Thump, goes my heart

As of today, January 1st 2009, the first day of the year 2009, obviously. As all my friends were out watching the fireworks with their friends and loved ones, I was stucked at home, with a headache, sore throat and a fever. I couldn't even bring myself on my feet. So, I was lying down on the couch as I didn't have any other option, I was alone in my house, Ipan and Nina had gone off to watch the fire works on the rooftop with their friends. Abang went to celebrate with his friends after work. And my parents went to the rooftop too. So i was lying down texting my boyfriend and feeling like, gosh, I have no life. But whatever. Zhr was out with his family and cousins. Fara was at The Curve with her boyfriend. Wow, Im such a loner. As the clock strikes 12am, I heard sounds, the fireworks and people screaming from god knows where. I cried for a bit realizing how 2008 has yet came to an end and as everyone was celebrating, Im all alone. Im sure gonna miss 2008 as that was the year I've had memories. Good ones and bad ones. 2008 was the year Zhr asked me to be his. 2008 was the year I was 17 and the last year I was in high school. 2008 was also the year I've earned bad grades in my studies. 2008 was also the year I've been backstabbed by my own bestfriends. 2008 was the year I was ditched by my bestfriend. And so, the list goes on. As the fireworks sounds became louder, I forced myself to look out the balcony next to the couch I was lying on. I could see fireworks everywhere. From Sunway, from Puchong, Bukit Jalil, KL, and everywhere ! I started thinking, not bad. Everyone saw fireworks at a place and I've got to see from several places. Yes, it was perfect, the fireworks and everything. Well, it was perfect minus my boyfriend. I wish he was there with me. As I was gazing into the sky with multi colour fireworks, a little bit of tears came out to the corner of my eyes. I don't know why but I thought it was kind of sad how a year, a complete 365 days passed ever so quickly. My birthday in 2008 was the best birthday in my entire life. I still remember how I was fooled by my boyfriend and friends. And the next thing I knew, they were all at my house with cupcakes in hands. I was surprised and I cried. Tears of joy (': I love them so much. But now, the year 2009, we are all in different directions. Except Zhr, that is. Fara is now always busy with her own life, leaving me clueless behind her. Lola is now in UK. Had some misunderstandings with Edora. Azri is busy with his job. Aizat Afiq is in Tuaran, Sabah due to his National Service he loathe so much. Look how much 2009 envy me. Everything is different. This is just a little. The next thing I know, I will be in college. Sigh, I dont want to grow up. Yes, sure it was nice to graduate from high school. But despite the fact that I dont have to open a History text book anymore, I miss my friends. My classmates, the most as they were the one who always make me laugh every single day. Why oh why, dear God do I have to be older a year every 365 days ? My life has its ups and downs, but the only one who is always there for me through thick and thin is my boyfriend. Yes, we may have argued or pulled a face to each other, but despite what I did to him, the hurtful words I've thrown, he's always there for me no matter what. I'm thankful that someone who is really great is mine. I am pretty much blessed on that. Life could never be perfect, I suppose. I will remember every bit and pieces of memories I've made in 2008. And to 2009, I'm begging you to slow down. Don't go too fast as I want to enjoy my time being 18 despite the fact that 18 is still an age that I call old. I cant change the fact that I'm 18, but I'm asking 2009 to slow its speed and don't go too fast like 2008 did, because I don't want to be older than I am now. Just one thing, when 2009 decides to go fast, I want everything I have in my life now to still be there with me in all the years yet to come. My family, Zahir Fikri, Fara Adibah. I want them all to be in my life every year. Though life can never be perfect, I'm convinced that with them, my life is perfect for me.

So, its 2009 and the future is coming to smack me right in the face. Result is coming out 3months from now and next ? College. Ahhh the word that Im afraid of since as long as I can remember.

