Of strains and aches

Just finished dance practice. We spent like, an hour to wait for Hazim as he was in an accident. And I was feeling so freaking tired and exhausted throughout the whole dance. Hazim just thought us a new dance, My Love. I was pretty excited about it but I wasnt just now. I was too tired to even care if I did the steps right. But just to be nice to Hazim, as he had always been nice to all of us, I tried my best to keep a smile on my face. The dance practically continued until midnight. And boy, wasnt I knackered! I went up to the room alone as Ika was going somewhere with Betik after the dance and Noor, like usual. Back at home every chance she got. I showered alone, trying to be done as fast as I can.

Oh, seeing I was too tired to think or even focus on something, when I was dancing at Gazebo, I saw lover everywhere. Seriously, like everywhere. Guess I was very very tired or maybe I miss him too much. I dont know. After showering, I had to wait for lover as he was playing futsal with his group of friends. Though my body was so tempted to the bed and my eyes were about to give up, I forced myself to stay awake for lover. Because I dont want him to get mad when he knows I didnt wait for him or something. He called and all I hear was his friends' voices, screaming here and there. Gave me serious headache, I kid you not. Everything is getting on my last nerve when Im this tired. Sigh. I'll have to sleep it off, I guess. But wait, I'll have to wait for him, still. Okay, Im waiting now

My heart will tumble

So classes today were kind of boring. Except for English and Accounts. I arrived in class today alone. And late. The front row was full, so I had to dragged myself to the back of the class and sat there. I saw Noor at the back row too, so I flashed a grin. I sat alone today. I didnt mind, because we were all busy jotting down notes anyway. So I dont see the point on being choosy with whom should I sit with. I sat blankly while my Physics lecturer blabbed something about optics. My mind flew all the way to Bangi. You know why. To all you dunderheads who dont know why Bangi, its where KLIUC, lover's college is located. When Probability came, my mind flew to everywhere else in the world except in class. I took down notes regardless. So, though my mind wasnt in class, later own the notes will be useful when exams are coming. After that was accounts. Now, this was the time I flew back in class. My mind was very focus on accounting. Perhaps because I already did accounts last year and I felt excited when I got the answers to the lecturer's questions. Haha. After class, Noor and I walked to Pekan Buku which is kind of far to walk. We had to because we had been delaying our trip there since the first week we were here for second semester. Our walk under the blazing sun wasnt worth it when all the books we were planning to buy were out of stock. Can you believe it? I cant. So just to make all the sweat worth and the strain on our legs heal, we bought pens and notepads. Just for the sake of the sweat that were running down our back, between our cleavages, on our foreheads. We walked back to college and it wasnt any better as the sun was starting to really climb up on top of our heads. By the time we reached college, our sweat was like waterfall running down our bodies. I swear to God, we were sweating as if we just showered with our own sweat. We chilled out in the room for awhile and had to get our asses to our next classes. The time passed by a blur. I told you so.

Tomorrow

So, Im not going back to college tonight as Hazim cancelled our dance. So, I have to do my tutorial in rush tomorrow. Awish just went back. And Im missing him already. Talking about miss, I miss lover so bad. I havent really spend a day without him. I didnt get to see him today. Explains the withdrawals Im having. I need you, boyfriend. Sigh. I produced sweat today! Which is a total good news as I was eating like mad these past days. I learnt the steps I watched on Youtube. And boy, wasnt it hard! But it was all worth it when I finally got the steps. Not as sharp as the dancers but Im still trying. Still not in the mood to blog. That explains all the short posts I posted these past few days. Sorry! I'll post a long one when Im in the mood okay.

Moment of Truth

I was lazing around with Noor in my room at college when Ika called saying our results were out. I didnt want to go because I was too scared. I knew my result would be so bad that I would cry. So Noor and I slipped into our baju kurung(s) and headed to the old lecturers' building. When Dr. Zahara handed me my slip, I felt like my heart is about to burst out from my chest. I survived the almost heart attack and teared up the ends of my slip to open it. First thing I saw was of course, like I expected, I flunked both my math and physics+chemistry. But I did get an A- for my environmental studies which was a shocker as I didnt expect it due to my break down about my grandma on that particular day. However, I was shocked, so shocked that I even thought I might have been swallowed by the ground when I saw my Microeconomics is B+. I did so well that I expected an A- at least. Sigh. What more when I saw my CGPA which was awful. Despite that, I didnt cry. Because to be frank, I was half disappointed but a part of me was relieved as I did better than my midterm. But still. After taking our results, we returned to our room and wasted the remaining time in our room, lazing around. At 1500, we got ready as we had this talk I said earlier. It wasnt even that important, and it ended earlier that it supposed to be. Right after class, I asked Zahir to come and fetch me up. I went to Dewan Gemilang after that and met up with Isabella for the modern indian dance. Im joining and good news!Noor might too. Lets just hope she'll join :) Lover arrived later and Noor and I were rushing. Lover brought me to dinner at Dominos just now. I ate alot! And now Im happy. But dont remind me of that little slip of mine that I kept safely in my bag. Ugh

Running nose

To add a cherry to the cupcake, not just the fact that I didnt get into design group had making me grumpy since the last 24hours. This nose had been a pain in the ass too, I tell you. Feel like taking a knife and cut it off my face. Its so irritating. I cant even breathe while I sleep. Ugh. I went to sleep last night breathing through my mouth which is so not comfortable. I woke up today by the vibration of my red LG under my pillow. Thought it was lover, I quickly ran my hands under my pillow searching for the phone. It was actually mommy calling and asked me to cook Cabonara for breakfast. After hanging up, I straight away call lover to wake him up. After hanging up, I woke Nina up and asked hr whether she's still up for the McDonald's invite. You see, last night when I got home from college, Nina asked me to go to McDonald's for supper. But I wasnt in the mood to eat, so I said no.But today, I feel like eating. Im not really famish, but hungry, definitely. I didnt eat dinner last night. So, fillet o fish, here I come.

I received a text from one of the dancers in my college, but not in my group. Isabella asked me whether Im interested in a modern Indian dance to perform. I told her Im not sure, feeling guilty to let her down without thinking about it. So I think Im going to consider it. We practised our new dance last night and it was awe-freaking-some, I kid you not. Its one of the MJ song, and the dance moves are so fast that you can see how awesome it is when we all do it in synchronization. I cant wait for the performance, its going to be insane!

blotchy watery red eyes of mine

Found out I didnt get in the design group. Sigh Im so disappointed in myself :(

Six Hundred

Today marks the 600th days of lover and I together. I love you, Zahir!!

Oh and mommy bought me the bag I've wanted for soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo long. Im so happy. I love you mommy.