait ! Im going out with Zhr tomorrow but I'm not telling you where. Because its a suprise. Not for you, but for Zhr but I'm not telling it here because I know Zhr will read this and will know my plan when he does. So lets just keep it in the bottle for just a little while, shall we ? I just hope he likes my surprise :)