Seeing how I could not even sit up straight on my butt without a headache yesterday, I had to lie down and nothing else. I wanted to just close my eyes and sleep but I couldnt either as my head is spinning like crazy and my body hurts. So, I took the time to read. And so my book I bought the other day, Top8, finished. That book is really interesting. Madison MacDonald, the girl in that book, is really obsessed with Friendverse. Friendverse is pretty similar to Myspace and Facebook. And she got hacked twice and the hacker decided to ruin Madison's life. She has 3 best friends but were very close to one of them, Ruth Miller as they were friends since elementary school. Everyone except her 3bestfriends hated her, she and her boyfriend broke up and he was dating someone else and everything sucked for her ever since her profile was hacked. But she met a guy, Nate. I saw his photo in the book and he is cuh-ute ! Lol. To make the long story short, she found out who the hacker was and I couldn't believe myself either. Turned out that her best friend, Ruth was the one who hacked her because Ruth was jealous of how perfect Madison's life was. Sick, I know. She ended up being best friends with just the remaining two girls. And ended up dating that Nate guy ! (: I am now reading the other book I bought, Huge. Im now on my third chapter. I'll tell you how the story is when I finish the book, alright (:

Im going to Parade and going to Bangi to visit mommy's friend who just gave birth. Wait, its Bangsar. Oh maybe Bangi. I dont know. Whichever, I want to get ready. Toodles !
Oh oh, and

Happy New Year !

:)

Surprise, Surprise

" Oh, life is a glorious cycle of song, a medley of extemporanea ; and love is a thing that can never go wrong ; and I am Marie of Romania "

- Dorothy Parker

So today woke up at half an hour pass ten, showered and fell back asleep seeing how I slept at 6am after I went to an exhausting trip to Genting. Now Im having sores all over my body. How nice -__-

At around 1pm, Syakir fetched me at my house by his Wira with Zhr, Muaz and Yam. Went to Muaz's somekind of a 'spare house', I'd call it, in Court10. Syakir and Yam went somewhere else after dropping Zhr, Muaz and I. So, we went in, I watched Muaz and Zhr played taiti while waiting the others to come. Ohh wait, I forgot to tell you what were we doing there. Mind my short term, man -__- We were throwing a suprise birthday party for Thariq. Yeah, thats why we were there, waiting for several other people to come. After awhile, Apple and the others came. With Pizza Hut and KFC(s) in hands, we gathered up the food they brought on the table and we started to arrange it and stuffs. Done with that and we waited for the party to start which felt like decades ! The party that were said to be starting at 1.30pm ended up at almost 6pm. We were waiting for Thariq to come. He had to go to Shah Alam to settle some stuffs about his passport. While we, at the house were being completely crazy. We were so bored that we did some crazy stuffs. Some were playing Taiti, some were in the room, listening to the incredibly LOUD stereo, while some of us were out in the living room talking. I was with Zhr at the living room with a few others. The guys famished for food so a few of them stole a chicken from the KFC box and shared among them. They took the chicken in a room hoping Apple wont find out. Finally Thariq arrived and he was shocked. I guess. Its hard to tell with his expression-less face. Lol but he was so cute. And seeing he blew the candles and cut the cake in Apple's hands. Aww they're so sweet (: I went back with Rafique, I think thats his name. Haha.

Because I want to ,

" Foul whisperings are abroad. "

