Now that I have submitted all my assignments and my 3 weeks holidays have arrive, I shall focus more on my books as my finals are coming up right after the holidays. Let's see if I can keep up with the books through out the holidays. LET'S SEE.
I have news! For first, I'll be going to Beijing! My family and I are going on November 12th and will be there till the 17th. I can't wait to stroll on Beijing's roads and buy everything on my sight. China might not be my favorite country in the world, but I heard they sell very cheap but pretty stuffs. Daddy has been on our noses since last week to bring out our winter coats and boots to prepare as the temperature there has been in the negatives. The second is Mommy and Daddy have been giving me the green light to go for a holiday with my friends to Bangkok. Wow, seeing how my parents never let me go on trips with my friends even to the nearest beach or whatever, it's unbelievable that they gave me the thumbs up to fly to Bangkok without their supervisions. They said that after going there last weekend, they realised that it's safe there in Bangkok. However, I'm not sure whether to take up on their generous offer. Another shocking news, they also gave me the nod when I asked them if I could fly to Kelantan for a holiday with the girls. I know, what has gotten into them right? Lol. They said it's good that I make friends with people from outside KL as the reason we planned for Kelantan is that Miejah's hometown is in Kelantan and she invited us all to visit after our finals in December. As of now, Daddy is finding the reasonable prices for the tickets. I hope this plan won't go down the drain as I have imagine how fun it will be if we really go on with this plan.
If you haven't heard, I've been sick for almost a week. I have a fever and this terrible headache. Not to mention, I have a couple of things grew on the left side of my neck. Before you could go all eww on me, it's nothing serious according to the doctor. I went to two doctors and mind you, the things are normal when a virus attacks your body. So I have been sleeping a lot these days as I can't keep up with this massive headache. The worst part is, I have to swallow 6 pills every 6 to 8 hours. Can it get any worse?
Wednesday, 27 October 2010
Sunday, 17 October 2010
It's our day ! ♥
Today marks the 31st month of our relationship. I think I have told our pasts a lot of times before. How we met, how we fell in love and how we got back together after the long years. So this time, I'm not going to gush about our pasts but I'm going to tell you how I feel about they guy I love instead. It's hard to actually put things in words as I'm not really the kind of person who's good at expressing my feelings but I guess I'll try my best to arrange the words properly for the sake of our 2 years and 7 months anniversary.
Sending texts and making calls on this special day are too common, dull and perhaps, I might say, boring. You, Zahir Fikri, sure knows that I don't like typical stuffs so what I'm doing now is to make this special. I know we haven't got to our 3rd year yet but it's not wrong to make every anniversary special. Though everyday, every hour, every minute, every second and every mili-second that I spent with you feel special, I want to make this day more special, if that's even possible. I'm going to be completely honest with you, so that you'll know how sincere my feelings are to you.
Frankly speaking, I have no faith whatsoever in us the moment you asked me to be yours. No, there wasn't any faith in me either when I accepted you. All I know was that we were young and there's no harm to get involve in this affair of high school loves. I was never serious with my previous relationships except for one. So I have no intention to be serious in ours at first because I know, high school loves don't last long. Not for me. I totally lost interest of being serious in a relationship after that huge heart break I faced in 2006. After a month together, I started to look at you in a different way. It wasn't just because of I changed my mind, but it was also because I noticed you changed too. You changed to this guy that I slowly love sincerely. I have always loved a guy who doesn't socialise too much and has one bestfriend instead of a group of friends. You were the opposite of my definition of dream guy but you slowly turned into that guy. I guess that was when the sparks really grew. I started to care a lot more than before and I started to get jealous over the smallest things. That moment, I knew. I could feel it. My feelings changed into love and it grows more each day. It still is growing now even after years together.
After a while, I have absolutely no doubts about us being soul mates and true loves. We have faced a lot of difficult phases together and it still amazes me of how strong we are to survive until now. We've been through the hardest situations but we still stick to each other and solve it together without being apart. Despite everything, we are here now. Still going strong. How can I not feel we are destined to be together? After all this while, you're still mine and I'm still yours. I know for the fact that we were made specially for each other. I sometimes dream of my perfect wedding and no dreams have ever left you out from the picture. You are like the compulsory element every time I dream of my future wedding. That's why I know we will marry each other one day and we'll have beautiful babies together. I just know it.
