One year with you ,

HAPPY FIRST YEAR ANNIVERSARY, BABYCAKES ! Complete 12months with you. I just cant describe how I feel. My first one year relationship. Honestly, I'm really glad that its you, Zahir Fikri. I would never want any other guy to be part of my life. I'm happy with you! (:

Since Im on full shift today, on my anniversary, I had no choice but to celebrate the day before, which is yesterday. Remember I told you about the surprise I planned for Zhr ? Yeah. Zhr fetched me up at around 12 something. I wore my new Topshop dress. And he was wearing his striped shirt with his grey pants and thank God he brought along his shoes. I bought a cake for him the night before, so I brought it along. Since Zhr didnt know where we were going, I showed him where to go. He was KIND OF surprised when I asked him to pull over in Sheraton Hotel's parking lot. I've reserved a lunch for two at Sheraton. As soon as we were escorted to our seats, I found out that Zhr knew about the surprise. And guess whose big mouth told him ? Mommy. Yes, great. But thank God, he didnt know where the place is, he just knew I was bringing him to lunch. Of course I went all emo and mellow when he knew about the surprise. I almost cried, you know ! -___- So anyway, after bloating ourselves, we went back to my place to keep the melting tiramisu I bought him. After I change from the dress to a pair of mini's and a blue green blouse, we went to Cineleisure. I've been dreaming to go there with my boyfriend since right after SPM. Finally. We watched Marley and Me, which something embarrassing happened. Fyi, I cried during the last bit. Okay okay, I know you guys are wondering, why is this girl so emo ? Hold that thought because me myself have no idea why. I dont know whether its because I was PMS-ing or that movie really was sad. Nonetheless, I just found that the ending part was really touchy and sad. Seriously. Obviously, Zhr teased me because of the tiny bits of tears running down my face. Haha. Seeing how close I was with Ikea, I couldnt help myself but to get my hands on Ikea's Daim Almondy Cake. Yummmy ! We ate at Ikea and drove back to Taipan to buy Zhr's family their dinner at McDonalds. He sent me home after that. After I showered, I accidentally dozed off on the living room's floor. I got up and wanted to wait till 12am, to wish Zhr but failed, twice. I was awoke by Zoey Dechannel's sweet voice, I picked up the phone when I saw Zhr's ID on the screen. And guess what ? He told me he was downstairs. I was pretty surprised when I got into the car to find a Secret Recipe's cake on the front seat. When I was about to go back up, he gave me back my OC dvds he borrowed and there was this red card inside the paperbag. I KIND OF shrieked when I saw it. A card. It may sound that its nothing, but to me, it means the world to me as not every guy can waste their time making a card for their girlfriends. And the card was so sweet, I read it thrice and I cried all three times. He's so sweet, my boyfriend (:

So thanks for the most magical day of my life. Happy one year again ! I love you with all my heart, sweetie (:

My gosh, I really need to sleep. Nighty night :D

Reality overcomes me ,

So, wherever I go, doesnt matter work or anywhere with people I know, the first thing they will say is these several annoying words : How much did you get for your SPM ? Yes, every time people ask me this question, I'll hesitate, hoping they will forget about it miraculously or something. But hey, not everybody has short term memory lost. Lets start from the night before my results came out. I had full shift and was so nervous that I couldnt concentrate on anything. Magically, the night passed by like a flash, not realising it was already closing time. I was happy to go home but felt nauseous when I thought about the next day. Less than 24hours. Shockingly, I managed to get some beautiful sleep. But I woke up two hours earlier than my alarm clock. I wanted to go back to sleep but failed as I started to think about the results. I dragged myself to shower and forced my head to push out all the negative thoughts I had in my head about how if I fail miserably ? What about my future ? At around 9 am, I was ready and waited for Zhr to pick me up. Showing off to daddy that I wasnt feeling nervous, which I really was feeling, more than nervous even, I kissed him goodbye and Zhr drove me to Vino's to wait for the others to go for breakfast. After shivering for like 15minutes, Zhr drove me to Delima, met up with his friends, had breakfast which didn't make any difference really, because my stomach kept lurching before and even after I ate. I couldn't wait to get to school so I convinced Zhr to go to my school before we go to his . After hugging my girlfriends whom I've missed like a whole freaking lot, especially Syida, we sat at foyer and we were all singing and dancing like mad. As if the dancing and singing will wash off the nervous-ness on our bodies. Right. So when the teachers came with papers in hands, we were all screaming. Well, except for me. I was so nervous that I thought I've lost my voice for like 10 whole minutes. I was standing in front of my class teacher, waiting eagerly but didn't want to know my results at the same time. My heart was pounding like it might just fall any time. When my results was in my hands, I quickly checked how many A's were there and at first I found 4 but when I double checked, there were 5. At that particular moment, I just wished the ground will just swallow me whole because I expected 6As minimum. I escaped all the hectic around me and sat at one corner alone and called my parents to tell them the embarrassing news. They took it very well and even if they were disappointed, they didn't show it. I was disappointed in myself :(