-Shakespeare

So woke up today at almost 9am. Showered and after everyone were ready, we were on our way to Genting Highlands. We stopped for a little while to eat Baskin Robbins. I wanted my favourite, Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough but that Baskin Robbins is not really umm, in well-conditioned. They dont even have daddy's favourite, Jamoca Almond Fudge. I mean like, hello ? I thought every BR has Jamoca. Its the most like-able flavour. Oh well, I ended up eating Maui Brownie, my third choice as my second, Chocolate Mousse Royale wasnt available there either. So I read my new book the whole time I was in the car. Arrived up there around 12. Soon as I got out from the car, I was practically frozen ! I didnt expect it to be ice cold. I had my black shorts on and I felt like a total dunderhead wearing it. Thank God I wore two pieces on top and long sleeved. Im pretty sure I wont be able to move if I was wearing short sleeved top. So then, mommy and Abang went to buy the tickets for us. And got ourselves inside the theme park. It was drizzling and that most certainly made the weather twice as cold. Maybe even thrice. So we went straight to the Pirate Ship but it was closed due to the bad weather. So we decided to ride other rides but they were all closed. We decided to go indoor and find a place to eat. When we were in the midst of searching for food, my eyes caught something else. A store with 5 big letters on top. MANGO. Ohh la la. Haha it was an outlet, not the boutique. So i forced daddy to go, and as I stepped inside, the prices really impressed me. A pair of blue flats just for RM49 ? A tshirt for RM19 ? a purse for RM49 ? Pair of very stylish skinny pants for RM65 ? Oh my eyes were practically popping out. As I was snatching all things I found nice and worth buying, mommy then had to ruin my excited-ness and said we'll come back later after the theme park as its hard to ride anything if we have so many bags in our hands. So i had to put the stuffs I picked earlier with a heavy heart. Sighh. So we continue our search for food. After like 8 restaurants, we still couldnt find a descent place to eat. Ended up eating at Marrybrown. I knoww right, I thought Marrybrown were extinct. Anywhooo, I was starved and ordered fish n chips. It was unexpectedly delicious. After eating, we went to theme park again hoping the rides will be open. And yes, they were. So we were having so much fun on the first right on Pirate Ship. To the Tobbagon, then to the Mine train, Cyclone etc. I must say, I like Mine train and Pirate ship the most and therefore rode them twice. But I didnt have the nerve to ride Space Shot, Corkscrew and the new spiderman thingy. Im a chicken, I knoww. I really dont understand how people can ride the really scary ones. I would be in a comma if I ride one of those. Lol. I had to borrow Abang's sweater to keep me warm. But that sweater wasnt much a help either. So i just have to stand the expected to be 15Celsius temperature. After blistering my foot, cramping my whole body, blotch-ing my nose and numb-ing my fingers, I urged daddy to go back. I was so freezing cold. We left Genting feeling exhausted but happy (: We went to Shah Alam to eat near daddy's office. When we arrived, we saw daddy's office bright with lights. It was almost 12am, who could be there ? Turned out to be one of daddy's worker there, working ? Noo, he was not. Sleeping ? Nope, not that either. Guess what ? Watching porno. Yes, a 40 something years old man, watching that. Okayy, gross. So anyway, daddy told us that he had been watching those stuffs for quite a while now. Daddy had blocked the Internet access to any porn websites but then he brought cds to the office. Truckloads of them. Whats wrong with him ? Addicted, much ? Ewww !

Oh and you know, as I was riding the Tobbagon, that ride requires only one person, so I had to go alone. And as that thing was moving so freaking fast, my hair got stucked. I panicked and quickly pull my head and managed to get free. I was relieved -___- Oh and we end up going back at almost 10pm. Meaning, NO MNG ! Shoot, shoot, shoot ! Ahhhh I really want those flats, that skinny, that purse, that everything ! ): But anyway, I still had fun riding all those rides and I had fun with my family (:

Sooo, daddy said he doesnt want me to go out tomorrow. But I've promised Zhr and I want to meet him. Im looking forward to see him. Sighh, lets just hope daddy will change his mind tomorrow. Hope so. As for now, my thighs are screaming, my back aches, and everything on my body hurts. Might as well get some rest now. Cheers (:

You know I love you ,

One day, Saturday

I fell asleep while texting Zhr last night. Prove I was very tired. I woke up at 7am and received a really sweet text from Zhr. I managed to smile to myself before falling back asleep. Woke up half an hour to 11, and showered. Came online before breakfast but got fed up with the oh so stupid internet -__- After setting my laptop to standby mode, I dragged myself to the kitchen, took out the cereal box and ate a few pieces of honey stars straight from the box without fresh milk. Then, I didnt know what to do, so I went in mommy's room. As I entered the room, the first sentence that came out from daddy's mouth was 'you're getting fatter' Ahhh yes, the words I loathe so much coming out from anyone's mouth. I pretended I didnt hear him to ease myself. But ofcourse, daddy's in his funny mood and tried to annoy me by saying it again and again. Way to go, dad -__- I then shot him a look, and said, yeah I know. So ? Then he laughed at me ! Good God. Haha. Oh well, later I went back to my room, took my top off and stand in front of my bed room mirror for like an hour. I stand in every possible angles. Lol, could I be obsess ? Maybe, whatever. After hearing daddy's blissful words, I was determined to start dieting back. But then, mommy had to cook a very delicious looking meal, and I ate. Like usual, I regretted eating and drank a glass of lemonade without sugar hoping it will help me cleanse. And yes, it helps. Alot. Thankyou, lemonade ! Lol