After all this time, my palms still get sweaty every time you hold my hand. I still have the butterflies in my stomach when ever I wait for your arrival. I still worry about how I look every time we're going out. I still care whether to put my hair up or down so you'll like it. I still hope for you to say I'm pretty every time we meet. I still want you to laugh at my jokes even if they're stupid. I still miss you even if you just sent me home a while ago. I still wait for your texts every second. I still look at my phone every second, holding it all the time when we argue so I won't miss any calls or texts from you. I still look at your photos and videos every chance I got. You're still on top of my heart even if I threw mean words at you. You're still the one I think of when I read love novels. You're still the one that appears on my mind when I watch Dear John or Notebook. Your name is still the one I scribble down on my notebook when I got bored in class. Your Facebook profile is still the first I see when I log in. Your face is still the one I think of the last before going to bed and the first when I woke up. You're still the one I go to everytime I'm upset with something. There are a lot more I can list down but I don't think this space is enough. The thing is, you have always been the one for me. Always have and always will. So after these 31 months I've gone through with you, you're still the one that I love no matter what happened, no matter how terrible we argue and no matter how awfully pissed off I am at you. It will always be you that's in my heart. I know we can't get a tattoo but you are my tattoo because I know you are permanent in my heart.
HAPPY 2 YEARS AND 7 MONTHS, BABYCAKES.
Always and forever yours ♥
Sending texts and making calls on this special day are too common, dull and perhaps, I might say, boring. You, Zahir Fikri, sure knows that I don't like typical stuffs so what I'm doing now is to make this special. I know we haven't got to our 3rd year yet but it's not wrong to make every anniversary special. Though everyday, every hour, every minute, every second and every mili-second that I spent with you feel special, I want to make this day more special, if that's even possible. I'm going to be completely honest with you, so that you'll know how sincere my feelings are to you.
Frankly speaking, I have no faith whatsoever in us the moment you asked me to be yours. No, there wasn't any faith in me either when I accepted you. All I know was that we were young and there's no harm to get involve in this affair of high school loves. I was never serious with my previous relationships except for one. So I have no intention to be serious in ours at first because I know, high school loves don't last long. Not for me. I totally lost interest of being serious in a relationship after that huge heart break I faced in 2006. After a month together, I started to look at you in a different way. It wasn't just because of I changed my mind, but it was also because I noticed you changed too. You changed to this guy that I slowly love sincerely. I have always loved a guy who doesn't socialise too much and has one bestfriend instead of a group of friends. You were the opposite of my definition of dream guy but you slowly turned into that guy. I guess that was when the sparks really grew. I started to care a lot more than before and I started to get jealous over the smallest things. That moment, I knew. I could feel it. My feelings changed into love and it grows more each day. It still is growing now even after years together.
After a while, I have absolutely no doubts about us being soul mates and true loves. We have faced a lot of difficult phases together and it still amazes me of how strong we are to survive until now. We've been through the hardest situations but we still stick to each other and solve it together without being apart. Despite everything, we are here now. Still going strong. How can I not feel we are destined to be together? After all this while, you're still mine and I'm still yours. I know for the fact that we were made specially for each other. I sometimes dream of my perfect wedding and no dreams have ever left you out from the picture. You are like the compulsory element every time I dream of my future wedding. That's why I know we will marry each other one day and we'll have beautiful babies together. I just know it.
After all this time, my palms still get sweaty every time you hold my hand. I still have the butterflies in my stomach when ever I wait for your arrival. I still worry about how I look every time we're going out. I still care whether to put my hair up or down so you'll like it. I still hope for you to say I'm pretty every time we meet. I still want you to laugh at my jokes even if they're stupid. I still miss you even if you just sent me home a while ago. I still wait for your texts every second. I still look at my phone every second, holding it all the time when we argue so I won't miss any calls or texts from you. I still look at your photos and videos every chance I got. You're still on top of my heart even if I threw mean words at you. You're still the one I think of when I read love novels. You're still the one that appears on my mind when I watch Dear John or Notebook. Your name is still the one I scribble down on my notebook when I got bored in class. Your Facebook profile is still the first I see when I log in. Your face is still the one I think of the last before going to bed and the first when I woke up. You're still the one I go to everytime I'm upset with something. There are a lot more I can list down but I don't think this space is enough. The thing is, you have always been the one for me. Always have and always will. So after these 31 months I've gone through with you, you're still the one that I love no matter what happened, no matter how terrible we argue and no matter how awfully pissed off I am at you. It will always be you that's in my heart. I know we can't get a tattoo but you are my tattoo because I know you are permanent in my heart.
