Nightmares

Do you like nightmares? I know I don't. And I don't mean the ghost kind of nightmares. Nightmares as in, it involves your loved ones and you sure don't want it to happen in real life. I had one of those nightmares last night. I thought the dream was real.

Then I woke up with tears on my cheeks.

I just don't like these dreams because when I wake up, I will think that it's going to happen for real. So I'll be so insecure and doubting everyone. Not to mention, I'll be as grumpy as an old man the whole day. Till the next day, probably. So you can guess my mood the whole day today. And the fact that I had to wake up crying because of those dreams.. ugh.

I can get very angry sometimes just because I dream something bad. I've had so many bad dreams but the worst got to be the one where I dreamt of Zahir leaving me because of another girl. I always have the same dream and the girl he leaves me for in the dreams is the same girl. And I happen to know her in real life. Imagine how hard can it be for me.

I know I'm only 20 and there's still a very long way to go. There are a lot of new people I'm going to meet. Anything can happen in a few years time. Yes yes, I've heard all of that before. But though I'm 20, doesn't mean my relationship is a joking matter. I take relationships seriously and be it 20 or not, my relationship is serious. I know Zahir and I started our relationship in high school but our relationship is not like those typical high school love. We were/are serious. So I can't imagine if my dreams come true.

So, what's your worst nightmare?