Okayy, daddy just told me to get ready. Genting, here I come ! Okay I know its not Disneyland, but at least Im not bored at home, eat and sleep, hence increasing the size of my arse. Lol. Bye !

I befriended Chocolate

At 2 something pm, Nina, mommy and I arrived at Wangsa Maju. Met up with my aunt and went straight to the Spa. Euro Sense, the name. Once I stepped in the spa, I was like, omygoshh. I was pretty convinced I was in heaven for almost 4hours. Lol. After keeping our bags in the locker, Nina and I were escorted by two Chinese ladies upstairs. While mommy and my aunt were kept downstairs. The fourth floor was even better. With the decorations and stuffs. I feel so relaxed just by inhaling the smell of herbs and nature. Nina and I were asked to change into the towels on the beds. As soon as we changed, we lied down and the ladies started to put scrub product on our bodies. It smelled alot like chocolate and I felt like eating it. Goshh. So after scrubbing our bodies, it was time for the body wrap. We were poured in a tasty banana-smelled liquid and I felt my stomach screaming. I was suddenly starved as soon as I breathed in the banana smell. We were wrapped in some kind of a plastic and were heated. Sounds like we're ingredients to bake a banana cake. Lol. But yes, its true. They put a heater to heat our bodies under the beds we were lying on. It sure was hot. I was sweating for 15minutes and finally the ladies came back and asked us to go rinse ourselves. Then finally, manicure. The moment I've been waiting for ! Haha we went downstairs and were served chinese tea. I asked the lady to do a french manicure for me. The result ? Ohh la la ! Haha i love it :)

After spa, we went to Aeon mall, ate at a restaurant called Sakura something. I forgot -__- I had a plate of Bangkok fried rice which was okayy. Not the oh-so-delicious-my-saliva-is-running-down-my-mouth kind of delicious. Just okay. And I ordered Chocolate ice blended which was soooo yummy but I regret having it because it was so creamy and fattening. But I finished it all anyway. Despite the guilty feeling I was having for consuming too much of fats, guess what ? Dessert ! Ahhhh, the famous delicious but so fattening dessert, ICE CREAM ! Yes. I ate bread pudding ice cream. It was YUMMMMMMMYYYYYYYY but as soon as I ate the last piece of the pudding, ice cream and whipped cream on top, I felt like killing myself. Seriously, why do I have to ruin my diet ? Shoot me in the head, somebody. Better yet, shoot me in the throat so that way maybe I could throw up all the things I've ate earlier ? Yeahh right, Ayeen. Not funny -__- So anyways, we were walking and met this celebrity. Nubhan from Akademi Fantasia ? Okayy you guys are probably thinking, what the hell ? I knowwwwwww, right. I didnt know him but seeing him made me want to know him. Haha get what I mean ? Okay for all you slow people, I think he's hot. He's skinny and tall. And that hair ! but he was smoking with hs friends. What a turn off, I know. Im not the one who's into him though. Yeah, I think he has the looks but nahh. Zahir is always the greatest. Aww, Im so sweet, arent I ? Haha. Anyways, Nina was the one who swooned. She was like, awww look at him, he's so hot he's so hot he's so hot ! Hahaha typical Nina. We then walked in the mall and my aunt said she wanted to buy the nail buffer at a Korean shop called Tsuya Tsuya. We went there and the two promoters are soooo adorable. A couple of so talkative chinese girls. So cute. Abang just sat there and smiled, then he whispered, they're so cute. Lol. Turned out that we bought several other manicure stuffs instead of just the buffer. And of course I was the one who persuaded daddy to buy all those stuffs for me. I managed to get a nail file, two bottles of cuticles relaxer, nail buffer and a nail pusher. Haha poor daddy :) Mommy then decided to get a manicure too. So we waited for couple of hours there. After that, I went to a Hotlink store nearby to topup. I asked for a Rm10. I punched in my number and guess what ? I didnt even get the 10dollar credit. A bunch of shitheads decided to cheat me. Ugh. Now Im running out od credit to text Zhr. I hate you, liar. Sighh. Went to Awish's place. I was really scared to see the houses that were 'eaten' by the landslide. Goshh it was really scary. I kept quiet the whole journey. When the clock hits 10pm, we went back without Ipan. He's sleeping over there. After several minutes in the car, my aunt called. At first I thought I've forgotten to take my things at her place but then Awish's voice was calling me at the end of the other phone. He asked me to sleepover at his house. Aww so cute ! But I cant, I didnt bring my toiletries and lingerie. So I had to refused :( I got home and was too lazy to shower. So I washed up and changed into my pj's. Ohh what a day huh :)