HAPPY 2 YEARS AND 7 MONTHS, BABYCAKES.
Always and forever yours ♥
Updates!
Arranged a meet up with Min Yi, the blogshop's owner on Friday after lunch. The shoes are PERFECT. There's nothing I could say any more than perfect. I absolutely love it :)
I know I haven't been loyal to my blog these past couple of months and I plead guilty. I swear, it's not that I'm lazy to update or anything but I am now busy with assignments as the date lines are just around the corner. I know if anyone were to blame, it's me. I admit that I always delay my work when I can actually start doing them earlier. Again, I don't blame it all on my laziness of doing assignments but there were several nights that I felt like blogging but I have absolutely no idea why my Internet sucks at night. Okay, maybe it sucks during the day too but not as much during the night. I have been active in my Facebook and Tumblr BUT, before you can accuse me on neglecting my Blogspot for Tumblr and Facebook, you're wrong. The only reason I'm active in those two is that I always online in my classes using my iPod Touch whenever the class gets a little boring. I tried to update something in Blogspot from my iPod but I couldn't as the words are too long. So, it wasn't really my fault, is it?
This weekend is by far the most productive weekend I've experienced in 2010. Sad but true. I spent the whole day yesterday, yes, from morning till midnight finishing my Accounts assignments and tutorials. I had no problems answering the first two questions but when I came to the next questions, I was like, 'say what?' I have no memories whatsoever of learning that topic. I was about to give up but I kept trying. Mind you, I have completed my Accounts assignment which is such a relief. It wasn't easy to make a 'T' account using your laptop for the first time. I was all happy and cherry when the amounts of my Assets and Equity for the last question balance with each other. Zahir hung out at my place and accompany me while he studied for his finals next week. Actually, he mentioned studying but I didn't see him study at all. He just played PS3 with my little brother and Izer. Anyways, it was so funny when he looked at me whenever I was so stressed out doing the questions. Har. He went back at almost 2 in the morning and I happily tucked myself in bed. Glad that one assignment's done and over with.
I woke up this morning much earlier than I thought. I always wake up later than 9 if I slept past midnight the night before. Not this morning though. I woke up at around 8 when I slept at 3 something. I was amazed myself. Maybe I was so eager to get started with other assignments? Har, as if. I called Zahir to say good morning like usual and showered. The best part was, I started on my assignment before I had breakfast. It was so unbelievable because I NEVER do anything before my breakfast except showering. I started to make researches on Economics and I spent the whole day in front of Microsoft Office today. I finished only the first part of the assignment as it's kind of hard with all the curves and tables and examples to give. I guess that's enough of Economics today. I think my eyes will pop out of its sockets anytime soon after reading lengthy explanations of Marginal Cost and Profit.
I know I haven't been loyal to my blog these past couple of months and I plead guilty. I swear, it's not that I'm lazy to update or anything but I am now busy with assignments as the date lines are just around the corner. I know if anyone were to blame, it's me. I admit that I always delay my work when I can actually start doing them earlier. Again, I don't blame it all on my laziness of doing assignments but there were several nights that I felt like blogging but I have absolutely no idea why my Internet sucks at night. Okay, maybe it sucks during the day too but not as much during the night. I have been active in my Facebook and Tumblr BUT, before you can accuse me on neglecting my Blogspot for Tumblr and Facebook, you're wrong. The only reason I'm active in those two is that I always online in my classes using my iPod Touch whenever the class gets a little boring. I tried to update something in Blogspot from my iPod but I couldn't as the words are too long. So, it wasn't really my fault, is it?
This weekend is by far the most productive weekend I've experienced in 2010. Sad but true. I spent the whole day yesterday, yes, from morning till midnight finishing my Accounts assignments and tutorials. I had no problems answering the first two questions but when I came to the next questions, I was like, 'say what?' I have no memories whatsoever of learning that topic. I was about to give up but I kept trying. Mind you, I have completed my Accounts assignment which is such a relief. It wasn't easy to make a 'T' account using your laptop for the first time. I was all happy and cherry when the amounts of my Assets and Equity for the last question balance with each other. Zahir hung out at my place and accompany me while he studied for his finals next week. Actually, he mentioned studying but I didn't see him study at all. He just played PS3 with my little brother and Izer. Anyways, it was so funny when he looked at me whenever I was so stressed out doing the questions. Har. He went back at almost 2 in the morning and I happily tucked myself in bed. Glad that one assignment's done and over with.