My first year anniversary will be coming soon and I can barely wait ! Im going out with Zhr tomorrow but I'm not telling you where. Because its a suprise. Not for you, but for Zhr but I'm not telling it here because I know Zhr will read this and will know my plan when he does. So lets just keep it in the bottle for just a little while, shall we ? I just hope he likes my surprise :)

You know better ,

Woke up at 8.45 am by the knock on my room's door. I reluctantly opened up the door to see daddy, all dressed up in his working attire of shirt and slacks. He wanted to kiss me goodbye, so after kissing him, I went straight to my bed and as I was about to fall asleep, I was having panic attack when I realise that its almost 9am and Im still in bed. I woke up and rushed here and there to get ready for work. After a couple of minutes, I relaxed a little, and secretly cursed myself for being so stupid. Its Tuesday, my off day. I fell back asleep seeing how tired I was from yesterday. I woke up at 9 something and washed my blue sneakers and black flats. After placing them under the hot sun at the balcony, vacuumed my room, took out the garbage. After sweating, I showered and had breakfast in my towel wrapped around me. Believe it or not, instead of my usual couple of toast, I ate four instead. Two with peanut butter and two with eggs. Gosh.

So anyway, my driving instructor, Desmond decided to move up my class from 1230 to 1130. I was rushing because he told me at the very last minute. I settled on my black sweatpants, my green MNG basics, a sweater and my checkered flats. I wore my hair up tight up in a messy bun and I clipped my bangs back. When Desmond called and said he's already downstairs, I realised that there was no keys in the house, how am I gonna go out ? I tried finding the keys everywhere in the house, despite Desmond waiting downstairs. But yes, at times like this, of course I didnt found the keys. And of course, at times like this I have no credits to call my parents. Cool huh ? NOT. I started to feel grumpy. Fortunately, Nina have credits, and tried calling mommy. Mommy picked up and Nina being her slow self, talked to mommy so slow and not to mention, annoying when Im in a rush. So I took the phone off her hand and talked to mommy myself instead. Yes, turned out my house key was with mommy and so did her keys. So I have no keys to get the hell out. I begged mommy to call Desmond for me and asked him to wait as I didnt have the key. So mommy called him and rushed back. After waiting for 15minutes, mommy arrived with the keys and apologised. I didnt mind, its just that I was scared what will Desmond say ? Luckily he was so cool about it and told me that Im his third student who didnt have the keys to get out of the house. Lol. I thought we're gonna be okay but turned out that I was absolutely wrong. Everything went wrong with my driving. I dont know what happened to me but clearly I wasnt in the mood for driving because I really sucked just now. I felt like crying when Desmond shouted at me. He never shouts at me. Sighh. So I have to book another class because I screwed up today. I came back home, finding mommy and Ipan havent arrived. Seeing how much amout of sweat I produced whille I was driving because of the freaking hot weather, I got rid of my clothes and changed into my super short shorts and spaghetti strap. Wow, I cant even say how comfortable I felt at that moment. Lol. I ate the snickers I bought earlier while reading my book. Zhr came later on. We ate at the bistro downstairs. I ordered a tuna sandwich platter with fries and honey dew with milk. Yummy :) After eating the sandwiches I shared with Zhr, we decided that we were still hungry. So Zhr ordered a fried rice which I ate with him too. Then Ipan came and ordered a fried maggi. After waiting for Ipan to finished up his maggi, we went down to the convinient shop to get some ice creams.

Im hungry. Gonna grab couple of toast, watch OC-AGAIN and go to bed when Im knackered. Cheers !

PS ; I LOVE YOU MOHD ZAHIR FIKRI BIN MOHD AZMI!!

Unlucky perhaps ?

Do you know how it feels like when you're barely half an hour late for work but when you're late, the person in charge or the floor executive to be exact, comes to the store out of nowhere just to check ? Yeap that was how I felt this morning. Yes I've been late to work a few times but not as late as today. I figured that its no biggie that Im late today, not everyday. So I took my own sweet time, asked daddy to stop for breakfast and stuffs. At 9.45am, Apeng called. I picked up the phone calmly, knowing there's nothing to be scared of. But when Apeng's voice sounded so urgent saying or ordering, you can say, me to be faster, I knew something is happening. And yes, Eileen, the floor Exec chose this day, the day I thought its okay to be late, to come and check the store. Wow, nice timing. I cursed silently but then I rushed and yes, she scolded me when I arrived. I know that is was really my fault for coming late, so I said sorry and I lied that I took the bus so I had to wait for the bus and stuffs when really, actually I was enjoying my breakfast. But she doesnt have to know that, does she ? Lol. So anyway, I sweat like a pig the first couple hours. I did the house keeping for the whole store alone. Swept the floor, cleaned the massive and tall glass windows and mirrors, scan the price tag for every single merchandise, cleaned the store room, took out the rubbish. I dont mind doing all the works, really because its fun instead of doing nothing like we always do. But Eileen followed me and kept lecturing me when I was doing those works. I couldnt stand her but I didnt say that to her face, obvie, though I really wanted to. But I didnt have the guts to. So anyway I had full shift and I couldn't be more tired that I am right now.

I cant wait for my salary to be banked in. I've listed what I want to buy with that money. Lol ;p

I think its my queue to go now when my eyes are half closed. So gonna hit the sacks now. Night