Im exhausted and very sleepy. So goodnight sweeties :)

Our Deepest Darkest Secret ,

So, yesterday daddy decided to take us all out. We went to our usual mamak restaurant to eat. Then we didnt know where to go. So daddy just drove us to god knows where. In the end, we ended up at bb. Nina insisted daddy to go Sg. Wang which I dont understand. I mean, man, I hate that place. I hate bb to for that matter. Its jam packed with people. And yesterday wasnt any different. We were stuck in front of Times Square for like, what ? An hour or so ? Ugh. So we just walked there. I know, wasting time eh ? Haha so Abang called me later on asking where were we and are we coming to Pyramid. We promised to meet him up at Pyramid where he works. And I told him we're on our way. Yeah right. Haha. I urged daddy to leave KL, pronto.

Daddy wanted to buy something for his Macbook at Machines in Sunway. So we left Dad there and Mom asked me to accompany her to go to the cinema to buy tickets for Yes Man. AGAIN ! Haha. Unfortunately, the show started at 920pm and it was 945pm by the time I got there with Mom. Abang wanted to watch with us so we have to watch after 10, after he finish his work. Daddy said we should go to Summit to see if the tickets for the 1040pm show were still available. So we rushed to Summit but couldnt really get there earlier because of the traffic. It was 10 and obviously, everyone decided to go back home the same time we did when we were rushing -__- Arrived at 1025pm, bought the tickets and waited for Abang to arrive. My third time watching Yes Man. Lol. I love Jim Carrey. And Zooey too. I keep thinking why is she so pretty with that hairstyle but I was completely the opposite with the same hairstyle ? Lol. Whatever. So, movie ended at around 1230am. Got back and texted Zhr. He called at 3something in the morning and we just talked an laughed alot. I just love how he calls me in the middle of the night. You know, I think thats really cute and sweet :) And when we were both out of words to say, he'll say those words that will put a smile on my face throughout our conversation. So after we hung up, I slept straight away. It was almost 5am and I was tired.

Woke up today by the sound of my cellphone. Text message. Ohh, stupid maxis decided to interrupt my beauty sleep at 9 in the morning. Nicee. I deleted the unnecessary text from Maxis and went to back to sleep. As I was about to close my eyes, text message again. I decided to just let it be because that will probably be Maxis again. I received another 7texts and the sound just cant make me sleep. So I decided to delete all the texts from, YES, MAXIS -__- with my eyes closed. Lol. Then I fell back asleep. About half an hour later, mommy came and knocked on my door asking me to get up and get ready. We're going to Wangsa Maju today to the Spa with my aunt that I've been excited for since before SPM started ? Haha. I got up, showered and blow dried my hair. Oh how nice, bad hair day today. Sigh. Im now still in my robe. Have. To. Get. Ready. Now. Or mommy will go ballistic. Oh, I sounded a little English there, no ? Haha

Toodles !