I woke up this morning much earlier than I thought. I always wake up later than 9 if I slept past midnight the night before. Not this morning though. I woke up at around 8 when I slept at 3 something. I was amazed myself. Maybe I was so eager to get started with other assignments? Har, as if. I called Zahir to say good morning like usual and showered. The best part was, I started on my assignment before I had breakfast. It was so unbelievable because I NEVER do anything before my breakfast except showering. I started to make researches on Economics and I spent the whole day in front of Microsoft Office today. I finished only the first part of the assignment as it's kind of hard with all the curves and tables and examples to give. I guess that's enough of Economics today. I think my eyes will pop out of its sockets anytime soon after reading lengthy explanations of Marginal Cost and Profit.
Monday, 11 October 2010
We'll never ever be apart
Surprisingly this week's Monday wasn't that bad. I don't know why I was all happy to kick start my day this morning. Zahir sent me to college and fetched me up at 1700. We had dinner at Carl's Jr and I couldn't be more full. Oh btw, so far I'm happy with all my carried marks. SO FAR :)
I went to Topshop's students lock up last Friday with Fara. We had fun but unfortunately I didn't get myself anything other than the goodie bag as we were the first 100 at the door :( We queued up since 1400 and the door opened at 1500 sharp. I tried on several items but none fit me well and when I looked at this black suede flats, I fell in love. I tried it on and obviously, they love me too. I called Daddy to ask if it's okay if I use the credit card. At first, he was all okay with it but then he had to give Mom the phone. Of course, Mommy was all no, you have a gazillion shoes at home and all. I nearly cried, I swear! I was furious at the same time so I ended up not buying anything. Boo :( It was such a waste as all the discounts were crazy! Luckily Fara was with me, so I calmed down a little after a while. I had the greatest time with her. We had dinner at Chilli's, as per usual. Har. Chilli's has been a must with Fara nowadays. Definitely can't resist their Honey Chicken. Nomnomnom.
I have a plan with my siblings tomorrow. An outing as Nina just finished her big exams today. I'm going to tuck myself in bed now as I'm so tired of walking around looking for my iPod Touch's cover. It's so hard to find a nice one, sigh. Nights!
I went to Topshop's students lock up last Friday with Fara. We had fun but unfortunately I didn't get myself anything other than the goodie bag as we were the first 100 at the door :( We queued up since 1400 and the door opened at 1500 sharp. I tried on several items but none fit me well and when I looked at this black suede flats, I fell in love. I tried it on and obviously, they love me too. I called Daddy to ask if it's okay if I use the credit card. At first, he was all okay with it but then he had to give Mom the phone. Of course, Mommy was all no, you have a gazillion shoes at home and all. I nearly cried, I swear! I was furious at the same time so I ended up not buying anything. Boo :( It was such a waste as all the discounts were crazy! Luckily Fara was with me, so I calmed down a little after a while. I had the greatest time with her. We had dinner at Chilli's, as per usual. Har. Chilli's has been a must with Fara nowadays. Definitely can't resist their Honey Chicken. Nomnomnom.
I have a plan with my siblings tomorrow. An outing as Nina just finished her big exams today. I'm going to tuck myself in bed now as I'm so tired of walking around looking for my iPod Touch's cover. It's so hard to find a nice one, sigh. Nights!
Thursday, 30 September 2010
I can almost see it
Last night was the greatest girls night I had so far in 2010. Reena, Miejah, Noor, Wawa and Ziha came to my place for our planned sleepover. I won't type everything in detail on what we did or what we talked about because then this post will sure be a one long ass post. Not like I have an intention or the energy to do that. We cam-whored like a bunch of crazy girls and after so long of not jumping into the pool, I finally did with the girls last night. Oh, know what was the best part? All 5 of us(excluding Wawa) showered together in the tiny bathroom. Told you we're crazy. Har.
We overslept, as predicted, so we decided to go to McDonald's in Taipan for breakfast instead of rushing to class. Mom and Dad knew that'll happen since last night, so they don't mind of me skipping. We ate while watching Love Me If You Dare, a French movie, at McDonald's. I had to send them back before the movie could finish as I was suppose to go to SKSS to join their Eid's event by lunch. It was great having girlfriends around again. Speaking of girlfriends, I miss Fara and Ika :(
We overslept, as predicted, so we decided to go to McDonald's in Taipan for breakfast instead of rushing to class. Mom and Dad knew that'll happen since last night, so they don't mind of me skipping. We ate while watching Love Me If You Dare, a French movie, at McDonald's. I had to send them back before the movie could finish as I was suppose to go to SKSS to join their Eid's event by lunch. It was great having girlfriends around again. Speaking of girlfriends, I miss Fara and Ika :(
Sunday, 19 September 2010
Wednesday, 15 September 2010
Farewell
I hadn't cry that hard for so long. I had the feeling I would maybe shed a few tears but a gazillion? Plus I was sobbing like a cow. Just couldn't control it. When my brother hugged me for the last time at the airport, I buried my face on his shoulder and whispered 'I'm sorry for everything' while I sobbed. And sobbed and sobbed and sobbed. I wiped away the tears but they wouldn't stop. That was when I realised, wow I had disrespect and been rude to him all this while and I'm only realising this now? That's why people always say 'it takes loosing someone to appreciate someone'. I know I took him for granted and I regret it. I can't do anything to change the past but just now, all I could do was apologise and pray for his journey to be a safe one. It was hard seeing him leave. Almost everyone shed their tears, Mommy the most, obviously. I could see Daddy was about to cry but I guess he held it back. We missed him as soon as he boarded the plane.
After sending my brother, my family and my aunt's(+ Zhr) made plans. Supposedly to Nilai for Nasi Kandar but it was closed when we got there. So Daddy brought us all to Banting for Tom Yam. I didn't eat as I bought McDonald's earlier to eat in the car. Awish was with us and he was being so cute, like usual. I had to restrain myself from pinching his cheeks. After eating, my family and Zhr went to my cousin, Kak Eka's, house in Sepang while Awish's family went back to KL. While we were there at Kak Eka's place, my brother text me saying he just arrived in Taiwan for the transit. We text a few more texts and he had to go as the plane was boarding. Since we bid our farewell at the airport, I've been thinking about him nonstop. How we used to ride bicycles together every evening. How we used to share the laptop to online. How we used to share our toys. How he used to company me everywhere I go. How we were involve in each other's life so much that people envy our bond. I miss all that and I guess I just miss him already.
Spending the whole day with Zhr after a week of distance was amazing. Though we didn't do much, just follow around the family, I had fun. I don't know about him but I certainly love today. I just love when he's involve in my family gathering or outings. In a way, I feel closer to him. I was thinking too much today and realised that I will be with him for the rest of my life. Guaranteed. Why would I want to be with anyone else when the one in front of me is perfect? Speaking of Zhr, I'm going to tuck myself in bed now. He's going to call for our midnight talk. Sleep tight sweeties!
After sending my brother, my family and my aunt's(+ Zhr) made plans. Supposedly to Nilai for Nasi Kandar but it was closed when we got there. So Daddy brought us all to Banting for Tom Yam. I didn't eat as I bought McDonald's earlier to eat in the car. Awish was with us and he was being so cute, like usual. I had to restrain myself from pinching his cheeks. After eating, my family and Zhr went to my cousin, Kak Eka's, house in Sepang while Awish's family went back to KL. While we were there at Kak Eka's place, my brother text me saying he just arrived in Taiwan for the transit. We text a few more texts and he had to go as the plane was boarding. Since we bid our farewell at the airport, I've been thinking about him nonstop. How we used to ride bicycles together every evening. How we used to share the laptop to online. How we used to share our toys. How he used to company me everywhere I go. How we were involve in each other's life so much that people envy our bond. I miss all that and I guess I just miss him already.
Spending the whole day with Zhr after a week of distance was amazing. Though we didn't do much, just follow around the family, I had fun. I don't know about him but I certainly love today. I just love when he's involve in my family gathering or outings. In a way, I feel closer to him. I was thinking too much today and realised that I will be with him for the rest of my life. Guaranteed. Why would I want to be with anyone else when the one in front of me is perfect? Speaking of Zhr, I'm going to tuck myself in bed now. He's going to call for our midnight talk. Sleep tight sweeties!
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